How was your school life?Did you have a happy school life?

[iwanttodie019]

I had a miserable school life.

Being shy and sensitive did not help at all.
It led to a lot of bullying.

I still hate my childhood bullies and I have CPTSD from my school life

 

[Namelesa]

FUCKING miserable. Its what made me first suicidal and depressed in the first place and I still have nightmares about it to this day. I just couldn't emotionally handle the stressful, boring torturous work for long hours at a day per day while dealing with the constant fear of teachers getting angry or disappointed at me or having to see them do that with other students. I probably just pathetic but still fuck school for still greatly negatively effecting me to this day.

 

[TwistedNightmares]

Mine was miserable. I was constantly bullied and outcasted no matter what school I went to.

 

[Forveleth]

My school life was very different depending on the era I was in. In elementary, I was the naive, happy-go-lucky kid and all was flowers and rainbows. In middle school I was starting to struggle socially but did fine academically. High school had me a full social outcast and I was starting to struggle academically. In college I was an absolute disaster.

 

[starboy2k]

elementary school was a shitshow.
middle school was a shitshow.
high school was a shitshow.
I didn't even finish college because I realized I was too retarded to do so.

 

[silverana]

Unhappy. But that was more about me than other people who mostly didn't know how to help

 

[littlecutecorpse]

fuuucks no, school was a depressing shithole, ESPECIALLY in high school. hell, i didn't even FINISH high school after burnout and depression fucked me over. i was bullied to hell in my elementary/middle school years. and maybe i was in high school, even. i'm not sure.

seems like all that school has taught me is that everyone's a pos in which they try to hide it through treats and events and fun positivity bs to distract us all from the miserable hellhole we go to daily. faculty didn't help in the slightest.

maybe i'm just shedding my angsty earlier teen self rn, but i can't help but be frustrated when i think about my school years. :/

 

[heywey]

My family moved around a lot growing up, so all told I went to... six different schools? Seven if you count a year of homeschooling. I dropped out my junior year of high school, I was going to a place was just a nightmare. There was one school where I was actually comfortable, I struggled a bit but it was a manageable sort of struggle; I wonder how things could have been different if I had stayed there.

Take it from me folks, you're not the problem, 95% of schools really do just suck. It's not something inherent to the education process or anything, it's possible for them to be okay, they're just not.

 

[cosimaniehaus]

I really loved the high school I went to, and my classmates too, and even 10 years later I can't let them go. I think about someone from there almost every day, even though I don't keep in touch with any of them.
Since I've known them, I've idealized them, and that feels weird because I've never idealized anyone without reason. I was never interested in people who were just superficially popular, and they weren't like that, but still, I never really belonged there, even though I wanted to.

What hurts the most is that I was in the right place at the right time. For a period, I was surrounded by people I would have loved to be friends with, and that high school was like a salvation compared to elementary, which was CONSTANT bullying ( I just learned to deal with it) but I was always "not enough" for the people I wanted to be close to, as I later realized in high school. And I'm sad because I've always picked friends based on normal stuff: if they're kind, if we click, if I can share secrets without them spilling, if we can laugh at things together, but even with that, I was not enough, or I was weird, or boring, or stood out, I don't know.

In 2016 I completely broke down and started taking really heavy psychiatric meds, and since then it feels like I have no personality, no empathy, no humor, no intelligence, nothing. I totally understand why anyone would reject being friends with me, it's fair.

But before 2016? Only about three photos were ever taken of me, and two of them were mandatory class pictures. I don't know why I never fit in.
It feels like i'm a double loser because I was rejected by people who weren't even cruel, and that hurts so much.

Probably it's me, I'm a loser and I always will be

 

[Tombadil]

I am 48 and i still suffer from the trauma it gave me. I will take that to my grave.