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beefbaby

beefbaby

meh.
Aug 12, 2021
31
Luckily, if you have trashy habits (only fast food, don't do exercise, weird sleep schedule...) You don't see that clearly when you are around 30
I have had all of those bad habits for almost 40 years and unfortunately I'm still alive.
I am pushing 40 unfortunately. I've held on to this shit life for way too long.
 
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OblivionGlory

OblivionGlory

Mountaineer
Jun 18, 2019
3
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Lightflicker

Lightflicker

Looking for that final sunset ⛅
Nov 13, 2020
13
29 years of age. Physically and mentally and emotionally alot more older than that well I feel that.
 
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LADY007

LADY007

Specialist
Feb 25, 2020
373
I myself am 24 years old and I'm very curious to know how old people are here.

if you do not like to tell your exact age you can tell your age in a range. for example between 20 and 25 if you are 24.
Will be 70 in January
 
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orangepotato

orangepotato

Student
Mar 26, 2020
148
34. I hope to die this year as homage to one of my favorite Pessimistic philosophers - Phillip Mainlander.
 
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butterflycollector

butterflycollector

the suspense is unbearable ʕ⁎̯͡⁎ʔ
Aug 27, 2021
13
18 ☻
 
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insipixiecat

insipixiecat

Member
Jun 9, 2021
30
27, the years fly by quicker and quicker
 
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gus.nixon

gus.nixon

and now we rise and we are everywhere
Apr 19, 2020
308
A half century
 
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Midgardsorm

Midgardsorm

Paragon
Apr 28, 2020
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
5,046
40.
 
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WhisperingDeath

WhisperingDeath

Insanity's delinquent.
Feb 22, 2021
2
20, according to my birth certificate. In truth, I feel like I've gone way past my deadline. Been dreaming of escaping for as long as I can remember. Teetering on and off the edge, the only thing holding me back are my responsibilities to loved ones. Not much of a life.
 
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auror.

Member
Jun 7, 2021
51
19
 
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stygal

stygal

meow
Oct 29, 2020
1,731
Forever < 30 years (as that's my deadline age)
 
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Green Destiny

Green Destiny

Life isn't worth the trouble.
Nov 16, 2019
878
I'm 46. I'm probably the minority in the group since my wanting to CTB is due to a condition I developed in my mid thirties which causes me chronic pain and disability. I never wanted to CTB when I was healthy. I always was aware of how lucky I was to be healthy and figured I could handle anything as long as I had my health. I am really surprised how many people on here are so young (20's and younger). It seems like there are so many young people these days who are so unhappy. Maybe I am just more aware now but it didn't seem to be that way when I was that age. Its really very sad and concerning. I think this world is just getting worse and worse in every way imaginable.
As a 26 year old I can attest to this sentiment. Every day I see on the news how the world is crumbling to pieces with global warming and how societies are breaking down, not to mention Covid grinding hospitals to dust with rapidly rising Covid cases. There's very little to convince me that this planet will be saved and there'll be a Happily ever after for my generation. I'd rather walk away while it's still possible to avoid such misery and unending hardship.
 
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freeguy21

freeguy21

Member
Aug 31, 2021
9
I am 21
 
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again_noidea

again_noidea

Experienced
Apr 22, 2021
254
I'm 46. I'm probably the minority in the group since my wanting to CTB is due to a condition I developed in my mid thirties which causes me chronic pain and disability. I never wanted to CTB when I was healthy. I always was aware of how lucky I was to be healthy and figured I could handle anything as long as I had my health. I am really surprised how many people on here are so young (20's and younger). It seems like there are so many young people these days who are so unhappy. Maybe I am just more aware now but it didn't seem to be that way when I was that age. Its really very sad and concerning. I think this world is just getting worse and worse in every way imaginable.
i feel you, although i'm 10 years younger than you. It is really hard to life when you can't trust your body to do the things that need to be done. i always wanted to build my own house and grow a lot of food or just hike for days. well, good luck to you!
 
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death137

death137

miserable
Jun 25, 2020
1,166
24
 
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WaterHemlock

WaterHemlock

Student
Dec 18, 2019
112
52
 
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Shrek

Shrek

It's all ogre
Jul 10, 2021
15
23
Feel like i am in my sixties mentally. Unfortunately we may live to be over 150 in the future. It is biologically possible.
 
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siray

siray

the crucified
Dec 28, 2018
178
34. I hope to die this year as homage to one of my favorite Pessimistic philosophers - Phillip Mainlander.
I am 24 and deep into pessimistic philosophy, I've read everything by Schopenhauer but don't share his enthusiasm for denial of the will to live, resignation, because this practical ethic is impossible for me.

Mainlander hanged himself, I wonder what thoughts ran through his genius mind when he was about to CTB. I like to believe he was wholly disillusioned with the blind and unintelligible character of the will, and that he triumphed the fear of death, survival instinct and all the horrors of ending one's life. I haven't read any of his works, can you suggest what I should read first?

I loved The world as will and representation and his Parerga (especially on suicide, women, religion and many other topics), fourfold root of principle of sufficient reason, the world as will.

I also have read multiple times every book by Friedrich Nietzsche, though he sometimes manages to convince me against CTB, that fucking genius thinker.
 
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TriggerHappy

TriggerHappy

In the kingdom of th blind; the one-eyed are kings
Jan 24, 2021
1,297
facing 50, but I have good genetics (except for the addiction thing!)
Though drugs / farmlife /gym bunnyin' keep me young
(oh, and botox and bodyshop washing grains and serums from middle east (that are probably made from tigers balls, they were a 'gift I really can't chuck it away now...)
(the kids I teach, don't believe it when I say my age) inside im akashically aware, so I'm ancient.

maybe its my attitude, maybe I'm a grooming predator :: my sister has concerns...

when I was in my twenties I saw this tragic old drag queen od on the dancefloor @Heaven under the arches. It was quasi reigious (mdma ghb speedball cocktail gets the blame),
But that would be the best way to go. Music and lights ( & a sweaty dancefloor!)
I'm feeling my age lately, :: not exactly wise, erm rather... ahem: 'experienced'.

Loved my insanely difficult life, but I'm weary.... I wanna go home.
(cue that track from RockyHorror...)

 
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Morbid Cam

Morbid Cam

Member
Oct 28, 2018
51
22 and life just keeps getting worse year by year. It's like being in a badly written story designed to keep the character (me) depressed no matter how hard I try to improve my life. I'm always getting set back to square one. At this point I'm getting sick of trying to make things better and am just starting to want it to end.
 
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facel

No good deed goes unpunished
Aug 23, 2021
46
54
 
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mentalhealthfighter

mentalhealthfighter

Lets win together
Jun 15, 2021
362
20
 
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trewer

trewer

Member
Aug 4, 2021
23
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Apel

Hi
Sep 2, 2021
6
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sick.faery

sick.faery

Mar 18, 2021
290
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sadbadpsychogirl

sadbadpsychogirl

sonofabitch
May 29, 2020
725
34 i hate that i lived past 30.
 
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bear_trapped

bear_trapped

taking it one day at a time
Feb 13, 2020
73
18 and still in high school :/
 
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U

Unsurebaker

Member
Nov 24, 2019
12
25 and that makes me sad. I told one person ever that I probably would never make it to this age. I hate it. Worst year ever. If only I could go back in time.
 
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