Some family, and my partner.
My parents are both gone already.
My mum killed herself when I was a young teen. I know if I did the same it would really fuck up the family I have left, and although we're not super close, I do care for them and how another suicide might affect them.
I certainly don't hate her for doing it, but I do wish I could have a conversation with her about it now.
My dad went from natural causes, and much later (thankfully). He was still too young and it was completely out the blue. In a way that screwed with my head more as he was a genuinely good man, and he really did do his best to keep us going when my mum went.
If he was still around I think i'd be less inclined to think about suicide.
I sometimes wish there was a way to exit without causing any upset, but I know that is impossible.