How suicidal do you consider yourself at the moment as a percentage?

[Placo]

Below 50% we can consider it passive ideation for convenience, in theory with 0% you are pro-life while with 100% you are practically about to do it so evaluate the answers carefully.

I think I oscillate between 40% and 80%, some time ago I would even say 90%, having managed to overcome the SI one night I could even say 100% but only that evening.

 

[stupidhuman]

It's really hard to say for me because I don't have any equipment ready I am still saving money to get a tank with nitrogen etc.

I'd really like to say I am 80% and super sure I'll do it because it feels like that but in all honesty without having the way to leave this place in my home I couldn't accurately judge because having the method ready in your apartment plays a huge role for SI and when you will act imo - at least I believe it's true for myself.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

100%. That doesn't mean there is 0 attachment to life; I rated it as 100% because I know it is a necessary step for all practical intents and purposes. And if that is the case, then it can't be rated less than 100%.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

60%

 

[timetodie24]

In certainty that I will do it and that I'm mentally ready to do it 100%. If I had everything physically ready I'd go tonight as the thoughts have been very intense lately.
But I don't have my plan fully sorted and some things I need to work out and prepare . So it's not imminent . So i guess probably about 80%

 

[failure383]

60%. I have suicidal ideation daily and think of it for most of my day, but only my method is set, the date isn't. Most likely I won't catch the bus in the foreseeable future, if nothing major happens.

 

[nymb]

%90

 

[divinemistress36]

80%

 

[jar-baby]

I think I oscillate between 40% and 80%

same.

 

[Sylveon]

65-75%

 

[Saturn_]

I'm not in a rush right now, but I feel like there's a 99% chance I'll end up doing it at some point. I don't see life getting any better for me. So I guess 80%?

 

[Doorframe_dead]

60%

 

[tangerine_dream]

I think around 40-60%. I usually want my life to end, but my survival instinct is always too strong to actually follow through and do something about it.
And then sometimes it's even around 20% when I'm distracted or something good happens. But it always goes back to a passive ideation.

Never brave enough to follow through, always sad enough to wish I would just not wake up anymore when I go to sleep.

 

[indefinitesleep]

80%

 

[dazed.daydreamer]

Maybe 50-60%? It's been transitioning from passive ideation to a more genuine consideration. I am thinking of attempting sometime soon after I finish a big project next week, though I'm not deadset. I do have my method set and ready to go; after a decent bit of research during past episodes, I'm set on hanging myself. I've always known I'll die by suicide, it's just a matter of when.

 

[Defenestration]

Today : 50/100
After tour de France or J0: 85/100

 

[DefinitelyReady]

Well I had to rate it on a scale of 1-5 with therapist today. I said 3 and didn't mention my packet of sn.

85-98% - don't have my stuff ready or finalized. That takes time. Plus, sn is my preferred nethod.

 

[Trakehner]

70%

 

[ecliptic]

90%

 

[ADBoy777]

85%

 

[Adamsnolife]

80%

 

[Life'sA6itch]

I am at 95% and stuck without actual method. I want it to be a fast lights out that is all I want and I never want to wake again

 

[lacrimosa]

80%... Waiting for my parents to pass and then I will be able to. Or if other things happen that I am banking on, then 100%.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'd say my best state is 65%. Even when things are relatively good, death seems more appealing than life. A friend once said they found it sad that I didn't seem to be bothered whether I lived or died. I thought- you'd probably find it sader still if you realised I'd prefer to die.

When things are bad though, maybe up to 85%. Currently, I feel like I can't let myself go beyond that because I feel stuck here until my Dad goes. I suppose just now, I'm at a steady 70%. I've been worse than this but, I've been better too.

 

[mrbluesky]

I'd say something between 80-90%. I really, really want to ctb, but I can't overcome my SI, and when I'm doing some escapism shit, I can even 'forget' that I want to end it all... but everytime I stop doing something and start to think, the only thing in my mind are suicidal thoughts.

 

[unabletocope]

i never go under 45%. when i took an overdose in 2022 it was 85%. i don't think you need to be at 100% to make a successful attempt, once you hit 65% or so it kind of goes from there, i have been at around 65/70/75 since february

 

[Steff1337]

25% rn, but it can go to about 90%.

 

[endlessmelancholy]

50 %

 

[Praestat_Mori]

In my case passive suicidal rn - if at all. Still not pro-life ^^

The choice is there in the case things become worse.

I'm hardly suicidal atm.

 

[sancta-simplicitas]

I'd say about 50/50 right now. Both living and CTB scare me equally, so I just exist one day at the time without settling on either option.