still addicted to sh

[ayla]

i made a post maybe like 5 months ago talking ab how im quite literally addicted to sh

it got better during the summer because it was just so hot i couldn't stand covering up but im back to it and i feel like no one else rly struggles with this idk that's prob dumb to assume but seriously every waking moment i have the need to sh, sucks but wat can u do lol

i don't know how it got to the point where i cut coz of boredom. don't know how to stop T_T don't think i ever will

 

[getoutgirl]

Dumb question but, have you looked up resources on ways to stop?
There are online programs and stuff if that's what you'd want to do. If it's at the point of addiction it must be really hard, I'm sorry. But I believe it's something you can do if you take it slow. Not imposible is all.
When you say you have the need to cut every waking moment you mean you have high stress or anxiety and need that relief, or is it also out of boredom too, maybe just because it feels good regardless?

 

[ayla]

Dumb question but, have you looked up resources on ways to stop?
There are online programs and stuff if that's what you'd want to do. If it's at the point of addiction it must be really hard, I'm sorry. But I believe it's something you can do if you take it slow. Not imposible is all.
When you say you have the need to cut every waking moment you mean you have high stress or anxiety and need that relief, or is it also out of boredom too, maybe just because it feels good regardless?

not dumb at all :) i have tried getting help because when i don't feel suicidal and actually really good I still sh even though the whole reason I started was to deal with not completely offing myself. its mindless at this point and it sucks

I looked back at my old post and I said "i dont need deep cuts or multiple at a time anymore im fine with one light cut but obviously throughout the day it stacks up. ugh im doomed" and its still very much the same. its not for any reason 90% of the time. its really just a shitty addiction. ive tried the throwing out everything i sh with but I still just find a way

 

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[getoutgirl]

Mmmm yeah sh can be a rather ok cope instead of dying, but it sucks indeed if it remains beyond that as a habit.
I don't cut as much cos my skin is paper thin and it took literal months to heal a little, I sh in other ways some times but not as habit just when things are unbearable. If yours is an addiction, then yeah you should focus on it as such.
Have you tried markers? like the sh recovery pen that draws blood in your arm? since your case is cuts one of those might work, at least some of the time. If it's not the as much the cuts themselves but the pain and relief you get from it, maybe the old ice cubes trick could be a way to reduce it little by little. Like you said if it's an addiction it's gonna be hard to quit it, but I think the key would be taking it slow. Throwing it all out could help but myeeeeh you'd need a program or some plan rather. Urge surfing and other copes might come in handy in time too, but if its at a high point just mental techniques might not do at first. Yeah try that pen or markers if you haven't, there's neat resources here.
Again sucks you have to deal with this on your mind all the time. Big hugs <3

 

[failedmind]

I cut for 9 years then I was 6 years clean. I relapsed last year and now I'm 2 months clean. I can try to give you some tips that helped me :)
- get rid of what you sh with. i had to get rid of all my razors and throw away my knives for a while just incase
- distraction: video games, a movie, funny video, anything. even if it distracts you for a couple minutes
- ice. when the urges got bad i would hold ice cubes to distract myself and make my brain focus on something else
- wrote lines on paper. i used to have a diary where i wrote a bunch of lines as if i was cutting. i would even rip up the paper sometimes

i can add more if i think of some but this is all i can think of right now. also want to say youre not alone and i know how hard it is. i dont want to sound discouraging but i had urges like every day during those 6 years. its a true addiction that a lot of people don't understand. i bought materials to relapse again the other day but i somehow have distracted myself to not do it. im not sure how long thatll last though. this addiction sucks :( sending love