How many "tabs" do you have open in your mind?

[NZkiwi]

A friend mentioned to me in her mind there are a gazilliom tabs open at once.

What tabs are open in your mind?

Made me think about my tabs right now

- Having a strap around my neck, playing again and again and again
- Girl i dont have feelings for (i dont have feelings generally) but she is cute and we get along we joke about her being my second wife after i fall in love and get divocted
- This premium seat on this bus is nice, might try again
- Psychology appoimtment next week
- Telling my friends I am suicidal genuinely frightens them
- working as a bartender
- i am on weekly prescribing of meds
- waiting on some sasu mates to message me back and being apprehensive about being friends with them cause i dont want them to kill themself
- possibly working as a health professional again in a small hospital
- Volunteering on the cancer wards today
- I have not had breakfast but i dont feel hungry
- Wondering if this recovery thing might work out


some are active,
some are not

 

[lastappleonearth]

A friend mentioned to me in her mind there are a gazilliom tabs open at once.

What tabs are open in your mind?

Made me think about my tabs right now

- Having a strap around my neck, playing again and again and again
- Girl i dont have feelings for (i dont have feelings generally) but she is cute and we get along we joke about her being my second wife after i fall in love and get divocted
- This premium seat on this bus is nice, might try again
- Psychology appoimtment next week
- Telling my friends I am suicidal genuinely frightens them
- working as a bartender
- i am on weekly prescribing of meds
- waiting on some sasu mates to message me back and being apprehensive about being friends with them cause i dont want them to kill themself
- possibly working as a health professional again in a small hospital
- Volunteering on the cancer wards today
- I have not had breakfast but i dont feel hungry
- Wondering if this recovery thing might work out


some are active,
some are not

That's actually a very good and interesting question. Way too many tbh, I wish I could close most of them, but they won't let me, it's like a virus, which has taken over my mind.
There's the random thoughts I have, just observations of my environment, I look at things, look at people and make my assumptions I guess.
Then I think a lot abt chores I need to do, my work outs and how to time them. Also there's the psychiatrist appointment I somehow need to get and a new package of Xanax, cus I'm out.
And then of course I miss some ppl I think about daily.
I could go on and on and on, too many thoughts all at once + intrusive thoughts, it's exhausting

 

[hughmun9]

hmm maybe ... 27

 

[Forever Sleep]

I love this description. It definitely feels like there are certain 'pages' open, I hop between during the day. Maybe 6 or 7 main ones.

- One is my current workload- what I need to achieve today. My practical page.

- Another is devoted to anxiety around work and chores. How far behind I am on my workload. How I'm failing. How I've changed. All the domestic chores piling up to do.

- Another is a memorial page. All the people who've died in my life. All the happy memories. How I miss them.

- Then, there's a trauma page. All the horrible things that happened in my childhood.

- That links to my resentment page. Angry thoughts towards my family. Anti- natalist rants. Suicidal thoughts.

- Then, a more random page. Random memories, lines from films, song lyrics.

- Sometimes, there's a romantic crush page but, not so much recently.