How much more time are you giving yourself?

[Whitewash11235814]

I'm Giving myself 1 month

 

[CatLove56]

I'm honestly just waiting for an excuse. Something really bad has to happen.

 

[Skyview]

I'm having problems finding a place where no one will find me . Sold my car because I didn't want it anywhere near me when I ctb , did some research and thought I had the perfect place , 50 hrs on a train or 74 hrs with stops to same location, then I found out border patrol , park rangers and native Americans patrol the area . This is not good as I would be a prime target for being I.D. Cannot take that risk ! I just want to vanish , not running from anything , I just want it to appear as though I was never here and by Tuesday I would ctb . Looking at the map i'm struggling to find a place , any ideas?

 

[Supersadmommy90]

I have another 6 to 9 months left in me. I don't want to go before the summer/fall if this can be turned around. In fact, probably one year. But after that.... I honestly will have to reassess since I am limping along to the finish line as it is.

 

[ladolcemorte]

Well, I never thought I would be around to see 2020. I remember seeing events advertised for certain dates in 2020 and I would always think to myself "I sure as heck won't be here in 2020". Yet here I am. (Thanks to a failed attempt and lengthy hospital stay).

My new year's resolution was to complete suicide. I intend to keep this, and be gone by the end of February. I need to be certain about a method and be emotionally ready to go, and both of those things have turned out to be harder than I had thought initially.

 

[Maravillosa]

I am waiting for my mother to die and to successfully publish at least one novel that I have finished writing. Mom could easily live another 10 years, even though she is 80 and bedbound. I think it will take me a year to 18 months to complete a publishable version of my manuscript that I would happily show to a literary agent. So shall I say any time between two to ten years? Dying on my 60th birthday sounds like a plausible idea (I am 53 now).

 

[Passersby]

This is something for me where it is really hard to put an exact date on it maybe I should do it that way and then try to go through with it. I'm very close. "Not too soon , not too late.". Unless magic falls from the sky and fixes my body out of thin air then I am 100 percent dedicated to ctb before my natural death would occur. I simply cannot wait another 20- possibly 50 yrs to die naturally. My suffering is too bad and I have already been doing this for many yrs. I have never had or seen anything magically fix itself out of thin air so yes I have to ctb. Could be tomorrow on impulse or any day when I am sick and tired of fighting the symptoms and being isolated which is constant. Could also last 5 more yrs but its unlikely. I just have to go for it. I have 4 methods and have everything I need and ready to go for 3 out of 4 of them. One day you are living life to the fullest and the next day it's over. Just like that.

 

[Dear Agony]

At this point maybe a few days lmao

 

[TAW122]

Well, I never thought I would be around to see 2020. I remember seeing events advertised for certain dates in 2020 and I would always think to myself "I sure as heck won't be here in 2020". Yet here I am. (Thanks to a failed attempt and lengthy hospital stay).

My new year's resolution was to complete suicide. I intend to keep this, and be gone by the end of February. I need to be certain about a method and be emotionally ready to go, and both of those things have turned out to be harder than I had thought initially.

Same here, I was ready to go in 2018 when I acquired my method, the firearm, but then suddenly things turned around so I stayed to see 2019. Then in 2019, I promised myself if things go to shit in the winter/spring, I'd check out before summer. Things went well enough for me to consider holding on longer, and then in fall 2019, had I failed to achieve what I went for, I wouldn't see 2020. Once again, I prevailed, and alas, here I am in 2020. This is however, is different though, I've been through so much and after such careful thought for the future and assessment of where I am and what is to come, I've decided that I've come to peace with death. I am just biding time, getting stuff in order, and waiting for the right time before I check out. Now is not the right time nor have I had everything I wanted sorted yet.

 

[Dude1983]

Destiny will say it, i just said to destiny: "the next time I experience extrem pain, im going to end it, so lets do it", and then extrem pain doesnt show up, just mid pain, wtf is this serious or joke?

 

[TheEndof]

June is my month. Haven't really set a date, but probably early June. It can't come fast enough.

 

[mathieu]

When my supplies arrive I will do it.

 

[GreyMagic]

Taking a fresh at holiday apartments and hotels within certain areas in February and March. Haven't set an exact date yet.

 

[jgm63]

It's not a matter of where I'm from, it's that I still live with my parents and they check all packages

Would you be able to get a PO Box ?
eg Try googling : po box near me

If you're certain you wish to CTB, I really think you should choose a good method....

 

[HannahB]

I'm not going to give myself a time limit because I know itll make me feel like I have failed when I dont follow it. Instead i aim to make it as comfortable as possible. I'm going to die someday anyways and everything I love will be rendered distroyed. I dont want for that all to be a shock in my last moment. I want to cherish and mourn my dreams at my own pace. Use this as a moment to show myself I am worthy if my own love and care.

