How to keep fighting ?

[SailorBlue]

I alternate between moments where I desperately want to get better and moments where I can no longer do it and I want to ctb because the suffering and regrets are unbearable.

Does this happen to you too, how do you keep going with a dire mental state ?
Is there a way to trick the thoughts into continuing to move forward ?

I don't know what to do anymore, all I wanted was a normal life.

 

[gottacheckout]

Normal is way overrated.

I've lived long enough to realize that my mental state swings both ways. While I'd really like more of a steady mood that is not going to happen.

 

[Ch4in3dcr0w]

there is unfortunetly nothing like "normal" life. The swings between those 2 moods are your own normal and they will be with u to some degree till the rest of your life u have to learn and navigate the good times and bad times either with experience or with the help of the professional. The best thing in my opinion u can do is beat out the thought of the "normal" life in your thoughts because like the word normal its all subjetive and focus on your own recovery :)