WordV0mit
She/her (Trans Fem)
- Dec 20, 2023
- 33
I've been addicted to this shit for too long and I need to lock in. if anyone who is recovering from sh has any tips, please bestow upon me ur knowledge!! i dont want the textbook therapy shit though. like i know i need to replace it with healthier coping mechanisms. The problem isn't that i don't have the coping skills, it's that when I'm at rock bottom, Idont have the motivation to do anything besides cut myself. Throwing away the razors doesn't work either because then i just start panicing and just do smth else like bite myself or scratch myself. pain stimming doesn't work for me either. It just makes me want to hurt myself more because now i've given myself a taste of pain and i want more. I've been trying to get better but i've been relapsing really hard recently. I haven't even really been using it as a coping mechenisim, I've just been using it to feel something. i've been really empty and apathetic recently and the only time i feel something genuine is when im with my gf or im cutting myself. Today was a really good day though, and i didn't cut today so that's good :3 I just really need tips on how to stop cutting that i wouldn't hear from like a counselor.
