Venting How to act normal

[Loli]

Since my will to live officially evaporized I find it hard to act normally in everyday life. I just don't give a fuck anymore. It's getting harder to keep a stiff upper lip and not raising any suspicion.

I'd gladly CTB right now but this time of year is very tense for students. Even though I isolated from my friends my suicide would probably upset them enough to fail final exams. Right now they're the only thing in the world I care about so I'm forced to play this academic game. I can't even articulate how irritating is putting an effort to something purposeless. FFFFFFFFFFFFF. Hulk smash!

I must stay on this track but I already feel like I'm on the edge.

 

[not_a_robot]

Pretend there's been a death in your family and you are going away for the funeral. It's kind of true!

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I try to act normal … I'm sure I'm failing … I fail at everything.
I hope I won't fail at CTB.