How many of you would no longer be suicidal if you had money?

[Circles]

After reading this thread it just hits me hard as fuck how we're literally the only species out of millions that has to pay for an existence we didn't even fucking ask for. Like what in the goddamn fuck.

 

[lifeisbutadream]

I have a lot of money. It means nothing.

 

[eryu]

It is hard to say. I am sure at this point there are things that can't be fixed. But there are quite a lot that could be.
If I had money enough to live the remainder of my life in relative comfort, I probably would be okay to continue.
I guess I would know pretty soon after I had settled into a new place and routine.
Maybe I would just end up obsessively moving around until I could find somewhere that was right. Or maybe I would realize the pain and difficulties still present were too much to be bothered. Then, at the very least, I could plan a more comfortable suicide.

 

[VKVK]

I feel like at the end of the day it wouldn't make any true difference... unless I absorb the "snob rich guy" personae and live a life full of luxuries having everything I want paid for. Those things, however, are mostly true families, true friends, purpose, and yada yada yada. I can't buy these with money, but I could fake it with it. At the end it would just be another lie I tell myself. Money won't solve it. If anything, I fear I'd turn even more miserable, since I'm not that emotionally mature not to be overwhelmed by it.

I guess isolating myself in an expensive mansion in the middle of the forest is better than a decrepit room in an old house I don't even own, though, so maybe it could help, if slightly. I can't trust people and live alone inside, yet I long for connections I deem genuine. I don't expect to form any anymore, so I might as well accept my destiny and travel far away to buy some land and live the rest of my days in it.

 

[Sarros]

Money is definitely a big factor for me. I can't say for sure how being able to explore the options that financial stability gives you will affect me but it would be a nice distraction for me at least for awhile. If I had a gross amount of money, like the money to buy and sell planets, I can't say that I haven't thought about the unique potential that kind of money has. The only limiting factor at that point would be time I would think.

 

[deathLiberation]

After reading this thread it just hits me hard as fuck how we're literally the only species out of millions that has to pay for an existence we didn't even fucking ask for. Like what in the goddamn fuck.

Most people are born as slaves.

My dog, is completely oblivious to money problems, i give her shelter, food, water, love, lots of time outside and a warm bed. I give all that without asking for work or anything in exchange. My dog has a better life than me.

 

[Someone123]

Most people are born as slaves.

My dog, is completely oblivious to money problems, i give her shelter, food, water, love, lots of time outside and a warm bed. I give all that without asking for work or anything in exchange. My dog has a better life than me.

Well it is good of you to do this for your dog, but millions of cats and dogs are put down every year in this country for lack of a home, so as a species it is still tougher for them, though individual cases vary.

 

[deathLiberation]

Well it is good of you to do this for your dog, but millions of cats and dogs are put down every year in this country for lack of a home, so as a species it is still tougher for them, though individual cases vary.

That is true.
Cats and dogs are treated like a product, some sold in freakin vending machines, ultra capitalists are demons

Puppies and kittens are the latest casualties of China's blind-box craze – SupChina

“Blind-box” gifts and toys have been popular in China since 2014, but now some unscrupulous companies have been using the concept to sell mystery pet gifts, with animals shipped by courier companies. The public is outraged.

supchina.com

Ultra capitalists also keep paying for wars, "there is no economy, like the war economy", it´s all based on suffering and pain.

It´s so evil, that this topic actually talks about being happy by having money, because most believe there is no other way, or change is impossible.

Yet, i give all the best to my dog. Free of charge.
People pay taxes, and still make donations to help others, because taxes dont help anyone except the elite.
If people in small village in poor contries are given materials to build houses, they will get together and do it, instead of having to go into the mines to scrap for gold like in Burkina Fasso.

We all know what the trap is. And we still want lots of it.

 

[Circles]

That is true.
Cats and dogs are treated like a product, some sold in freakin vending machines, ultra capitalists are demons

Puppies and kittens are the latest casualties of China's blind-box craze – SupChina

“Blind-box” gifts and toys have been popular in China since 2014, but now some unscrupulous companies have been using the concept to sell mystery pet gifts, with animals shipped by courier companies. The public is outraged.

supchina.com

Ultra capitalists also keep paying for wars, "there is no economy, like the war economy", it´s all based on suffering and pain.

It´s so evil, that this topic actually talks about being happy by having money, because most believe there is no other way, or change is impossible.

Yet, i give all the best to my dog. Free of charge.
People pay taxes, and still make donations to help others, because taxes dont help anyone except the elite.
If people in small village in poor contries are given materials to build houses, they will get together and do it, instead of having to go into the mines to scrap for gold like in Burkina Fasso.

