Crazy wave of SI the day before my KN arrives

[UnbearableLightness]

I'm actually considering self admitted grippy sock vacation. I called this relatively famous private psych hospital near me that does ECT (shouldn't be hard to guess) and I might admit tomorrow instead of offing myself.

Now if I had N or even firearm it'd be easier to go through with it but since I've failed with SN before I know what I'm facing. So like I said… SI like crazy

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

If it could help, then why not?

 

[UnbearableLightness]

If it could help, then why not?

Which one lollllll

but yeah I hear you. That's why I'm probably going to leave my KN in my apartment mailbox and go to grippy sock land

 

[retstardeda$$hole]

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I'm actually considering self admitted grippy sock vacation. I called this relatively famous private psych hospital near me that does ECT (shouldn't be hard to guess) and I might admit tomorrow instead of offing myself.

Now if I had N or even firearm it'd be easier to go through with it but since I've failed with SN before I know what I'm facing. So like I said… SI like crazy

How did you fail your SN attempt?

 

[UnbearableLightness]

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How did you fail your SN attempt?

Had tachycardia, shortness of breath, and SI so I screamed for help. My stepdad heard me and called the ambulance. I went to the ICU then psych ward. After discharge managed to go into remission with the help of a holistic psychiatrist who got me safely off meds and was well for 3 1/2 years. I had an amazing life. Travelled the world, fell in love, DJed in London. Then had my first ever manic psychotic bipolar I episode and haven't been the same since. Became NEET and had to move in with family who are sick of me after 9 months. I'm sick of me after 9 months too which is why I'm back.

But the fact I had some of the best times of my life after my last attempt ups the SI I won't lie. Even though I'm a shell of who I was pre-psychosis.

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