How often do you think about CTB-ing on a daily basis? 🚌

[venin]

There were times when the bus was on my mind all day long. Right now I would say it's about 10 to 20 times a day

 

[.seethroughme.]

All day long at the moment.

 

[pompompurin]

Too much for me to count. Started distracting myself with entertainment but it's not really cutting it for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

All the time, I'm always wishing for the true peace of eternal sleep. For me the only relief lies in death, it's the only true escape from all suffering and harm in an existence I never wished to endure in the first place.

 

[soonatpeace777888]

All day, every day. I have a noose ready if I can't wait long enough to save up for a gun.

 

[Alessa_Silent_Doll]

Pretty often, after all, is one of my main sources when I make art.

 

[venin]

All day long at the moment.

I'm sorry it's that fkt up rn

Too much for me to count. Started distracting myself with entertainment but it's not really cutting it for me.

I used to watch serial killers docs and even gore videos sometimes when nothing would work, just to numb myself

All the time, I'm always wishing for the true peace of eternal sleep. For me the only relief lies in death, it's the only true escape from all suffering and harm in an existence I never wished to endure in the first place.

Me neither

Pretty often, after all, is one of my main sources when I make art.

At least you make something worthwhile out of it

All day, every day. I have a noose ready if I can't wait long enough to save up for a gun.

I hope you find peace

 

[Cardboard]

All the time, but I try to distract myself and most of the time it works.

 

[venin]

All the time, but I try to distract myself and most of the time it works.

Glad it still works

That's an awesome profile picture, btw

 

[Forever Sleep]

It isn't all the time. I have to concentrate on work and sometimes I can distract myself watching a film etc. It's an awful lot though still- maybe a few times every hour. It's certainly one of my first thoughts in the morning and last thoughts at night. Whenever I drink water or lie down, I think about SN.

 

[Unknown21]

All the stuff I'm doing recently related to my suicide. I'm working to complete my ctb plan, I'm searching all the day about methods and how to do it properly and circumstances of failure. My method will be SN probably and i have doubts about it now, it's so exhausted fear of failure is hell.

 

[lastwords.com]

basically its 3-4 times every single day for me. I even have dreams about catching the bus very often, it really seems like it's only a few days away at times. I also often imagine in my mind how I'm going to do it, you know.. the many different ways I could CTB… I feel like I have already caught the bus sometimes and now what I'm living through is just a dream.

 

[AboutTom]

It used to be an unpleasant tought but now it's a message that not everything will stay bad. If things don't improve in the next 16 days (end of month) I'll fix it myself. To answer, i haven't counted, but it's all the time.

 

[venin]

All the stuff I'm doing recently related to my suicide. I'm working to complete my ctb plan, I'm searching all the day about methods and how to do it properly and circumstances of failure. My method will be SN probably and i have doubts about it now, it's so exhausted fear of failure is hell.

Yeah, it's torturing

It used to be an unpleasant tought but now it's a message that not everything will stay bad. If things don't improve in the next 16 days (end of month) I'll fix it myself. To answer, i haven't counted, but it's all the time.

It's really sad that our life gets so bad that we have to turn to these kinds of things

 

[lavendermeadows]

Lately? Almost all day long.