how to fight si?

[sick.faery]

(si = survival instinct)

 

[Romanticize]

benzodiazepines are best. They detach you mentally and emotionally. Thats the stuff they give you before surgery (midazolam that is). But any grade will do, and sleeping pills like zolpidem will too.

EDIT:
and you can get that from a doctor (even first care). They will prescribe 1 pack of diazepam(valium) or alprazolam (xanax) if u tell them ur going through lots of stress in life, like divorce, job change etc. and cannot sleep at all.

Just dont use name "xanax" because thats what junkies do, use alprazolam or diazepam or some low-key product names with these substances.

And if 1 doctor says no, just go to another one.
If u eat 1 pack of anything, you will be so careless (you'd give no fucks what will happen to you, you cant think forward, like- oh, if i do that, it will hurt or i may end up a vegetable, no you just cannot think cause->effect on high benzo dose. you can jump from 30m or fall asleep on train tracks- no problem. Just act pretty fast because if u eat lots of it, you will lose consciousness/blackout fast. 15-30min is guaranteed.