BlazingBob

BlazingBob

I'm still here b/c of my dogs
Oct 28, 2021
602
For me it's inevitable. I'm just curious about how many others are in the same boat and why. Health problems are my reason.
 
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loser098

loser098

Member
Nov 16, 2023
56
I will be if I don't get my shit together. If I don't, I'll be kicked out.

I'm being heavily pressured to go back to college and I am dreading it. Dropped out the first time because my social anxiety was off the charts, and I only managed two days. I had someone who motivated me a ton but they're gone now and things are looking rather bleak.

Is preparing for homelessness a thing?

Sorry about your health OP
 
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gbi2

Specialist
Jul 10, 2023
311
Yes, I have no more income. People around me have made mistake after mistake after mistake, the latest being the DWP haven't paid me enough money and likely wont correct it for a couple of months, if at all. I'm so done, I just can't be doing with being the one who has to make all the phone calls to tell people I can't pay for a few months along with ever other problem I've got.

Even the DWP are saying I've got two bedrooms. You could earn money by having a lodger.
No I can't because my shared ownership contract states I can't have any paying guests and anyone else staying here has to be on the agreement which means equal liability, which really means familiy members, but if it was a stranger then that's like giving up half of my share of the property, and they'd have to be earning income themselves.

The authorities don't realise they are stopping us helping each other.
 
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Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm de-stressing
Jul 1, 2020
6,915
im waiting for it.
no family or friends to help. bf wont move with me.
living with my ex husband while im fen someone else. he says he wouldnt throw me out but im kinda waiting for it... (expecially since he didnt seem happy about my couple bracelet this morning..)
yeah, im f'en risking homelessness so he can keep his money and fancy things.. fuck, he doesnt deserve me!! 😒
 
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WAITING TO DIE

WAITING TO DIE

TORMENTED
Sep 30, 2023
1,539
I was homeless and living in my car from last September to July this year until my engine decided to blow its turbo and kill the engine.
I'm currently living in an overpriced shithole bedsit at the moment and I will run out of money around mid December.
Can't work at the moment due to chronic depression and what savings I had will soon run out.
I can't do another homeless winter, it's fucking brutal.
It's game over in more ways than one now.
 
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TapeMachine

TapeMachine

perpetually confused
Jan 12, 2023
406
At any moment, my boyfriend could dump me (or die), and I'd be homeless, broke, and inexorably fucked. I hate depending on someone else like this. God, the anxiety and terror it causes me at times...

But I screwed up. This is my fault. I made a myriad of poor choices because my brain is garbage, and there's no way to dig myself out now.

I mean, I could try, sure; and I don't mean to be so defeatist here, but realistically: the odds are stacked against me. I just don't think I have the mental (or physical) energy to work my ass off for very very little benefit in the end.
 
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tiger b

tiger b

AI without the I
Oct 24, 2023
1,236
It's becoming more and more likely for me. The big problem is health, I've barely been able to work this year so I'm seeing my debts increase to fucked+1 and it's all just a hole that keeps getting bigger. The trouble was, I was relying on having a good year! I seem only fit for zero hours work now, and that's currently very patchy in my field.

In the past I'd have enough energy to fight through it, and do other jobs but it's hard to actually muster any enthusiasm anymore to even come up with a plan b. It feels like my life has been a long fucking hard fight, maybe I'm just all out of fight. I keep waiting for this counter-attack to come...but I just don't want to look at my reality. Every day, the mountain to climb secretly grows and I'd rather just vegetate. Maybe I've become a coward. I don't know. Maybe I could still 'fix' it. It won't be pleasant..story of the last four years.

If I am going to CTB I'd rather do it not because of money issues. But maybe choice is a commodity I simply cannot afford.

Writing this might have helped, who knows.
 
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turbomightbegone

turbomightbegone

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Nov 13, 2023
183
I suspect that I will. I'm still living with my parents because of mental problems (and I'm on the younger side) but since I can't really get a job I'll probably end up on the streets. I'm kinda scared because I don't really live in a safe area. I'll probably cbt before it happens.
 
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R_N

R_N

-Memento Mori-
Dec 3, 2019
1,442
My close ones/family would never let me end up on the street.

That probably makes it even worse since I don't see any future for myself.
 
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BlazingBob

BlazingBob

I'm still here b/c of my dogs
Oct 28, 2021
602
I was homeless and living in my car from last September to July this year until my engine decided to blow its turbo and kill the engine.
I'm currently living in an overpriced shithole bedsit at the moment and I will run out of money around mid December.
Can't work at the moment due to chronic depression and what savings I had will soon run out.
I can't do another homeless winter, it's fucking brutal.
It's game over in more ways than one now.
Sounds a lot like my situation. My car is still running but it's 22 years old and is falling apart. I also deal with chronic depression in addition to my physical health issues. It's debilitating.
 
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WAITING TO DIE

WAITING TO DIE

TORMENTED
Sep 30, 2023
1,539
Sounds a lot like my situation. My car is still running but it's 22 years old and is falling apart. I also deal with chronic depression in addition to my physical health issues. It's debilitating.
Sorry you are in a similar situation Bob. It's scary facing homelessness to be sure.
 
BlazingBob

BlazingBob

I'm still here b/c of my dogs
Oct 28, 2021
602
It's becoming more and more likely for me. The big problem is health, I've barely been able to work this year so I'm seeing my debts increase to fucked+1 and it's all just a hole that keeps getting bigger. The trouble was, I was relying on having a good year! I seem only fit for zero hours work now, and that's currently very patchy in my field.

In the past I'd have enough energy to fight through it, and do other jobs but it's hard to actually muster any enthusiasm anymore to even come up with a plan b. It feels like my life has been a long fucking hard fight, maybe I'm just all out of fight. I keep waiting for this counter-attack to come...but I just don't want to look at my reality. Every day, the mountain to climb secretly grows and I'd rather just vegetate. Maybe I've become a coward. I don't know. Maybe I could still 'fix' it. It won't be pleasant..story of the last four years.

If I am going to CTB I'd rather do it not because of money issues. But maybe choice is a commodity I simply cannot afford.

Writing this might have helped, who knows.
I can definitely relate. The mountain keeps getting bigger and the hole I'm trapped in deeper. I can't even get out of the hole much less climb the mountain. Everything has been such a damn struggle. I'm have zero fight left in me. I'm trying to figure out a peaceful method to have ready when the time comes. I think once I get that sorted out it'll give me a little peace of mind knowing I have a way to escape. Right now I feel so damn trapped 😞
 
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