Discussion How many times have made plans to ctb and changed your mind in the last minute?

[RickSanchez2022]

For me I already fasted 3 times preparing to take an and ended up chickening out at the last minute

 

[jitendrabagaria786@]

Probably 8-10 times

 

[RickSanchez2022]

Probably 8-10 times

What is your method?

 

[jitendrabagaria786@]

Hanging

 

[Felix007]

Hanging

i would be afraid of that too, SI must be really strong with that one, or also with jumping

 

[October112021]

Repeatedly. The next time has to be the last time, however. I have to go.

 

[Phtzzzing]

For me I already fasted 3 times preparing to take an and ended up chickening out at the last minute

Zero.

 

[Nikki2020]

For me I already fasted 3 times preparing to take an and ended up chickening out at the last minute

same. twice for me. lastnight and the night before. i need to do this tonight.

 

[coyotestark]

I've weaseled my way out of it at least a handful of times. I've always been able to come up on more money, or a place to go. But now the walls are closing in, my time draws near. Perhaps I can get in another day or two, perhaps not. Regardless, I'm ready to go.

 

[its-about-time]

Quite a few this spring. One significant one a month or two ago. Haven't felt that close since the last one. Kind of fucked with me, the whole thing.

 

[Dying Failure]

I've been contemplating on it for a while never tried it. Did the same thing my brother did and got a gun but realized after controlled shooting that my hands are unsteady and don't want to end up in a vegetative state so decided another way pending the SN that's supposed to be shipping to me. If not I'll use the same method my brother did and no one will find me so hopefully I'll pass before I am able to be saved. I have until the 14th of November to pursue the method and follow thru with it. Maybe before depending on how my mental status is before that date. But today wasn't a good day for me as they haven't been for a while now. Wanted to wait to do my will you distribute the items and money I do have left but the way things are looking it may be before then. Getting help does not work as I've tried medication is only a temp fix to a long term solution for me. For those who use medication and it helps congrats to them but it doesn't work for me. Tried med changes and thoughts only increased for the worst so will do it by or before the 14th which isn't a long ways away. I'll finally be at peace that's all I know and care about.

 

[SebVettel5]

A few times in 2014-2015 and 3 times this year.

 

[Life_and_Death]

lost count

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Numerous. Even have a few failed attempts as well. But with the method I chose this time, am pretty damn sure it will work if done correctly, so, once I gather together enough money so my sudden passing doesn't interfere in someone else's life, I can exit. Aiming for some time at the end of the year.

 

[spectraltease]

For me I already fasted 3 times preparing to take an and ended up chickening out at the last minute

0. This will be my first and last time. Im sure I will do it.

 

[RickSanchez2022]

Numerous. Even have a few failed attempts as well. But with the method I chose this time, am pretty damn sure it will work if done correctly, so, once I gather together enough money so my sudden passing doesn't interfere in someone else's life, I can exit. Aiming for some time at the end of the year.

What methods failed? What's your next method?

0. This will be my first and last time. Im sure I will do it.

What method are you going to use?

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Hanging, (old ass shitty rope, not well planned, kinda impulsive,) tried with a gun, just my luck, gun decided to jam. No idea if it was me or the gun at the time, but there's that. Tried to OD once snorting heroine and drinking a fuck ton then going out into the woods and passing out. Woke up with the worst hangover ever and went home and slept for like 2 days.

But this time it's the SN regiment. I am pretty certain, if followed correctly, it will work as long as you're not found for a bit afterwards. And I have a perfect plan for that.

 

[hellispink]

I decided I was going to die by my own hands when I was 11 years old. A day? I have never choosen one. I am like something that is being cooked and burned, little by little i become ashes and I stop feeling. Life has master me and taught me everything I need to be courageous the day I decide to leave. Because when I decide to leave and put a date, no even the wind will be able to stop me because I be so brave, just like I was brave to live this long. I don't play around with dates or anything because I know that when ready, and because I know my sick self, there won't be SI or anything that could stop me.

 

[makethepainstop]

For me I already fasted 3 times preparing to take an and ended up chickening out at the last minute

Emotions can be a problem for some. When I set out to ctb having my means at hand, I think at the start of the Genesis device in the wrath of Khan movie. When you hit the final switch it would display the word COMMIT, then start blinking the word. Once I visualize that I start my ctb.

 

[SamTam33]

Never at the last minute. When I make up my mind to try it, I go through with it.

But after so many failed attempts, I'm doing the research this time around.

And every single time I think I've found a new method, I just as quickly identify ways it could fail. So I push it to the backburner and pursue a new method.

Deep down I know that jumping is the only way for me, but I entertain any and all possibilities.

 

[universe]

I never made an actual attempt because there was always something that made me doubt. I always wanted to study a method in all its aspects to make up my mind, to be sure of myself. I would like my attempt to be the one and only.

When I was 12, I wanted to hang myself from the stairs with a rope, but I didn't know how to tie a noose and I know that I would have ended up catching myself on the steps of the stairs because survival instinct so I never tried. I had a rope and just tied a basic knot. And no possibility to do it in the forest because it was very crowded.
I decided on the SN and I hope it will work.

 

[LesbianCarpetPython]

Often. I was prepared with partial hanging but I couldn't get it to work. but now I have N2, I know I can die with peace.

 

[Willto]

Every day..

 

[Fennec123]

I bought all the equipment i needed around a year ago... but then i managed to somehow pick myself up a little... so i never got around to setting it up....

however recently I discovered something that's broken my heart, so im pretty sure that i'll be using it soon.

 

[przeciwwymiotne]

For me I already fasted 3 times preparing to take an and ended up chickening out at the last minute

I think there were like 4 times where I took it seriously and tried to kill myself out of self hate. But in between those 4 times there were 20-30 attempts over the span of 3 months. Literally drove to my ctb location everyday swearing I'm going to do it this time

 

[Sapphire]

I made plans to ctb 4 times in the last year. I checked into a hotel each time and was certain that I would go through with it.

 

[Enemy of Evolution]

I

I've been contemplating on it for a while never tried it. Did the same thing my brother did and got a gun but realized after controlled shooting that my hands are unsteady and don't want to end up in a vegetative state so decided another way pending the SN that's supposed to be shipping to me. If not I'll use the same method my brother did and no one will find me so hopefully I'll pass before I am able to be saved. I have until the 14th of November to pursue the method and follow thru with it. Maybe before depending on how my mental status is before that date. But today wasn't a good day for me as they haven't been for a while now. Wanted to wait to do my will you distribute the items and money I do have left but the way things are looking it may be before then. Getting help does not work as I've tried medication is only a temp fix to a long term solution for me. For those who use medication and it helps congrats to them but it doesn't work for me. Tried med changes and thoughts only increased for the worst so will do it by or before the 14th which isn't a long ways away. I'll finally be at peace that's all I know and care about.

I wish I had a gun. It's very very hard to buy gun in India. Now I am just weighing one method against other. My top list- nembutal, Nitrogen gas, SN, drowning, cutting carotid artery.

 

[hopelessgirl]

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