BlazingBob
I'm still here b/c of my dogs
- Oct 28, 2021
- 602
For me it's inevitable. I'm just curious about how many others are in the same boat and why. Health problems are my reason.
Sounds a lot like my situation. My car is still running but it's 22 years old and is falling apart. I also deal with chronic depression in addition to my physical health issues. It's debilitating.I was homeless and living in my car from last September to July this year until my engine decided to blow its turbo and kill the engine.
I'm currently living in an overpriced shithole bedsit at the moment and I will run out of money around mid December.
Can't work at the moment due to chronic depression and what savings I had will soon run out.
I can't do another homeless winter, it's fucking brutal.
It's game over in more ways than one now.
Sorry you are in a similar situation Bob. It's scary facing homelessness to be sure.Sounds a lot like my situation. My car is still running but it's 22 years old and is falling apart. I also deal with chronic depression in addition to my physical health issues. It's debilitating.
I can definitely relate. The mountain keeps getting bigger and the hole I'm trapped in deeper. I can't even get out of the hole much less climb the mountain. Everything has been such a damn struggle. I'm have zero fight left in me. I'm trying to figure out a peaceful method to have ready when the time comes. I think once I get that sorted out it'll give me a little peace of mind knowing I have a way to escape. Right now I feel so damn trappedIt's becoming more and more likely for me. The big problem is health, I've barely been able to work this year so I'm seeing my debts increase to fucked+1 and it's all just a hole that keeps getting bigger. The trouble was, I was relying on having a good year! I seem only fit for zero hours work now, and that's currently very patchy in my field.
In the past I'd have enough energy to fight through it, and do other jobs but it's hard to actually muster any enthusiasm anymore to even come up with a plan b. It feels like my life has been a long fucking hard fight, maybe I'm just all out of fight. I keep waiting for this counter-attack to come...but I just don't want to look at my reality. Every day, the mountain to climb secretly grows and I'd rather just vegetate. Maybe I've become a coward. I don't know. Maybe I could still 'fix' it. It won't be pleasant..story of the last four years.
If I am going to CTB I'd rather do it not because of money issues. But maybe choice is a commodity I simply cannot afford.
Writing this might have helped, who knows.