Help How to sneak out to CTB?

[fluorine.uranium.99]

I do NOT want to CTB in my house. For two reasons.
1) I do not want my family to find me.
2) Bad stuff happened here during my childhood, and spending my last moments here is not what I want. I want to die free.

What I'd like to do: sneak out at night, go to a secluded park or lake or something similar. Somewhere peaceful.

Problems:
1) Both doors to my house are equipped with a Ring camera. When opened, it makes a sound, and sends a notification to my mom's phone. It also has a motion detector and records.
2) My bedroom door is on the second floor. I can not jump from there.
3) They'd hear if I opened the garage.
4) I have no friends and my parents know that. So, I cannot lie about sleeping over at someone's house to use that chance to do it.
5) Even though I'm 18, I still have limited freedoms. I barely get to leave my house. When I do, it's for school or going to the store (with a parent). This complicates things because I can't leave on my own, especially at night.

Any ideas would be appreciated. Thanks

 

[TheHolySword]

I wish that I had advice to give or any solutions. But if you're still in school maybe you want to wait? see what more life has to offer beyond those walls? I understand how cruel the world can be though and sometimes waiting to see when you're already so exhausted sounds impossible. And all those years spent waiting and hoping just to fall flat can be devastating. I think right now your situation is very restrictive with what your options really are, and I would hate to see you make anything worse for yourself by attempting and getting caught or surviving with life changing side effects. I hope one day you can find your peace