How to be more dépressive the day of ctb?

[Defenestration]

hello i am thinking ctb june 13 evening/14 night

you have techniques to make me feel depressed that day I had thought about lowering my dosage of my antidepressant treatment 3 days before or drink alcohol the day before (depressed effect the next day).

Do you have other techniques to give me the strength to jump. I have a rare opportunity that won't happen again but I'm not depressed enough at the moment...

and the survival instinct will be very strong

THANKS

 

[Monarchic]

You should do it when you naturally feel like doing it.
What kind of medications or drugs do you have access to?

 

[OceanBlue]

Scary method. Maybe a list of pros and cons could help remember your reasons, that's what I might do.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Jumping needs so much courage to do the final step and to overcome SI in that particular moment. Only you will know when you are ready for this step, as long as you have doubts you should rethink your decision and it's not a good idea to push yourself to a certain date.

I know it's horrible to have a great chance and not going ahead with the plan, This feeling is so horrible. But to do ctb with uncertainity is probably an even worse decision.

 

[Defenestration]

Vous devriez le faire quand vous avez naturellement envie de le faire.
À quel type de médicaments ou de drogues avez-vous accès?

Alcool ,benzodiazépine ,dihydrocodéine Lp
c'est extrêmement frustrant d'avoir passé des centaines d'heures à réfléchir, à se préparer, à tout planifier pour son suicide... à avoir galéré pour trouver l'endroit (chance quasi unique) pour finalement ne pas vouloir assez mourir ...



Je pense que je dois faire quelque chose qui me "force" à me jeter...

exemple:

- me scarifier plusieurs fois de chaque côté du cou (ça va pisser du sang) et j'aurais trop peur du regard des autres, pour prévenir quelqu'un et finir en hôpital psychiatrique... alors saute

- avaler un mélange diazépam/opioïde/alcool non létal mais qui pourrait me faire perdre connaissance et finir en hôpital psychiatrique... alors sursaute car peur des séquelles

après des actions comme celles-ci (je peux en trouver d'autres), je me sentirai obligé de sauter car sinon trop peur de la suite.

 

[FuneralCry]

I can imagine that many people who manage to go through with the jumping method just get so determined to leave, I admire their courage as jumping sounds like a terrifying method to me and difficult to go through with because of the survival instinct.

 

[Monarchic]

A lot alcohol to numb your survival instinct.
A lot of Dihydrocodeine and other painillers to numb the pain.
Chug all your Xanax.
Mix and match however you want, youre gonna die anyway.

Jumping has a higher surviving rate than most people think, if you actually choose it make sure its a very very high one.
I'd reccomend a gun to the head if possible, quick and painless.
I personally prefer drowning if you can handle it, feels painless when i tried it and you loose conciousness fast. Try face down in the bath tub and just relax, don't move. If you have trouble with your breathing instinct kicking in, try pulling air but keep your mouth shut and all so water doesn't get in, it tricks your brain into thinking you get air and represses the urge. But you would be on drugs anyway so I doubt you'll have trouble.

Good luck and rest in peace, Defenestration.

 

[Defenestration]

About 50/ 55 meters in hard or grass...
Thrre are hard but little hard

 

[Monarchic]

About 50/ 55 meters in hard or grass...
Thrre are hard but little hard

I'd advice against it but it could work if you land on a hard material. Don't forget to go head first when jumping, imagine your driving in a swimming pool.

 

[Defenestration]

a doctor and a firefighter with a lot of experience said that a fall from the 19th floor was fatal even if you couldn't get on your head....

I don't understand why this method is not recommended here... above 47 m it is indicated between 95 and 98/100 mortality on a site