How many of you wanting to CTB have a significant other?

[Castles]

Gf, and a kid with my ex. They wouldnt be surprised but wouldnt be able to really change anything so whatever

 

[Dawn0071111]

My husband and I am in a divorce process. I have been a housewife for 7 years. It will take 6 months to grant the divorce certificate I dont think i can wait that long though :(:(:((

 

[willowtrees0]

I have a husband. He has no Idea. I keep my mental state to myself.

 

[bluedream]

I have a girlfriend. I love her so much, shes the best thing in my life right now. I know if I stay alive for her though, I'll eventually end up holding her back in life.

 

[Mr M]

I am surprised to see how many of you have a partner and still want to ctb. The thing is that for me failure at relationships is the main cause of my depression and my desire to ctb. I don't have a gf right now, going through another breakup and that makes me miserable. I wonder, those of you who have a loving partner, why do you want to ctb?

 

[dmsdnd18]

I had a boyfriend. We've both dealt with suicidal thoughts most of our lives. He shot himself last year.. I wish he wouldve taken me with him. Now i just want to be with him again

 

[clownangel]

Have an incredibly kind, supportive SO. (Which mostly means I only check here up late on smoke breaks of after he's asleep.)

 

[Eurus]

I myself am not,however I stand in agreement with you that finding my SO would be a game changer however,finding my SO is a nonissue because of my life standing therefore I am doomed to death

 

[Eurus]

Na

^I wonder if there is any connection between who actually goes through with it and who has/hasn't a SO. Though. Of course, 90% of people (and 99% of women whatever their circumstances) who want partners, have them, so it would be hard to determine. But I'd wager that suicidal intentions become suicidal actions more frequently (proportionally speaking) for the partnerless.

I can't imagine having a SO and being here. It must be so special, though, to have at least one person who actually gives a shit. I myself will have to kill myself in public, precisely because otherwise they'll be no one to find my body. I don't want to be the bad smell that gets reported to the housing people 3 months later.

Anyone here with a partner (most of you) should take a moment to feel a little fck gratitude.

h cuz what if you got a partner but things ain't working out? I'm that case I could still understand it not only that but everyone goes thru their own stuff

 

[neilo99]

My wife knows I am depressed. I was signed off work for years. However I am good at hiding it after all these years. She would kill me if she knew I was on ss. Maybe I'll just leave my phone open on her bedside table. She can do the job for me!!

 

[737492]

Part of the reason I want to CTB is because I don't have a significant other. I have no one. At least I won't have to worry about that part.

Same here...

 

[Willow]

I've been married for 13 years. I'm incredibly lucky- my husband is so kind and loving. He's the only reason I'm still alive. He does know a little about this site, but I've never showed it to him. Trying to work up the courage to do it even though it will probably hurt him very badly

 

[sad_frog]

been with my boyfriend for 7 years. He stayed with me after my first attempt to CTB. He knows of this website but I don't know if he knows the extent of it. He is so kind and loving... I couldn't ask for a better guy.
Even if you have a S.O. the pain doesnt magically go away. I find the pain manifests itself in every aspect in my life. I just cant stand life and the pain depression does to me. Im already dead

 

[AlmostFinished]

I do not have a girlfriend and that is an important reason for CTB in my decision. That is something that grieves me before I die, never having emotionally connected with a woman and never having tried.

 

[alexithymia]

I'm envious of others who have loving, supportive SOs. I think if I could go through life with someone who prioritizes me and who I love, the pain would be more bearable.

 

[OreoWellington]

I at one point did have a steady, loving significant other who actually has for a temporary time turned things around for me, but eventually my flaws and my being stubborn and hell-bent on a path of self-destruction ruined that. This once used to be a HUGE reason I used to be so depressed, but now (this only just happened recently) I realize I am in no place to love anyone right now (I feel absolutely devoid of all feeling right now and am far too depressed to provide anything healthy and productive) and being single is an even better, more ideal circumstance in which to commit suicide because there are less ties for me to feel any guilt or remorse over.

 

[Bärchen]

Never had a SO and never will have. I be forgotten the second i take my last breath, my cats can food by any other person on the planet and my coworkers i often have to do extra hours for have to search for another clown.

 

[Kodama]

2 beautiful children, 18 and 22, a marvelous GF and a son in law (12) ... Many reasons not to CTB so why i'm here and i think about this fuck every single day because of financials issues and shame about these issues...
I fell like i'm trapped !