How old are all of us here?

[AndyCurious]

I admire your courage to try continue, more power to you.

Thank you, I appreciate that :)

 

[millefeui]

How did you do it the first time? Are you going to try again the same way that nearly worked or are you gonna try another way?

Makes me sad seeing your age, it was the age I tried to take steps to better my life, but to no avail.

Partial suspension with a belt. I didn't have the conviction I have today, so I stopped before I fainted. And yes, I will use the same method, except I will use a proper rope this time.

 

[Voodoo]

If putting the gun in my mouth and aiming for the brainstem and being unable to pull the trigger is considered an "attempt" then:
I'm 21, 1 attempt.

I'd say it counts, you went in with the intention to end everything and never come back.
You're so young, I hope you can manage to find happiness to live a good life.

 

[wanttodie]

im 56

 

[Voodoo]

Partial suspension with a belt. I didn't have the conviction I have today, so I stopped before I fainted. And yes, I will use the same method, except I will use a proper rope this time.

I heard that belt isn't the most reliable , I'm not sure how true it is, but just wanted to throw it out there in case it might be something you want to consider.
It's always sad to know someone is planning to end it, but if we can go out with as much peace as possible with zero or minimal complications, then that's something.

 

[Voodoo]

I'm 21, and there were a couple of times when I was around 17. They were so stupid though, I'm not sure I could rightfully call them real attempts.

You're so young, and even younger when you considered it. :( Has life got better for you since then?

 

[AndyCurious]

I heard that belt isn't the most reliable , I'm not sure how true it is, but just wanted to throw it out there in case it might be something you want to consider.
It's always sad to know someone is planning to end it, but if we can go out with as much peace as possible with zero or minimal complications, then that's something.

Can be lucky with a belt maybe, but for hanging, I believe a rope is more secure than a belt... At least for full :)

 

[millefeui]

I heard that belt isn't the most reliable , I'm not sure how true it is, but just wanted to throw it out there in case it might be something you want to consider.
It's always sad to know someone is planning to end it, but if we can go out with as much peace as possible with zero or minimal complications, then that's something.

Belt sucks for hanging, yeah.

 

[Voodoo]

I'm 36, and I've tried twice since I was 19. Now I'm determined to succeed, or die trying :D

I'm sorry things never got better for you in that time :( Can I ask how you plan to go out?

If only it WAS so easy as to die trying!

 

[Schopenhauer]

I'm sorry things never got better for you in that time :( Can I ask how you plan to go out?

If only it WAS so easy as to die trying!

Hopefully I will die trying. Not going to be easy, though :p

When I found these forums, I'd decided to ctb by partial suspension hanging. Now I'll try to do it with N. I already ordered it from A. If it arrives, that'll be my method. If it doesn't clear Custom, I'll go back to hanging.

What about you? Have you chosen a method?

 

[Voodoo]

Can be lucky with a belt maybe, but for hanging, I believe a rope is more secure than a belt... At least for full :)

Yeah, people have definitely s

Hopefully I will die trying. Not going to be easy, though :p

When I found these forums, I'd decided to ctb by partial suspension hanging. Now I'll try to do it with N. I already ordered it from A. If it arrives, that'll be my method. If it doesn't clear Custom, I'll go back to hanging.

What about you? Have you chosen a method?

I wish you the best of luck that whatever way you go, that's it's as peaceful as possible.
I've heard a lot about N, sounds like a good way to go.

I really wanted to go by helium, until I discovered that most of it is cut with air, so I'm gonna go by hanging when I try again.

 

[Schopenhauer]

I really wanted to go by helium, until I discovered that most of it is cut with air, so I'm gonna go by hanging when I try again.

Apparently you can use the same method with nitrogen instead. Somebody even mentioned a place where you can get the exit bag & regulator: https://maxdogbrewing.com/

 

[Deafsn0w]

18. tried to kill myself at least 3 times. all 3 attempts in same year 2018

 

[Maggotymaggots]

You're so young, and even younger when you considered it. :( Has life got better for you since then?

