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sevennn

sevennn

Warlock
Sep 11, 2024
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just curious
 
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ebg

LOVE !
Sep 30, 2024
134
Me. I am going to drive to some unknown place so I won't be able to call anyone if my SI kicks in.
 
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nihilistic_dragon

nihilistic_dragon

Dead already. Just need to dispose of my body now.
Aug 6, 2024
884
If I can't find N, I will have to find SN. Reluctantly. I prefer N. SN seems way too complicated and too salty, I hate things that are overly salty.
 
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LunarLight

LunarLight

i'm a loser, a failure
Apr 3, 2024
1,362
I am.
I would choose this method. But scared af it will cause brain damage for me. Cause i'm convinced my SI is so strong that I would call authorities to help me, even 20 minutes after i drink sn. So I don't know, it could be too late.
Never heard of brain damage with SN. I thought it was one of the few methods that did not imply potential long-lasting sequelae.
If I can't find N, I will have to find SN. Reluctantly. I prefer N. SN seems way too complicated and too salty, I hate things that are overly salty.
Well, it's going to be hard to source N, even if you go to South America.
 
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littletoomuch

Member
Sep 26, 2024
7
I was planning with CO when I started suffering with depression 10 years ago and switched to SN after I found this forum
 
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disjectamembra

disjectamembra

the universe is going to catch you
Oct 1, 2024
64
hopefully i will
 
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Plato'sCaveDweller

Plato'sCaveDweller

Sleep is good, death is better.
Sep 2, 2024
512
Me. With any luck, it'll be my bus ticket out of here. Finally...
 
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identity0

identity0

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Sep 25, 2024
388
I'm going for hanging and already have a rope but i havent tested with it yet. I feel like it should be fine. I dont care even if im in a lot of pain for a few minutes because it's nothing compared to the pain of living for decades longer. But i suppose it is possible that there will be some SI response that will change my mind once i actually try
 
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sevennn

Warlock
Sep 11, 2024
701
I'm going for hanging and already have a rope but i havent tested with it yet. I feel like it should be fine. I dont care even if im in a lot of pain for a few minutes because it's nothing compared to the pain of living for decades longer. But i suppose it is possible that there will be some SI response that will change my mind once i actually try
i wanted partial. but live with family. bummer
 
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wren-briar

wrenbriar.gitlab.io
Jul 1, 2024
223
1000001235


It's one of the two methods that I'm seriously considering at this moment, the other being night-night.

I also haven't ruled out eyedrops, but when I checked, none of the ones at the store had the correct active ingredient.
 
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nihilistic_dragon

nihilistic_dragon

Dead already. Just need to dispose of my body now.
Aug 6, 2024
884
Well, it's going to be hard to source N, even if you go to South America.
Hard? Yes. Impossible? I doubt it. I have nothing else to lose so going to give it a shot.
 
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LunarLight

LunarLight

i'm a loser, a failure
Apr 3, 2024
1,362
Hard? Yes. Impossible? I doubt it. I have nothing else to lose so going to give it a shot.
It's not impossible yet. But you better speak Spanish fluently and have a forged prescription! Authorities are aware of suicide tourism and more and more agrovet stores turn you away when you ask for Halatal.
 
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CuriousEngineer

Member
Oct 4, 2024
7
Just to clarify… 6.25% SN in curing salt is not a reliable way for SN right?
 
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ForestGhost

ForestGhost

PFP by user ropeburns&migranes
Aug 25, 2024
263
SN is also my planned exit. The 10-20 minutes of waiting before lights out scares me more than the side effects, frankly.
 
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Just_Another_Person

Just_Another_Person

Experienced
Sep 16, 2024
203
Me.

SN will arrive in 2 weeks. Originally I was going to do this in October but wanted to finish somethings first, then changed to early April of the next year but now I am not sure if that month is a good idea for some reasons. After that I will be able to do it in the end of June or July. I will have all things ready in 2 weeks so if all goes to shit at least I have an emergency exit.
 
