How many times a day do you contemplate suicide?

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

10 or 15 times a day for me.

 

[TAW122]

On average, at least 2-3 times during the day, first in the morning, and then later in the day. Sometimes it could be more times and for a longer duration if I'm really stressed and bummed out.

 

[dec132013]

Way too many times to count, definitely once an hour minimum. However my reaction to it changes frequently in such short periods of time, ranges between being terrified of death and being desperate for it.

 

[Raminiki]

Every day, several times a day, and especially with every incidence of further upset, disappointment or humiliation, as well as every time I'm exposed to more negative news about the state of the world and humanity. I keep telling myself to hold on till a specific date, but am increasingly impatient about waiting that long.

 

[voidman]

Basically non stop every day lol

 

[Taki]

Non stop. Today was especially front and center for me. Dozens? Hundreds of times? Helps to stay focused and not get distracted "it gets better" and similar bullshit.

 

[Sinkinshyp]

at least 50 times a day on average over the least 3 years.

 

[YellowSneakers]

My suicidal ideation is directly tied to pain associated with my chronic illness. Could be dozens of times in one day or I could go 4/5 days without thinking of cbt at all.
August was pretty good. September is turning out to be awful.

 

[Aeron]

All the time that I don't think in something specific

 

[nitroautnz]

Depends, some day its constantly in my mind, some other day its maybe 5 time, but it's only been a couple month since realize that I dont have hope to feel better. It was years that I didnt think about suicide.

 

[Rue89]

Too many times to count, pretty much constantly.

 

[BorderlineSuicidal]

So much that it feels less like genuine contemplation and more of me thinking about all the ways I could die for funsies

 

[wanttodie]

non stop every day

 

[WornOutLife]

Can't think of an exact number but certainly a lot. Especially when I go to bed at night.

 

[Torbasco]

It is literally always the first thing on my mind. I can't get away from the endless grief and anxiety. I'm always in pain and I'm so desperate for a way out.

 

[Spitfire]

As soon as my brain is consciously aware after I wake up, and it never goes away until I am asleep.

 

[Wayfaerer]

literally unending because it's not like I have much choice in the matter.

 

[FarAcrossTheWater]

Almost every hour.

 

[Taki]

We are doomed to kill ourselves.

 

[muffin222]

Everyday, at least once a day, but usually multiplie times throughout the day

 

[fox21132113]

All day, every day. Every passing minute I'm alive is painful

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Many times throughout the day. Sometimes worse than other days. I miss having copes and distractions.

 

[sadworld]

All the time, it's the only thing i can think about and the only thing i can look forward to

 

[peacefuldeath14]

I have a mysterious/unknown condition , and the mind has become so poor functioning and horribly painful, im forced to center myself the best I can with the thought of dying. So the desire for death is almost non stop for me, so hundreds of times per day at least. It really sucks because I'm not depressed or sad or angry, there's just something extremely wrong with the mind, and now I have to cut my beautiful life short in order to stop suffering.

 

[Adamsnolife]

Many times. Really non stop to be honest

 

[BitterlyAlive]

A few times a day. Sometimes it's a passing thought, other times it has far more urgency and feels like something I must do right now

 

[Bruces]

I'd say probably every minute of the day

 

[AMG44]

Too many times to put a number on it. It is literally the only thing I think about

 

[mathieu]

I'm not sure. Many times a day.

 

[Fedrea]

Oh gosh, many times. Mostly in the mornings for some reason