 

[140 bpm]

I'm so tired of people saying I am so strong. I'm so tired of people telling me I'm the strongest person they know. I had no choice in the tragic events that happened to me. Does having to go through unimaginable things automatically gets you a strength pass? Right after people find out, they tell me I'm so strong. Yet they don't know what's my mind frame like, the thought processes everyday, and how I cope. There's this saying that quitters aren't the ones to look up to and I want to quit on life. How is that inspiring?

I'm so with you! I'm tired to hear that "you are so strong " bs, which is just standard phrase meaning nothing. It's exhausting...

I'm personally going to spend next several months traveling across the country choosing place and working on my first last book. I don't want do it in some hotel or so. I want to find beautiful and quite place for overdose or jump. I've spent about 4 hours on Golden Gate Bridge, which is great spot I think, but it's so many people there and bridge patrols , so I think it's pretty big chance being stopped...

 

[Soulless_Angel]

I honestly have no idea why I am waiting! I could have been gone a week ago, well I kinda know why I am holding off, stupid reasons, really, but that's my brain, stupid, nothing but stupid at the end of the day!

 

[Kneel]

I don't have a specific date in mind. Formulating the perfect plan will take some time and I don't want to act on an impulse. These forums are great for killing time meanwhile.

 

[Midnight-rain]

If everything goes to plan, I'll be gone before this year ends. If it were up to me I'd do it today, but I need to aquire my tools, set up my goodbyes, and do some final bucket list-esque things.

 

[JSauter]

I don't know what I'm waiting for. I'm insecure about the success rate with SN. I need to be in a position and setting where if I fail SN, i cannot be brought to a hospital + psych ward for financial reasons. The consequence of this is that I'll need to send a scheduled e-mail to family or the police much after my planned death, for my own insurance - but it will obviously not be a pretty sight if it's delayed too long. I don't know what I'm waiting for, as I don't believe there is anymore information out there that I don't know that will improve my chances with SN. To a lesser extent, I'm afraid of the dying process - but I can put my big-boy pants on and get over that.

 

[Shinbu]

I'm waiting for a couple of things to ship, but Feb is doable for me. These things are not hard to acquire, I'm done with the difficult parts, and Feb is outside my bro's b day month. Not doing it in March because that's my b day month. I can't wait any longer than Feb. Feb the romantic month. I love a lot of love songs from Japan. I guess it fits for me.

 

[imagineit]

I want to see one last changing of the seasons. A few last chances to sit outside and feel the sun on my skin. And to experience the mania one last time.

 

[galaticgrizzly]

Would you be able to get a PO Box ?
eg Try googling : po box near me

If you're certain you wish to CTB, I really think you should choose a good method....

We'll see what happens. If this method doesn't work, I'll try something else later but I'm trying this one first

 

[jgm63]

We'll see what happens. If this method doesn't work, I'll try something else later but I'm trying this one first

I really feel you are being unnecessarily unkind to yourself.
Attempts that aren't carefully planned aren't usually successful.
There's a good chance of failing, but also doing serious damage to yourself.
You could cause yourself to a suffer for an extended time.

and we don't want that for you....

 

[galaticgrizzly]

I really feel you are being unnecessarily unkind to yourself.
Attempts that aren't carefully planned aren't usually successful.
There's a good chance of failing, but also doing serious damage to yourself.
You could cause yourself to a suffer for an extended time.

and we don't want that for you....

Well, just because it may not work does not mean it's not carefully planned. I've been planning this for months. As for the unkindness part, that was kind of the point of this method.

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Only until I can get things together so a bit of time. Honestly would prefer to be gone this yr but I have patience. I dont want to live but I can manage if necessary for a few more. As long as I die that's all that matters.

Life can get busy and I want to be free clear headed enough when planning. There is such an urgency tho.

 

[jgm63]

Well, just because it may not work does not mean it's not carefully planned. I've been planning this for months. As for the unkindness part, that was kind of the point of this method.

Well you may have spent a long time planning it, but that's not necessarily the same thing as well planned.
Well planned would be a method that has been shown to work well, in a "repeatable" way.

However, the decision is of course yours to make (but I would still urge you to think over the points made....)

 

[galaticgrizzly]

Well you may have spent a long time planning it, but that's not necessarily the same thing as well planned.
Well planned would be a method that has been shown to work well, in a "repeatable" way.

However, the decision is of course yours to make (but I would still urge you to think over the points made....)

I know, everyone is saying the same things as you.
If I try and fail, then I will freely admit that I was wrong.
However you can't deny that there's a chance it will work

 

[jgm63]

I know, everyone is saying the same things as you.
If I try and fail, then I will freely admit that I was wrong.
However you can't deny that there's a chance it will work

Fair enough, but most people want something that is 95% (or more commonly 99.9%) or better....

I think this thread is interesting :

Spoiler: farewell-and-thank-you.27028

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/farewell-and-thank-you.27028/

It's a partial suspension method. If you search on this site against the video id, it seems quite a few people have referenced that video, so there might be interesting info in some of those threads.

And as mentioned, you could get a PO Box, and order things that way, eg for SN....

Anyhow, ultimately the choice is yours.....

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I WANT TO DIE RIGHT NOW