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wren-briar

wrenbriar.gitlab.io
Jul 1, 2024
223
Can it work though?

Considering the saltiness is one of the contributing factors to vomiting and needing to consume an additional dose or two, and that curing salts are mostly salt, I'd assume you'd run into vomiting issues and hydration issues that outright would prevent you from consuming enough actual SN to do the job.

Also, the fact that every relatively reliable source explicitly encourages >95%, I certainly wouldn't risk it.

You don't state what type of engineer you are (I think we can assume not a chemical engineer :wink:) but, put another way, I am personally considering the >95% purity as a specification that must be met.
 
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CuriousEngineer

Member
Oct 4, 2024
7
Considering the saltiness is one of the contributing factors to vomiting and needing to consume an additional dose or two, and that curing salts are mostly salt, I'd assume you'd run into vomiting issues and hydration issues that outright would prevent you from consuming enough actual SN to do the job.

Also, the fact that every relatively reliable source explicitly encourages >95%, I certainly wouldn't risk it.

You don't state what type of engineer you are (I think we can assume not a chemical engineer :wink:) but, put another way, I am personally considering the >95% purity as a specification that must be met.
A very ignorant electrical engineer
 
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wren-briar

wrenbriar.gitlab.io
Jul 1, 2024
223
A very ignorant electrical engineer

We learn by asking questions, experimenting, and learning from others' failures. In our current endeavor, the later is a particularly relevant source of knowledge.
 
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davidtorez

davidtorez

Warlock
Mar 8, 2024
772
If I can't find N, I will have to find SN. Reluctantly. I prefer N. SN seems way too complicated and too salty, I hate things that are overly salty.
N don't taste much better from what I've read! Some have called it terminator jizz! Especially expired N which i have , that's supposed to taste the worst of all
 
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Rev346

Rev346

I’m here but will I still be next year?
Oct 23, 2023
162
Possibly? I was able to find some and have it hidden away. Will need to test it but I'm holding off on opening the package until I plan on using it.
 
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CuriousEngineer

Member
Oct 4, 2024
7
We learn by asking questions, experimenting, and learning from others' failures. In our current endeavor, the later is a particularly relevant source of knowledge.
What is DMC?
 
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sweetcreep

sweetcreep

reincarnating as a worm
Jul 21, 2024
224
i was originally going to ctb with helium but after some more time thinking about it, i've been seriously considering SN. it's more affordable, requires less of a set up and i'm not as likely to make any errors with the process.
 
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wren-briar

wrenbriar.gitlab.io
Jul 1, 2024
223
What is DMC?

It's a common source of SN that's supposedly reliable in quality.

Details are rarely shared (forum rules), but if you're reading forum threads, bits and pieces of info are dropped, and with a wee bit of personal detective work, and the right search engine, those details can lead you to DMC.

There are also other sources that I've seen mentioned, so if you're looking, I would recommend that you not necessarily limit yourself to just DMC.
 
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sugarb

sugarb

thief of silent dreams
Jun 14, 2024
794
According to this poll I made with 170 respondents, 35-40% said they're going with SN
 
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CuriousEngineer

Member
Oct 4, 2024
7
It's a common source of SN that's supposedly reliable in quality.

Details are rarely shared (forum rules), but if you're reading forum threads, bits and pieces of info are dropped, and with a wee bit of personal detective work, and the right search engine, those details can lead you to DMC.

There are also other sources that I've seen mentioned, so if you're looking, I would recommend that you not necessarily limit yourself to just DMC.
Maybe I broke a record. It only took 5-ish minutes to scour threads and then find the source
 
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leavingsoonx

leavingsoonx

Headed to the other side
Sep 22, 2024
118
If I can't find N, I will have to find SN. Reluctantly. I prefer N. SN seems way too complicated and too salty, I hate things that are overly salty.
For sanity reasons, I pretend N doesn't exist. Something so perfect yet difficult to acquire… no no it doesn't exist for real right ( :( )
 
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