We all know what the trap is. And we still want lots of it.

The more I learn of China the more I fucking hate it.

 

[Beeper]

I would reconsider CTB if I had plenty of money to facilitate a low-stress existence.

My mental health is better when I don't have to venture out of the house. Working in a competitive job triggers my stress response system, and I struggle due to poor coping skills.

I have not given up completely, as I am still searching for another job. But things do appear a bit grim for my future.

 

[Aeathelina]

Oh totally. 99% of my PTSD and Trauma alone would be solved if I could afford to seek proper treatment for my mental health and knees .
I'm barely able to keep a roof over my head because if I'm out of work for two days then I'm having to chose between rent or food. Most time I end up with neither

 

[Manaaja]

Remember that before you ctb, you write a will which reads "I hereby donate all my leftover money to Manaaja after my death".

It wouldn't take my ctb away, but it would help a lot, if I could live in a better environment (I'd love to live in a newer house which isn't moldy and shitty), eat whatever I want, not have to go to work, not have to fight to get money from goverment.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

It depends on how much money though due to the hedonic treadmill I could see myself still being a whiny insecure mess even if I were a trillionaire except then I'd just be making it other peoples' problem as well.

 

[Bleunoir]

If I had money I'd get out from this mentally abusive marriage and be free . I am only suicidal when he's around me .

 

[Freebird4567]

It's hard to say.
If I was rich I would hire the best psychiatrist i could afford and probably pay for treatment in a private hospital, I'm on the waiting list for trauma therapy (I know 1 person who's been waiting 18 months for therapy) but by the time I'm front of the line it's probably going to be too late.
But tbh I don't think money will make me happy or change my mind about ctb, I'm still going to feep empty, lost and like I don't belong no amount of money can change that

 

[BlindedLox]

Honestly financial problems are one of the big things motivating me rn. I finally have a job I can manage, now that my mental illnesses and chronic health issues have reached a point where I cant work 40hrs a week anymore without constant support and assistance. But it doesnt make nearly enough to easily cover rent or pay back my roommate some money ive owed them due to circumstances beyond my control. Ive been told just to take two jobs or to quit the one I have but I dont know if the people in my life realize if I did that I would be homeless within a month. I would not have the job I have right now without disability accommodations. Most of the jobs I could apply for dont even have anything like that.

I'm likely gonna CTB soon but Im not insured. Faliure is not an option for me. An uninsured hospital visit would be tens of thousands of dollars I dont have. And ive been poor enough throughout my life that I havent been able to get proper medical care for years now, even when I was insured. The copays were still cutting into my rent and basic necessities. Maybe I could take more on if I had access to more resouces but right now I am just too deeply ill.

 

[theboy]

I have money and I am suicidal

 

[FallFadesIntoWinter]

I had money in the past and I felt suicidal sometimes for sure but now that I'm struggling financially, I def feel suicidal all the time (like every single day).

So, in short, if I had some money, I'd def think about killing myself a lot less but I don't think the feeling would ever completely go away.

 

[SectOfValtiel]

For me, I have access to a lot of resources thanks to my state's healthcare, so its not necessarily a lack of things that can help me
The things that can, just do not

But if I had money I could move out of this shithole, I could actually participate in a hobby, I could upgrade my PC and do more with it
I could support myself- and potentially someone else down the road
I could stop feeling like a burden on the people around me that have helped me financially

I dont know if it would make me less depressed but its something I think might be able to
It just isnt really viable for me
A job isnt something I can mentally handle

 

[BlindedLox]

For me, I have access to a lot of resources thanks to my state's healthcare, so its not necessarily a lack of things that can help me
The things that can, just do not

But if I had money I could move out of this shithole, I could actually participate in a hobby, I could upgrade my PC and do more with it
I could support myself- and potentially someone else down the road
I could stop feeling like a burden on the people around me that have helped me financially

I dont know if it would make me less depressed but its something I think might be able to
It just isnt really viable for me
A job isnt something I can mentally handle

I wish getting access to medicaid and on disability wasnt like pulling teeth. Getting formal diagnoses from doctors can be such a financial sink within itself. Especially if a doctor isnt even willing to hear you out.

It feels like the few times Ive had those resources they can just become their own dead ends. It just sucks to not even have the option to slam yourself against the wall again.

I feel that on feeling like a burden, but I feel like trying to open a dialouge and telling people your limitations comes across as manipulative to so many people. Met very few people who are truly understanding of what its like, and actually exercise patience.

