Discussion How many of us here on SS will be still be here in a few years

[us_1999]

Very likely I'll be here. Suicidality is part of me since I was a teenager. I've been searching for ways to die for many years but I'm still here. I won't catch the bus before I've consumed all the life in me. The depth to fall through seems indefinite. But even if I manage to get better, I'll still have suicidal thoughts in mind.

 

[lofticries]

It all depends....And I not gonna say what things it'll depend on cause I don't want to jinx myself.

 

[Enigmatic Sailor]

I could be here for another 90 years. God have mercy on your souls...

 

[waitingforrest]

I don't think so, most of my life is leading up to ctb. I'm just waiting for the point of no return.

 

[Wizard999666]

My plan is to give this a few years and see if the depression goes away, but I'm getting more and more tired. I might just do it this year, maybe even in the coming weeks. I can't take this much longer.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I don't think depression actually goes away, unless it's caused by lifestyle circumstances.

 

[Wizard999666]

I don't think depression actually goes away, unless it's caused by lifestyle circumstances.

Me neither. I'm the most pessimistic guy ever. I'm mostly doing it for my parents.

 

[Panna]

Sorry to say this will never happen. There is no such thing as a perfect timing or perfect farewell. If you want to die in your heart of hearts you would of come to accept this. One thing would not push you off the edge.

I disagree, stress or issues building up to that boiling point will lead to a appropriate action. It wont be planned in advance but rather a spur of the moment response, but that is enough to push one off the edge.

 

[Lullaby]

I disagree, stress or issues building up to that boiling point will lead to a appropriate action. It wont be planned in advance but rather a spur of the moment response, but that is enough to push one off the edge.

This is true. I had a friend who struggled with depression for years, her grandfather, who she was very close with, passed away and it completely destroyed her. She hung herself a few days after. A lot of people battle with ideation and depression, but hold on for various reasons, even if it's hard for them to admit it. Once you strip away that last bit of hope, it can completely break you.

Even if you're not suicidal, there's an incredible amount of support to be found here. You can vent about your problems, issues, or whatever and you'll get tons of advice as well as a great sense of understanding that you can't find anywhere else. Some come here for the methods, while others just don't want to feel alone. I know plenty of people who've made real, genuine friendships from this place. I would never judge anyone for being on here for a prolonged amount of time.

 

[Life interrupted]

If I had N I would definitely end it tonight. And no I won't be here for years!

 

[Friday night]

Could give it a few more but if someone mysteriously delivered N to me I would imbibe

Same

 

[WorthlessTrash]

This is true. I had a friend who struggled with depression for years, her grandfather, who she was very close with, passed away and it completely destroyed her. She hung herself a few days after. A lot of people battle with ideation and depression, but hold on for various reasons, even if it's hard for them to admit it. Once you strip away that last bit of hope, it can completely break you.

Even if you're not suicidal, there's an incredible amount of support to be found here. You can vent about your problems, issues, or whatever and you'll get tons of advice as well as a great sense of understanding that you can't find anywhere else. Some come here for the methods, while others just don't want to feel alone. I know plenty of people who've made real, genuine friendships from this place. I would never judge anyone for being on here for a prolonged amount of time.

Agreed. I'm here for methods and support. I'm just worried about getting attached to people and people getting attached to me, in case someone CTB. Not saying there's shame in getting attached, but it might be painful.

 

[Hell-On-Earth]

For me it's difficult to say. I've been intensely suicidal for years, but I've found a doctor that seems to be willing to help me. If I find a way to change my state of mind I will live for as long as I can. If not, CTB it is. It's just so difficult trying to rationalise reasons for living. I currently can't see the light and I don't think I'll live pass three more years. But after being forced to tell my family about my current state I'm going to give this at least one shot for them. Words cannot describe how difficult it is to cope with this. All I want to do is die yet at the same time I feel like I'm being held hostage by my family. And on top of all of this I have to see if I can resolve my mental health issues, which I see as impossible. I'm terrified to be trapped in an endless loop of wanting to CTB, going through recovery and then wanting to CTB again. That would be hell. I'd rather just end it.

 

[sandalphon]

I'd be around for a very long time, but not here on this forum. This is a miserable place and as such is not good for my mental health. I already have the information I wanted anyway so I may be leaving for good very soon.

 

[Source Energy]

I hope I won't be here. Struggling with my circumstances for 15 years, but I have never been happy. It won't get better for me..not unless I completely change into someone else

 

[lukas19]

I hope I won't be here. Struggling with my circumstances for 15 years, but I have never been happy. It won't get better for me..not unless I completely change into someone else

Just waiting for my 'medication' to be delivered. Then I'm gonna be stardust again. The sooner the better!

 

[Source Energy]

I'd be around for a very long time, but not here on this forum. This is a miserable place and as such is not good for my mental health. I already have the information I wanted anyway so I may be leaving for good very soon.

Why did you join the forum, if you don't mind me asking? It doesn't sound like to find a method to c.t.b, since you will be around for a very long time. And since it is a miserable place, and not good for your health? If your mental state is anything other than misery and wanting to escape, why are you here at all? It sounds like you sheeting on this community. No offense.

If I had N I would definitely end it tonight. And no I won't be here for years!

Oh, that sweet N! "What do you want for Christmas? - A bottle of N!" "What do you want for your b-day? N!"

 

[quietam pacem12]

Auf keinen Fall. Das will ich nicht und bereite mich vor. Dieses Jahr möchte ich nicht mehr überleben.

 

[ryo the frog]

I came to ss trying to find methods, though I've prolonged my suicide date to years from now. I stay because ss is a nice venting place. all in all I'll probably be here for a while.