How old are all of us here?

[lv-gras]

Were the attempts spaced out (over years or months) or kind of one after the other?
I think 30 is such a tough age.

over a few times.....

 

[Lunar]

I'm 28. I had one attempt, but it was so silly of me imo (not researched at all) it might as well not of been one. Thankfully, this site exists now.

16. Only tested hanging. Tried to do SN but primperan was intercepted. Plan to jump. I do believe I'm the youngest on here though, which is nice. I don't really get on with people my age anyways, too weird and asocial for them.

I've seen some younger people on here (14 and 15 for example). I won't point out names just in case they don't want to be mentioned.

 

[nzdarkshark]

17.

Many feeble attempts - too many to count.
Never been hospitalised as I've always chickened out x.x

 

[Temporarilyabsurd]

You are unbelievably strong to keep going while living with depression and being fully aware of how you feel. I don't know if that makes sense, not sure how to type it. I hope you are finding some happiness in your life, even though you are suffering.

Very kind of you to say .
Thanks.
sometimes I see it that way , but not often.

 

[Sayo]

24. I've just been in the habit of thinking of myself as 25 ever since my birthday though due to a complex over my age, and I'll be 25 officially soon, so maybe I'll get a temporary reprieve.

 

[Voodoo]

over a few times.....

:(

 

[Voodoo]

17.

Many feeble attempts - too many to count.
Never been hospitalised as I've always chickened out x.x

Do you know if you suffer from depression and/or anxiety?

 

[nzdarkshark]

Do you know if you suffer from depression and/or anxiety?

I believe depression - maybe anxiety. I've never been specifically told that I do have depression but I was on antidepressants for a while but they did nothing.

 

[Voodoo]

I believe depression - maybe anxiety. I've never been specifically told that I do have depression but I was on antidepressants for a while but they did nothing.

I've heard it can take a little while to find the correct ones when it comes to antidepressants.
I'm so sorry, I don't mean to pry into it too much, I just see you're very young, and I just wish I took the steps to try get my illness under control back then at your age, I may have not felt like this now.

 

[nzdarkshark]

I've heard it can take a little while to find the correct ones when it comes to antidepressants.
I'm so sorry, I don't mean to pry into it too much, I just see you're very young, and I just wish I took the steps to try get my illness under control back then at your age, I may have not felt like this now.

No need to apologise.
I doubt I'll be trying anymore antidepressants - every professional and my parents seem to think that if one doesn't work than antidepressants aren't for me.
Don't even know if I'll be around to see the psychiatrist the doctor recommended so don't know if it's really an issue.

 

[Voodoo]

No need to apologise.
I doubt I'll be trying anymore antidepressants - every professional and my parents seem to think that if one doesn't work than antidepressants aren't for me.
Don't even know if I'll be around to see the psychiatrist the doctor recommended so don't know if it's really an issue.

That's fair. I know some of my friends who are on them have had to try for a while to get the correct dosage. One of them takes the equivalent of a weeks worth of what my friend takes in a day. Some of them have to be accompanied by therapy while some are okay without. It's such a long process but the right balance can be found. Just wanted to mention Tobin care a small part of you ever wanted to consider it again.
Whatever path you chose, do it for yourself and no one else.

 

[08nomore]

33 but feeling like 83

 

[Szueps]

33 but feeling like

Yes, feel the same, im 28.

 

[polyswarm]

24, have never attempted.

 

[Maggotymaggots]

I know what you mean, and it so hard figuring out what you want to do with the rest of your life.
I discovered what I wanted to do recently, but everything went wrong and now just feel too old to start a career in what I wanted, but because of things that happened, I just don't have passion for anything anymore.

I hope you can find that drive you need.

I phrased my last post pretty ambiguously, and I'm sorry if I gave you the wrong idea. I really hate to feel like I'm deceiving anyone into thinking I'm less pathetic than I actually am.

I meant I needed to find the energy to kill myself. Not that I'd be averse to finding the drive to go on with and fix my life, but I just don't see that as being possible for me at this point.

I appreciate your empathy, at any rate. :)

 

[DeadManWalking]

I'm 28 and attempted once when I was 20.

 

[IG959]

I'm 23, I'm not sure how many times I've tried, I first self harmed and was suicidal at 6

 

[Wantingpeace]

I'm 23, I'm not sure how many times I've tried, I first self harmed and was suicidal at 6

6..so sad :(

 

[Wantingpeace]

I'm 35 but my life ended 3 yr ago and when people asked I've often said 32..is like I'm stuck at that age as life literally stopped..not much sense oflife happening around me for 3 yr now..but i do FEEL very old

 

[AndyCurious]

I'm 35 but my life ended 3 yr ago and when people asked I've often said 32..is like I'm stuck at that age as life literally stopped..not much sense oflife happening around me for 3 yr now..but i do FEEL very old

I feel old as dirt....

 

[musician]

41, never try before

 

[Made4TV]

Almost 50. 2 attempts when i was much younger. Have come very close twice in the last 2 years. I have everything i need for nitrogen.

 

[IG959]

6..so sad :(

It is, how a child of that age knows what it even is. But I grew up in a household where all types of abuse were normal and trying to kill yourself was part of the norm. I remember the first time I read my mother's suicide note (she didn't kill herself) and I was about 5. It was pretty much read out to me and the whole discussion took place in front of me. I first tied something around my kneck to try and kill myself at 6. I started cutting not long after.

 

[worldexploder]

35 Male

2 legit attempts. Many plans that didn't come to fuition.

 

[Miro]

40s, four attempts

 

[Voldmort]

17.
one failed attempt.
in fact, the attempt made me understand that it would not kill me, that dying is much harder than it seems.

 

[loser41]

I'm 18. I haven't attempted yet but my time will come soon.

 

[miauimon]

20, four attempts, idk if there will be a fifth one, will depend on the situation

 

[Cee]

18. Never a 'true' attempt but ive sat with a knife against my wrist (bad method ik) and a handful of pills (another bad method) very close to trying.

 

[sadsoul]

17, too many half-assed attempts.