 

[affinity]

I've written about this before, so I don't want to repeat myself. In short, receiving a financial windfall would resolve say, 90-95% of my issues and I would feel a brief sense of euphoria and relief. But after a day or so, I know that lonely/scared/anxious feeling would return, followed by the internalized anger at myself for being so ungrateful.

If I were to win the lotto this week, I would tell the lotto corp that therapy, lots of it, would be my first purchase. No word of a lie. In all honesty, I would probably check myself into a swank in patient centre for a month or two just to get myself somewhat straightened out and try to come up with a plan regarding how to fix myself, if I'm even fixable.

All in all: if all my $ problems were to be resolved this week and a huge windfall arrived, I would love to start helping folks who are struggling. I'm one of those weirdos who still thinks humans answers God's prayers on earth, at least…they should. I would love to be able to be another person's Hail Mary, as selfish as that sounds.

 

[Zegers]

money can't prevent suffering

Money doesn't change the way I feel about life

I'm certain that money isn't the solution to my mental health problems

money won't fix my health problems

Money only really buys distractions

I can't stand living and not having TOTAL control over my life

Definitely not.

Money would definitely reduce stress but it wouldn't change my health situation

it can't change my outlook on life

Money could improve my quality of life but not enough

will end up doing CTB anyway

tbh I don't think money will make me happy or change my mind about ctb

if I had some money, I'd def think about killing myself a lot less but I don't think the feeling would ever completely go away

I went from poverty to having money and the idea of ctb didn't change. What i noticed is a reduction in stress and anxiety levels.
Although i'd always choose to have rather than not.
I have health problems and barely go out. Imo, about poverty and wealth, money ease problems, but if you have a serious problem, it can't solve it.

The happiest folks i have met were not celebrities, not popular on ig, they had one thing in common: a good family.

 

[BlindedLox]

I went from poverty to having money and the idea of ctb didn't change. What i noticed is a reduction in stress and anxiety levels.
Although i'd always choose to have rather than not.
I have health problems and barely go out. Imo, about poverty and wealth, money ease problems, but if you have a serious problem, it can't solve it.

The happiest folks i have met were not celebrities, not popular on ig, they had one thing in common: a good family.

Good family support is huge, I would be far less suicidal had both my parents and my extended family been solid foundations in my life

 

[Jadzia]

I'm suicidal because of severe chronic illnesses. No amount of money will cure me. If I won the Euro millions I'd pay people to travel to Mexico to find some N.

 

[ShuttingDown]

Yeah, would go on world tour and choose last destination as Mexico

 

[looseye]

I have money. Kind of. Let's say I have all the material things I need/want and a sufficient financial cushion. I still ended up on this forum so... yeeeah...

This was a year ago. I'm borderline broke now. Feeling a little better actually

 

[anyoneshorizon]

I would still be suicidal but I'd probably enjoy my money first. But I'm sure I'd still Kys.

 

[Pentobarbital_Plz]

Money won't wipe my memories or make me interested in anything. Nothing is fucking interesting anymore. It's all the same and meaningless. Money won't change the past. Money won't make me sane.

 

[ukket]

I have money, it means nothing to me as i am still unhappy and just want to exit...

 

[Sad_Sack]

Yeah, I would leave the site if I had money. I don't have enough to figure out what is going on with me medically/psychologically. I can't work/support myself because of what is going on. I also have a lot of medical debt from trying to get it figured out thus far (unsuccessfully). I have no savings or pension type thing built up either. So I just don't see this ending well.

I just want enough to get situated and be functional like a normal person my age. I feel sick when I see that cocksucker Bezos gallivanting around with his eight hundred squillion dollars and I can barely get up off the couch. Wanker.

Me too. I saw this topic and came to say pretty much just what you did. If I had money I would at least be able to pursue medical attention. I have state insurance and it is horrible. If I could pay privately, right now, to see specialists I would at least be able to try and put cbt on hold.

The USA needs free healthcare for everyone. I don't mean the laughable care you get from state insurance providers either. 100% access to all services as you would with outrageously expensive private insurance. Until how hospitals, physicians and diagnostic services are regulated as to their price gouging it will be impossible. I recently had to take my 15 year old son to the emergency room because his ear was hurting g very bad. We were seen in a couple of hours and the doctor looked in his ear, said it was a middle ear infection and prescribed him eardrops. It took around 10 minutes. He is also in the same state insurance as me and I had forgot his card at home. They said to just call the hospital and give them the info. I procrastinated and we received the bill. It was $1099.00. We got it taken care if but really? $1099. For 10 minutes and no tests? How can tax payers ever give enough for healthcare for all when vultures are charging this much? Steaming piles of shit.