Help how to get over a horrifically abusive friendship?

[bleedingbxnes]

Last summer, after years of physical mishandling, toxicity, bullying, et cetera, my closest friend told me that he had always found me annoying and basically dumped me. I've found that the mere mention of him causes me to become very suicidal. A mutual friend defended him last week and I was literally planning on hanging myself with my shoelaces in the bathroom.

Before anyone asks why I stayed friends with this person- I don't know. I was in a horrific place mentally (shocker), we had mutual friends, I thought he was a cool person. I don't know.

 

[SexyIncél]

Are you able to get distance from him & his flunkies?

 

[bleedingbxnes]

not really. we go to the same school, no mutual classes though

 

[Sleeper System]

I don't think people think deeply enough about what it means to be in a relationship of any kind.
You're letting this person in and opening yourself up to the possibility of things going not how you intended.
Essentially, you already fucked up. This person is bonded to you mentally. Only time and more superior relationships can overwrite bad ones. And even then, you probably wont fully get over it.

 

[todienomore]

watch a thousand hours of sam vaknin

im drunk and dancing sorry not sorry