How many years have you been suffering from suicidal thoughts ?

[stevieu]

On and off with varying intensity since I was 16, with one attempt when I was 18. I'm in my late 30s now.

The end of the road is definitely approaching now.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

14 years, I'm 28 soon to be 29

 

[LastFlowers]

14 years, I'm 28 soon to be 29

Closing in on milestone birthdates always makes this type of thing so much harder and adds a sort of panic and push to the decision process, sort of a reminder of how much time was lost while suffering.
Very sorry you have lost so much of your young adult life and adolescence to this hell.

 

[Hurt]

Almost a decade. I cant see a way out of this.

 

[supernothing]

I been dealing with suicidal thoughts ,depression and anxiety for 11.5 years now.
How long have you guys had these thoughts for ?

15 years or so

 

[Pisceslilith]

9 years

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Nearly 20 years.

 

[ExRN]

Looking at emails the first time I spoke to my mother about helping me die was in 2007 so over 15 years

 

[frost]

5

 

[S like Siren]

Like 7/8 years

 

[StarryStarry]

The first time I tried to commit suicide I was 16 years old. While in the hospital my mother told the doctor that I was an attention seeking, selfish, spoiled kid - nothing more. That created the way I was treated by the doctor and staff.

 

[Buddha.e.c]

The first time I tried to commit suicide I was 16 years old. While in the hospital my mother told the doctor that I was an attention seeking, selfish, spoiled kid - nothing more. That created the way I was treated by the doctor and staff.

Im sorry to hear that must have been a traumatic experience .These so called "psychiatric" doctors most of the time make it worse with unnecessary prescriptions and treatment .i know how untrustworthy family can be . I hope everything goes well soon.

 

[samishii]

I been dealing with suicidal thoughts ,depression and anxiety for 11.5 years now.
How long have you guys had these thoughts for ?

On and off with varying intensity since I was 16, with one attempt when I was 18. I'm in my late 30s now.

The end of the road is definitely approaching now.

For 12.5 years ig

 

[Lifeless mindset]

3 years

 

[Samsara]

13 years

 

[ForeverLonely82]

27 years.

 

[......]

Started when I was around 16. So on and off for 13 years

 

[sad_gurl_thoughts]

A couple years? I've been low grade suicidal the whole pandemic...sometimes the feelings have been way more intense, like when the pandemic first kicked off, and now, that I just had my heart broken.

This whole period of time is really damn depressing though. Not sure there's a way out.

 

[Numbtopain97]

Almost 10 years.

 

[Sapphire]

I've been suicidal for 3 years.

 

[hopeless302]

all my life. But it started to get really bad around 2017

 

[Nemy]

Around 12 years. It comes and goes but never really leaves.

 

[heavyeyes]

Close to 14 years now. I'm tired.

 

[StolenLife]

For more than ten years, ever since I was twelve.

 

[dandan]

19 to 37, 18 years.

Im 40, and these thoughts came back, and not because of chemical and hormone depression but because with testosterone and "depression" free, life has knocked down my dreams, opportunities, and I'm going back to thoughts of drinking the N I purchased before testosterone.

 

[makethepainstop]

19 to 37, 18 years.

Im 40, and these thoughts came back, and not because of chemical and hormone depression but because with testosterone and "depression" free, life has knocked down my dreams, opportunities, and I'm going back to thoughts of drinking the N I purchased before testosterone.

I'm sorry dandan, I know your hurting. I just wish there were some way for me to help you.

 

[dandan]

I'm sorry dandan, I know your hurting. I just wish there were some way for me to help you.

Thank you, my brother told me same thing yesterday.

Do you know what it is like to be hopeful for being depression free?

Then having these thoughts again and N in the fridge?


The memory of having 2million USD worth of crypto my mom told me to sell to be jail free 10 years ago?

And 12 years trying to have an idea of s business for 15 years and no idea feeling hopeless on that regard?

Feeling envy and regret of the guy who I pushed a beautiful girl I didn't even had sex with and I said 'no' to because of my health mental issues?

And having mental thought of being poor when I had it all?

The feeling of getting fired or loosinga job because Im not the best in my job which I don't actually job? And not knowing which job would I like?

Not knowing what to do?

Feeling hopeful 1 day out if 7? And feeling like dying 3 days out if 7?

Being a super pretty handsome guy/man but poor mental skills due to all of this?

Being Smart but stupid cause of stupid mistakes over and over?

If you have any words /idea to share it's super welcome even if it hurts.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Gradually when I was young. Now it's one of the only 2 things I can consistently think of (The other being what it'd be like to be born the correct sex).

 

[makethepainstop]

Thank you, my brother told me same thing yesterday.

Do you know what it is like to be hopeful for being depression free?

Then having these thoughts again and N in the fridge?


The memory of having 2million USD worth of crypto my mom told me to sell to be jail free 10 years ago?

And 12 years trying to have an idea of s business for 15 years and no idea feeling hopeless on that regard?

Feeling envy and regret of the guy who I pushed a beautiful girl I didn't even had sex with and I said 'no' to because of my health mental issues?

And having mental thought of being poor when I had it all?

The feeling of getting fired or loosinga job because Im not the best in my job which I don't actually job? And not knowing which job would I like?

Not knowing what to do?

Feeling hopeful 1 day out if 7? And feeling like dying 3 days out if 7?

Being a super pretty handsome guy/man but poor mental skills due to all of this?

Being Smart but stupid cause of stupid mistakes over and over?

If you have any words /idea to share it's super welcome even if it hurts.

Dude right now you are concentrating on your failures, ok I do that too. Yes I have made financial error's, due to my own stupidity. As for the girl, over half the worlds population,(8 billion), is female, there is one for you. You underestimate what a partner will accommodate as far as your depression. Sometimes when someone really loves someone, they will be both supportive and understanding. Oh can you do me a favor? Tell your brother I'd love to have had a brother. Usually a brother is a guy you might fight with, but he has your back. To me that is one of the coolest things in the known universe! As far a jobs, you were looking for a job when you found the ones you had. There are probably more of them out there. Something triggered you to remember your failures, but I am sure there have been things that are good in your life. You are not a basket case, you are like most of us having a rough time of it right now. Much love to you.

 

[enviro400mmc]

Like 5 years I feel like such a fraud on this site lol