Help How to stop being a coward

[wasteodwords]

While I'm in the process of researching what method is best for me I was wondering if anyone had any advice on how to follow through with it. I've tried so many different times and so many different ways in the past, but I'm too much of a bitch to follow through with it. Honestly it's kinda fitting I can't even succeed at killing myself. Any suggestions?

 

[Praestat_Mori]

You're not a coward. Living is difficult dying is even more difficult. When you're ready to leave you will find the strength you need to overcome SI and to do it. In other words when you're in total desperation and hopelessness that also my help overcoming SI.

 

[feverinjection]

I promise it has nothing to do with being a coward. It's just science, it's your body's natural reaction. It's something that takes a lot of breaking down to get used to.

With that being said, I think when your time actually comes, you won't feel as scared. I like to think of it as part of fate. It's really not your fault.

 

[wasteodwords]

I don't understand why my body isn't cooperating when there's nothing to keep living for. I've already made peace with that fact.

 

[DeletedAccount0864]

Not CTB is not "being a coward".

Everyone has their own time. If you don't have a firm desire to CTB, it's not yours. Nobody here will convince you to do this.

 

[wasteodwords]

Not CTB is not "being a coward".

Everyone has their own time. If you don't have a firm desire to CTB, it's not yours. Nobody here will convince you to do this.

I've definitely decided to do it. If anything I think I'm more worried about what would happen if I fail.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it terrible and cruel how it's so unnecessarily difficult to die, people should simply have the option to die in a painless way without any risks or complications, I'd also fear trying to die going wrong and leading to worse suffering. But anyway I hope that you eventually find what you search for, I understand that it's dreadful feeling trapped in this existence.

 

[DEATH IS FREEDOM]

Soldiers and terrorists are trained to overcome the fear of death by exposing themselves to danger. Nothing can be accomplished without courage. Anyone can be brave.

 

[LaughingGoat]

I don't understand why my body isn't cooperating when there's nothing to keep living for. I've already made peace with that fact.

I've definitely decided to do it. If anything I think I'm more worried about what would happen if I fail.

It's your brain that's not cooperating because there is a part of you that is holding onto something still, whether that is solely the fear of failing or something more that you aren't aware of. Choosing a method that has a near impossible chance of failure may help, but if the hesitation is due to more than that, then that won't be enough.

 

[wasteodwords]

It's your brain that's not cooperating because there is a part of you that is holding onto something still, whether that is solely the fear of failing or something more that you aren't aware of. Choosing a method that has a near impossible chance of failure may help, but if the hesitation is due to more than that, then that won't be enough.

I definitely think finding something "reliable"is my main hurdle right now. Hopefully if I can convince myself there's no risk of failing then I should be able to take care of it soon.

 

[LaughingGoat]

I definitely think finding something "reliable"is my main hurdle right now. Hopefully if I can convince myself there's no risk of failing then I should be able to take care of it soon.

In that case, getting your hands on a shotgun would be your best bet. As long as you follow the resources here on setting it up properly, the risk of failure is as non-existent as it gets.

 

[UKscotty]

You are not a coward for carrying on. We only CTB once all hope is gone and we are truly ready.

There are no shortcuts or guides. It is the last resort for a reason.

People will say all sorts of nonsense but the reality is no one is ready until the act.

 

[kudaphillips]

I'm in the same exact boat. I'm so desperate to ctb but really haven't gotten to close . I have every type of firearm , all the inert gas rigs , supposed pentobarbital ( need to test it but don't know how, exit int tests are garbage ). People say " well your just not ready ". I'm fucking ready , been ready for 10 years .
I think since life has gone insanely ridiculously wrong , I don't trust that ctb will go well. Even if I succeed and die , I'll probably have my soul captured by dark entity or something , this adds uncertainty. Not to mention the insanely pussy SI that I seem to have .
Shotgun 00 buckshot , in back of my mouth , I know it's game over . Can't fucking do it .
Inert gas rig, I get drenched with sweat within first 10 seconds and pull the bag off.

Oh well, back to another day of smashing my face with a monkey wrench in my chair , only got like 50 more years to go