Honestly, no, not really. My last four years really weren't worth living. I wish I'd had a better idea of what I was doing and just a little more push back then, because I have a hard time finding the energy to do much of anything now, let alone enough to try to kill myself. I really need to find it though. I can't keep dragging things out like this, telling myself I'll do it next month, or next week, etc., and then not go through with it.

 

[Trashcan]

^
Again. You are young

I guess that's right. Well, younger.

 

[fuckthis]

16. Only tested hanging. Tried to do SN but primperan was intercepted. Plan to jump. I do believe I'm the youngest on here though, which is nice. I don't really get on with people my age anyways, too weird and asocial for them.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Old as dirt, if dirt happens to be 34 years old. Never attempted anything, but I'm not one for a practice run. It's going to be all or nothing with me.

 

[RM5998]

20. No real attempts yet, but I've been suicidal for 8 years.

 

[Trashcan]

Old as dirt, if dirt happens to be 34 years old. Never attempted anything, but I'm not one for a practice run. It's going to be all or nothing with me.

You're not old. And man, good luck with finding peace.

 

[Temporarilyabsurd]

55 , a few half arsed attempts years ago.
Life time depression .

Trying to 'recover' I guess.
Via 'radical acceptance' of suicidal ideation rather than denial.

Maybe building a cognitive dissonance around it .
As in :
"I don't like it here , but I'll keep going because maybe maybe " kind of thing.

 

[Comatose11]

I'm old. Very old. And have had a few attempts.

 

[dman12009]

30
Four attempts
One nearly successful attempt
Planning out number 5

 

[Voodoo]

Apparently you can use the same method with nitrogen instead. Somebody even mentioned a place where you can get the exit bag & regulator: https://maxdogbrewing.com/

I imagine it's difficult to get Nitrogen into the UK, and also those prices are just insane.

 

[Voodoo]

18. tried to kill myself at least 3 times. all 3 attempts in same year 2018

I'm so sorry to hear that. Do you know what makes you feel this way?
May I ask how you attempted too?

 

[Voodoo]

Honestly, no, not really. My last four years really weren't worth living. I wish I'd had a better idea of what I was doing and just a little more push back then, because I have a hard time finding the energy to do much of anything now, let alone enough to try to kill myself. I really need to find it though. I can't keep dragging things out like this, telling myself I'll do it next month, or next week, etc., and then not go through with it.

I know what you mean, and it so hard figuring out what you want to do with the rest of your life.
I discovered what I wanted to do recently, but everything went wrong and now just feel too old to start a career in what I wanted, but because of things that happened, I just don't have passion for anything anymore.

I hope you can find that drive you need.

 

[lv-gras]

30s, and about 4 or 5 or so

 

[Voodoo]

16. Only tested hanging. Tried to do SN but primperan was intercepted. Plan to jump. I do believe I'm the youngest on here though, which is nice. I don't really get on with people my age anyways, too weird and asocial for them.

I find people who settle on jumping to be incredibly brave in a sense, and I kind of wish I had it in me to go out like that.
I will say though that you're still very young, and you do meet people you get along with more as you get older.
I always hope that younger people hold out a bit longer to see if life can get better for them. Of course I would never judge them if they decided to take their life too, I can't know the pain they're going through.

 

[Voodoo]

Old as dirt, if dirt happens to be 34 years old. Never attempted anything, but I'm not one for a practice run. It's going to be all or nothing with me.

I hope you find a method that works for you on the first go. It's such an awful feeling going ahead with it with the intention to never wake up, only to know you're still alive later on.

 

[Voodoo]

55 , a few half arsed attempts years ago.
Life time depression .

Trying to 'recover' I guess.
Via 'radical acceptance' of suicidal ideation rather than denial.

Maybe building a cognitive dissonance around it .
As in :
"I don't like it here , but I'll keep going because maybe maybe " kind of thing.

You are unbelievably strong to keep going while living with depression and being fully aware of how you feel. I don't know if that makes sense, not sure how to type it. I hope you are finding some happiness in your life, even though you are suffering.

 

[Voodoo]

30s, and about 4 or 5

Were the attempts spaced out (over years or months) or kind of one after the other?
I think 30 is such a tough age.