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ceelobling

ceelobling

Student
Dec 29, 2025
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On my bed after I drink sn. I don't care who finds my body.
 
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cryingmercenary

cryingmercenary

New Member
Aug 20, 2026
4
I don't want to be found. I want to ctb in an old mine. We have a lot in my district and I mean a lot. Try finding me in a labyrinth that's 2000km long
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
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is N mean nitrogen ? like an exit bag right?
N meant nembutal as such
However nitrogen is also good with exit bag if you can get the setup right and know the intricacies of the method
 
diealegend24

diealegend24

Member
May 11, 2026
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I hope to never be found - I want to vanish. Though I know that this is hard in this era.

I feel the same exact way friend. I know it's hard but I'm confident there are places that exist in which we can end life but never be found again.

It's hard but it's definitely possible. Cause many people go missing all the time intentionally and they are never found.

I hope we both find a place where we can die and never be found until the end of time.
I don't want to be found. I want to ctb in an old mine. We have a lot in my district and I mean a lot. Try finding me in a labyrinth that's 2000km long
Same I don't ever want to be found. I can't CTB unless it's a place where I'm sure I'll never be found.
It might be in the form of ashes. It's wildfire season here, and I'm not going to abandon my house if one springs up nearby.
Where in the world do wildfire occur a lot I want to go live there
 
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salieri

salieri

If you no longer fear death you control fear
Apr 7, 2023
20
Personally always thought a hospital setting would be a good idea. Bathroom maybe atleast the people to find me wouldn't be seeing anything new considering their profession.
 
Dissolving Figment

Dissolving Figment

the examined life is miserable
Aug 21, 2026
40
In a forest or in a car parked on a remote road.

The three diaries I've filled in my darkest moments by my side, along with a note asking the person who finds them to burn them or keep them but, if they could, make sure they don't make their way back to someone I knew.

I would dispose of them myself but I wouldn't want to lose them if I failed my attempt.
 
SuicIdiot

SuicIdiot

Chasing the Bus
Oct 19, 2024
44
I would want to be found by a stranger. Preferably someone who is more used to seeing dead people. Like a cop.

Absolutely would want to be found completely dead. None of this trying to revive me shit. A solid time of death call when people evidently arrive.

The least amount of body trauma would be ideal. Although, the idea of a shotgun to the brain seems blissful…
 
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termination2434

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Aug 28, 2026
8
Hi to whoever reads this. Familiar with the site, but this is my first time interacting after finally making an account. Anyway...
To be completely honest, I'm not sure. I have a few ideas of how I'd like the end to come about, but never really one I've locked in on. Maybe found unconscious, no pulse with a mask on next to a helium tank. That way it wouldn't leave a gruesome scene behind for whoever finds me.
 
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Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
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everythingturnsgrey

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Aug 21, 2026
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If I was going to do hanging, I'd do PSH with guitar cord from a door, with a folded sock or towel or something over either of my cartoids. Get slightly drunk the night of, kneel and press my neck into the cord. should black out in just a couple seconds, and nobody's coming looking for me so I'll have more than enough time to truly die.

This does sound nice…
I just aborted an attempt midway thru due to SI that is almost exactly this haha. Slightly drunk kneeling PSH with a guitar cord, though its affixed to the metal beam in my closet not a door. No neck padding either but i found a good positioning of the cord where it doesnt hurt, it would be peaceful. I just find it charming we have the same thing in mind, but i hope your life miraculously turns around and you end up living a long healthy happy life of course.
Realistically i will likely be in my bedroom closet expired via PSH. I want to spare my mom the visual of my lifeless body but the alternative, the forest, is so cold and scary at night. And if animals ate me or something that might be more traumatizing. I would at least lock my door and leave a note saying to call the police and not open it. I would also like to text my ex boyfriend i am very close with to call the police to my address as soon as he wakes up, which is much earlier than my mom would wake up and he keeps his phone on airplane mode while he sleeps so he wouldnt see it until the morning (wouldn't interrupt me). I don't want my mom to have to see any more horrors in this life.
 
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CrawlingInMySkin

CrawlingInMySkin

Blood is Red, and Sweet as Cherry Wine
Jun 14, 2026
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I just aborted an attempt midway thru due to SI that is almost exactly this haha. Slightly drunk kneeling PSH with a guitar cord, though its affixed to the metal beam in my closet not a door. No neck padding either but i found a good positioning of the cord where it doesnt hurt, it would be peaceful. I just find it charming we have the same thing in mind, but i hope your life miraculously turns around and you end up living a long healthy happy life of course.
Aww, I'm sorry mate. I hope you can find at least a little happiness in the extra time you've got now. And thank you, everyone deserves a happy life...
If you don't mind me asking, what kind of guitar do you have? Sorry for being nosey, just not often I find people with things in common. I've got an Epiphone Les Paul and a Mustang 20g amp, wbu? If you want to share of course. Love and peace♥️
 

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