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DiscussionHow many people will miss you?
Thread starterbreezeboy
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Maybe 5 or 6 people- all friends. As for family, I think my step relations would feel weird but I'm not convinced they would grieve exactly. Our relationship is strained. My distant family are very distant. Just how much can you miss someone you haven't seen in 25-30 years? Again- I think they would find the thought of it upsetting but, not exactly a deep grief- I'd hope. Same goes for work colleagues. Put that way, it doesn't seem so bad. Of course, if I went now- there's my Dad to worry about- which is why I've hung on.
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AvoidingMyself, Kit1, Redacted24 and 2 others
I don't have that many friends, so probably 2 or 3 people I talk to on Discord. Then again, no one ever messages me first so I have to call into question how much even they care. People are too busy with their own shit to ever talk to me, even when it feels like I've done so much to help them it just feels like they just don't care.
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AvoidingMyself, TheErdy, Kit1 and 3 others
Maybe 5 or so people would miss me, they all would understand why I CTB.
Most would understand my decision and respect it knowing what I have been through and deal with on a daily basis in my life, 2 would definitely be angry and feel that somehow I failed them.
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AvoidingMyself, Redacted24 and breezeboy
hmmm. technically 3 due to familial obligation, but they don't have the right to mourn me, none of them actually know me. they couldn't tell u my fav color/book/food, or prob even my middle name.
so really it's 0, but i answered 1-3 due to the aforementioned technicality.
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AvoidingMyself, Kit1, ijustwishtodie and 2 others
Probably no one. Even on here there's so many people that come and go it's very unlikely I'll be missed. Doesn't help that I've always been more of a lurker than a social person whether online or irl.
Could be worse though since I doubt anyone will be glad I'm gone based on hatred.
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AvoidingMyself, Kit1, Redacted24 and 1 other person
I think my dad might miss me. My mum would be upset but she'd turn it in a big thing for getting sympathy and the rest of her side of the family would say how selfish I am. They wouldn't miss me though, they don't even like me.
I think that whilst people might gossip about my suicide, they wouldn't stop to miss me or shed a tear. I'd be quickly forgotten.
The 3 people who mean more than anything to me are so young that they'd never remember me to miss me.
so 1 maybe 2 people would miss me.
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AvoidingMyself, breezeboy, Kit1 and 1 other person
Exactly two: My wife and daughter. It's because of them that I drag this broken meat suit into work to subsidize their happiness and continued comfort. Just crawling through life while pretending that there is some intrinsic joy to the meaningless drag of day-to-day existence.
On the plus side, I am immune compromised. It's only a matter of time before the next series of covid re-infections, so maybe there might be some respite.
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lotus11, AvoidingMyself, Chronicoverwhelm and 3 others
My parents might play the role of grieving parents, but it would be a show they have no right to perform. I haven't been in any contact with them for several years, they never much cared for me when I was a child, and left me to fend for myself when I was around 14 or 15. If I had any way of achieving it, I would block them from hearing about my death. The only realistic way to accomplish that however would be to die in a way where my corpse is never found, and that would require more effort than I'm willing to put towards this. Probably. The more I think about that option, the more enticing it becomes.
3 but only because of family. I mean, I live in the same house as my family but I don't really talk to them that often. I just rot in my room all day. Nonetheless, they will miss me, not because of me but only because I just happen to share the same bloodline as them
Exactly two: My wife and daughter. It's because of them that I drag this broken meat suit into work to subsidize their happiness and continued comfort. Just crawling through life while pretending that there is some intrinsic joy to the meaningless drag of day-to-day existence.
On the plus side, I am immune compromised. It's only a matter of time before the next series of covid re-infections, so maybe there might be some respite.
Only my mother would really miss me. My father and my sister only contact us when they need something. I only see the rest of the family (3 people) every 3-4 months and then they act like they are interested in me but never contact me.
I still have 3 wannabee friends who maybe contact me once a month and ask how I'm doing and a real friend who has been looking after me for over 7 months and listens to all my shitty worries.
Still, I feel really alone
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AvoidingMyself, ropearoundatree and breezeboy
If you ever need someone to be there for you or just listen please send a message.
You are not a burden and everyone deserves to have at least one person they can confide in.
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AvoidingMyself, TheErdy, lotus_pink and 1 other person
im sure that there would be many ppl sad about me dying. people from uni, my friends, old friends, my relatives and more. but i dont care about them as harsh as it sounds. the only reason why I'm trying to keep going is my mother, my little brother and my cats. no matter how many ppl will miss me they will neve hold me back from ctb except my mom. I'm angry at her. i begged her many times to let me go. but she wont. and i respect that.
if i asked i know so many people would say they'd miss me however i just don't think that's true they might say it out of formality or kindness, but nothing would change if i were to disappear. i love all these people, i just don't think they need me.
If you ever need someone to be there for you or just listen please send a message.
You are not a burden and everyone deserves to have at least one person they can confide in.
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