Help how to end this constant cycle

[shediedatsea]

how do i get out of this loop between wanting to stay and wanting to ctb, its in phases where i want to choose recovery, work on it, but then something happens that pushes me over the edge and i'm right where i was before

its like taking one step forward in life when you want to recover, but you are set back by two steps because of a tragic event

 

[NoHappyEndings]

I wish I could tell you. I'm spiralling down myself at the moment.

 

[kunikuzushi]

Maybe you can think of them as two separate paths. So when you make progress in your recovery, it is just on that path. Even if you sometimes walk and make progress on the ctb path, you can switch back to the recovery path and your progress will still be there.

I'm not sure if it will help. I'm sorry you're struggling with this constant switch. I feel the same sometimes and it is very tiring. I wish you the best.

 

[fatty44]

Maybe you can think of them as two separate paths. So when you make progress in your recovery, it is just on that path. Even if you sometimes walk and make progress on the ctb path, you can switch back to the recovery path and your progress will still be there.

I'm not sure if it will help. I'm sorry you're struggling with this constant switch. I feel the same sometimes and it is very tiring. I wish you the best.

This helps, thank you.

 

[hmnow]

its like taking one step forward in life when you want to recover, but you are set back by two steps because of a tragic event

I relate my life always like I am taking two steps toward to CTB and then one step back. I just crave the idea of finally getting to the point of stepping off the chair is two steps ahead and there is no possibility of a step back

 

[depressed and tired]

This is exactly where im at more of me wants to ctb then wants to stay its more I havent fully accepted death

 

[Off_Switch]

I think I've experienced the loop enough times to know that it will never end. And in most cases it's not entirely our fault. It's by design. The rules and laws that govern our society were made to let the bad people win.

Only one way to escape the loop...and I'm taking it.

 

[kopebaldy]

Maybe you can think of them as two separate paths. So when you make progress in your recovery, it is just on that path. Even if you sometimes walk and make progress on the ctb path, you can switch back to the recovery path and your progress will still be there.

Funny enough, the hope path resets every time I jump off while the depression path stays the same.

This game is rigged af lol. Where dev? Balancing patch please.

 

[kunikuzushi]

Funny enough, the hope path resets every time I jump off while the depression path stays the same.

This game is rigged af lol. Where dev? Balancing patch please.

Honestly same