Discussion How long have you been suicidal?

[Forever Sleep]

For 35 years. Ages 10 to 45- to varying intensities.

 

[SuicidalSuperhero]

First concretely suicidal thoughts was not longer after I turned ten. Thirty one years now.

May have had soft ideation before that. I was apparently a very quiet and withdrawn child.

 

[failedmind]

I'm very sorry about it. Do you think there's a reason why you started having these thoughts this young, if I may ask? For example I don't think I really had a reason to be depressed besides the fact that I didn't have any friends. In reality, though, I think that back then I didn't have any friends because I was depressed and the other kids could sense my negativity, and not the other way around (depressed because I had no friends). Perhaps a deeply negative event, like a trauma, occurred during my early childhood and my brain suppressed the memory.

I went through a lot of childhood trauma involving my dad and went through a really rough divorce between my parents. I genuinely feel like hes the reason for all of my issues.
It definitely could be some kind of trauma being suppressed.

 

[twistedtransistor69]

First had thoughts about it when I was 11-12 I think? Tried ctb for the first time when I was 14

 

[PainRemains]

Since I was a teenager I thought about it a little bit but not as seriously as I do now though I was institutionalized before I was 18. For the past few years I've thought about it a lot, some days it was all I could think about. The thoughts are oddly comforting sometimes though. Like if life gets even worse I like knowing that there's always a way out.

 

[sonnyw]

I went through a lot of childhood trauma involving my dad and went through a really rough divorce between my parents. I genuinely feel like hes the reason for all of my issues.
It definitely could be some kind of trauma being suppressed.

I'm very sorry. I hope you can feel better some day

 

[kuroshimi]

I always have some kind of "death wish" since childhood, but not actively suicidal. I think its started after I get to the uni. Just at that moment, the world began to collapse and so am I.

 

[Claymore7274]

Around 14 years old, maybe? But it was just some stupid teen heartbreak. it got real when i was about 17 years old

 

[SomewhereNew]

Since I was 16 years old I can almost remember the very first night it even crossed my mind. 14 years later I still want to

 

[failedmind]

Since I was a teenager I thought about it a little bit but not as seriously as I do now though I was institutionalized before I was 18. For the past few years I've thought about it a lot, some days it was all I could think about. The thoughts are oddly comforting sometimes though. Like if life gets even worse I like knowing that there's always a way out.

i definitely relate. sometimes it is really comforting knowing there's a way out of here. i love your profile pic and name btw. im a huge lorna shore fan