I'm sorry dandan, I know your hurting. I just wish there were some way for me to help you.
Thank you, my brother told me same thing yesterday.
Do you know what it is like to be hopeful for being depression free?
Then having these thoughts again and N in the fridge?
The memory of having 2million USD worth of crypto my mom told me to sell to be jail free 10 years ago?
And 12 years trying to have an idea of s business for 15 years and no idea feeling hopeless on that regard?
Feeling envy and regret of the guy who I pushed a beautiful girl I didn't even had sex with and I said 'no' to because of my health mental issues?
And having mental thought of being poor when I had it all?
The feeling of getting fired or loosinga job because Im not the best in my job which I don't actually job? And not knowing which job would I like?
Not knowing what to do?
Feeling hopeful 1 day out if 7? And feeling like dying 3 days out if 7?
Being a super pretty handsome guy/man but poor mental skills due to all of this?
Being Smart but stupid cause of stupid mistakes over and over?
If you have any words /idea to share it's super welcome even if it hurts.