davidtorez

davidtorez

Mage
Mar 8, 2024
543
Everyday since my health has been getting worse. Plan is already in my head on where and how I'll be doing it. Just a matter of time but I'm guessing I won't make it through next year
 
HereTomorrow

HereTomorrow

Eternally atoning
Feb 1, 2024
543
Jokingly considering death has always been there. It's like that magic button to press to reassure myself I can always CTB and my worries and stress lessens. It happens multiple times a day, often at work.

Seriously considering suicide is significantly less. Maybe once or twice a week at max, when I'm in significant distress about my traumas. I have a plan, I have my method, I just need to wait for the perfect moment.
 
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S like suicide

S like suicide

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,444
At least more than once a day...sometimes all day long every day
 
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LastLoveSong

LastLoveSong

attention seeker
Oct 18, 2023
84
every 3-5 minutes maybe 10 on a "good" day
 
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diy-event

Member
Nov 16, 2024
35
For me it comes in waves. Sometimes I am fine and then it totally soaks up my ability to concentrate on anything else but suicide. I start to practise it in my head
 
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noname37

Member
Sep 10, 2024
79
Basically 24/7, it's not just in my head, it's like an impulse in my body. It's hard to explain. Only thing I'm waiting for is the right moment. If I in a place where I was guaranteed to be alone I would've just done it at this point.
 
Warlord's Pulse

Warlord's Pulse

Time to end this endless war
May 27, 2024
202
On a daily basis, but it stopped being a "sad" thought for me
 
vampire2002

vampire2002

weeb & neet ♡
Oct 8, 2023
145
every day. exactly how often depends on how my day goes, but no matter what when i lie down in bed at night i can't help but think about it because all my thoughts come crashing in and i have no distractions anymore. on the really bad days, it's constant, non-stop screaming in my head, and distractions won't work.
 
Unleashtherain

Unleashtherain

Student
Nov 12, 2024
111
Every second of the day. I wish I could get better and those thoughts would fade, but it's impossible.
 
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ThisIsNotAPipe

Member
Jun 24, 2023
24
Pretty much everyday. I'd say about 30 percent of the day is spent fantasizing about killing myself. I have various scenarios I've played out in my head literally thousands of times at this point. Despite all this, I've never attempted suicide once. I'm planning to end it hopefully soon enough so finally the pain will stop.
 
boiling0ver

boiling0ver

tw ed
Dec 7, 2024
9
Hi! I'm also new (just started my account today)! I have suicidal thoughts almost everyday, only sometimes I don't think of it as often.
 
shrizoid

shrizoid

Member
Nov 18, 2024
69
as i find myself getting older and still facing my mental health issues and suicidal thoughts i've realized that i've just increasingly grown more suicidal despite efforts to get better and now having different reasons to be.

these past few months have been especially hard, as i've genuinely thought about suicide. every. single. day.

i can distract myself for a little, maybe even a while, but eventually i'll go back to feeling like i want to die. or that i should've been dead already. or that i have to die.

and, without fail, these thoughts happen at the very least once day (though it's most often more than once).

so, i was just curious about how often you all think about suicide and in what ways it manifests?

also, this is my first post so hi everyone! :)
Daily. At least twice or thrice to be specifically.
 
JoysoftheEmptiness

JoysoftheEmptiness

Student
Sep 10, 2024
189
as i find myself getting older and still facing my mental health issues and suicidal thoughts i've realized that i've just increasingly grown more suicidal despite efforts to get better and now having different reasons to be.

these past few months have been especially hard, as i've genuinely thought about suicide. every. single. day.

i can distract myself for a little, maybe even a while, but eventually i'll go back to feeling like i want to die. or that i should've been dead already. or that i have to die.

and, without fail, these thoughts happen at the very least once day (though it's most often more than once).

so, i was just curious about how often you all think about suicide and in what ways it manifests?

also, this is my first post so hi everyone! :)
All the time. It never stops.
 
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Trav1989

Experienced
Jun 2, 2024
249
Daily usually, one through three or-so times per day i'd wager.
 
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areyousafe??

Member
Nov 27, 2024
73
I started getting suicidal thoughts in my mid-late teens. There were periods of life when I don't think about it at all for months. These past few months I have been thinking about suicide every day.
 
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ocdsucks

Member
Dec 5, 2024
18
Feeling suicidal is like a coping mechanism for me when everything feels overwhelming.
 
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NoPoint2Life

Why is this so hard?
Aug 31, 2024
366
Feeling suicidal is like a coping mechanism for me when everything feels overwhelming.
Love your username, I have OCD too.

I can't say I think about it all day. I think in the mornings especially and when I take a shower as that's all time to myself. But anything can trigger a thought like if I walk past a high window and I think that would be a great place to jump from if I could. Or something might snap me into reality and I remember how bad SI is. So I feel like there's a lot of relation to other things to my thoughts about it. And I definitely get distracted by TV and books although again there can always be something in them that triggers a thought.
 
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HereWeGo!

HereWeGo!

Member
Dec 7, 2024
9
It's such bad as it's the first thing I think about when I wake up. Then I continuesly think about it almost thru all of the day. Usually I think about it at the same time I'm doing other activities, so exhausting. Then it's usually the last thing I think about before I fall asleep.
That's the way it is, feels like shit to be honest. Been like this since about July. Before that I've never ever thought about it. Seems like it's all or nothing for me.
 
MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
1,628
Now. And right now. And right now. And right now. And right now. And right now...
 

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