This year was the worst. It's so hard finding good people out there. If you're struggling and people pick up on it, sometimes the ones around you make a point* to spit in your face, no questions asked. Then they do "the charities" and you're like sitting there lost... I don't get it. You can't trust them alone in a room with anyone weaker. But that's all they preach about. There are better people that see it... Always feels so far away though. Used to work at the one place, and we packaged pet food... The guys there would say faggot etc and just anything to get you to quit.... Well when you stay to yourself after that, they'll sit there and say, "she won't talk to anyone, like a schizoid or something" it's crazy... Haha I get it, some people say "fag" as jargon... The ones that do what I'm talking about will direct it* at you though, then act like you're the one ... Blah blah lol it's so common where I live. And honestly, do I have a big issue with religious people? Nah... I never really bring up issues that a YouTube sjw would.... And you'd think the people around you would get it... That those are red flags when they see it... No, surprisingly you get scapegoated a little bit more when they don't say anything lol it depends though. It's not always like that. The job I'm working now was horrible like that when I first got there. It felt easier when I opened up a bit. If someone's not used to your presence, they'll start that way after watching all the youtube and the news or whatever. Then you talk a bit more and build familiarity..... It eases a lot after that. People become friendlier. Lol Like, if you're LGBTQ and it feels like that at a new job, slow burn, it feels like torture, but don't just quit if you need the money. It's weird, but some of the people that called me that are offering me rides... Like idfk what to think of it besides familiarity and comfort and idk, factory workers, maybe trauma makes people act like that, idk. I know I was on edge going in. But see, idk, my problem is, I don't call that stuff out. I really just saw it as a game because it was so repetitive that I knew that charming dude next to me that occasionally whispered insults under his breath would show his true colors. "They're just like me if I can't see who said it" (I wore rainbow pants everyday to work. Just a stripe on my leg. Nothing too loud. Still wearing a rainbow bracelet.) Anyways, charming dude starts sexual harassment under his breath, and guy saying faggot wearing you're not special,snowflake shirt, calls him* a faggot. Surprisingly, if charming dude was in front of AI chatbot virus doing the same thing, he'd do the same damn thing. Charming dude shows red flags of being a peeping Tom etc.... but it felt like feckin Jack in the box. Idk. Unacceptable but ADHD has me waiting for charming dude to... Yep. "Everybody is just like him in this very moment he feels angry about the box being crooked on the line." I only messed up one on purpose after he whispered "stop fucking messing up the boxes" (he's overly kind all the time to everyone) i have too much experience with another one like that. And that other one now has a mugshot with the words "Do Me" on his shirt for "trespassing" anyway, long ramble.
But this town is so weird. I've never seen the word faggot used so many times in all the factories Ive been in. You'd think, Id be intimidated or something after being fired from Ameriqual. Never. Lol this town just hates gay people at first*... Uh I guess. Idk