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Iseeshadowsinmyroom

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May 26, 2023
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I'm not exactly afraid to CTB or death itself, its more like what comes after death. The thought of eternal non-existence is very overwhelming. I'm also religious so i think that also plays a part, but i don't think God would put someone through suffering twice. But im honestly curious about the after life. Is there even heaven and hell? There's a lot to think about when it comes to death. Does anyone else feel this way? Please share your thoughts!
 
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Terrible_Life

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Jul 3, 2025
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I don't know what will happen after I'm dead but I know one thing already, it'll be much better than continuing this horrible life.
 
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verybabybunny

verybabybunny

in pain
May 11, 2023
37
There is no afterlife. Its non-existence like you said. Which im ngl is an issue for me too when it comes to this topic. It actually is kind of what sparked my suicidality, I used to lay in bed and cry myself to sleep when I was a kid thinking about how before I was here I was nothing, not able to experience any of this at all, and, yeah once I experienced death as a child. That really messed me up. Scares the shit out of me.

Im borderline deciding what scares me more, getting old, watching my body stop working from underneath me, losing everyone or everyone dying around me, more constant failure, more crippling depression, more physical pain. Or nothing at all. I guess for me right now its still nothing at all because im not gone yet.

Cheers.
 
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dyingisliving

dyingisliving

The coping must end.
Nov 20, 2025
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There is no afterlife. Its non-existence like you said. Which im ngl is an issue for me too when it comes to this topic. It actually is kind of what sparked my suicidality, I used to lay in bed and cry myself to sleep when I was a kid thinking about how before I was here I was nothing, not able to experience any of this at all, and, yeah once I experienced death as a child. That really messed me up. Scares the shit out of me.

Im borderline deciding what scares me more, getting old, watching my body stop working from underneath me, losing everyone or everyone dying around me, more constant failure, more crippling depression, more physical pain. Or nothing at all. I guess for me right now its still nothing at all because im not gone yet.

Cheers.
You really don't know if there isn't, it's a big gamble we all take.
 
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idiotmother

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Mar 21, 2025
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No one knows for sure. Lots of people on here are adamant that it's non existence because once the brain stops all inner workings stop. I personally think life is too intricate for it to be nothingness. I've also been listening to "channeling Erik" on YouTube, which is about a boy who ctb'd and his mom uses mediums to talk to him. Sounds like a bs to most, but it's interesting. He thought there would be nothingness but he found himself on another plane of existence.

Consciousness is too powerful and not well enough understood for humans to know for sure.
 
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AstralMadness

AstralMadness

hellwalker
Nov 20, 2025
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i don't think there's much to do about it aside from being really at your limit and pursuing the end of it all
 
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QuincyME

QuincyME

Student
Feb 23, 2024
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Personally I think you return to a state of nonexistence like you were before you were conceived.
 
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