How long have you been feeling suicidal for?

[deadofdespair]

Basically title.
For me it's as long as I remember being alive. I never liked living.

 

[Munder]

About 18-20 years now

 

[korchoi]

It's been 23 years. I'd like to rest comfortably now.

 

[deadofdespair]

About 18-20 years now

I am truly sorry to hear that. Has it been consistently like that or on and off? (if u dont mind me asking)

It's been 23 years. I'd like to rest comfortably now.

May u find comfort.

 

[Die.A.Ria]

Since i was about 7-8 years old

Since i was about 7-8 years old

But at 11 it was really bad

 

[deadofdespair]

Since i was about 7-8 years old

But at 11 it was really bad

Same. For me around 13-14 was the worst though.

 

[Topaz111]

For about 12 years now
There have been better and worse periods of time. I don't think it will ever go away fully, mostly because I am disabled and can't be cured, but also I believe that once a person becomes suicidal, their mind will always wander back to that place whenever life gets too hard, just like with addictions, it haunts you for the rest of your life.

 

[deadofdespair]

For about 12 years now
There have been better and worse periods of time. I don't think it will ever go away fully, mostly because I am disabled and can't be cured, but also I believe that once a person becomes suicidal, their mind will always wander back to that place whenever life gets too hard, just like with addictions, it haunts you for the rest of your life.

I never thought about that last part. I hope it's not true but it honestly might be.

 

[Munder]

I am truly sorry to hear that. Has it been consistently like that or on and off? (if u dont mind me asking)

May u find comfort.

I would have a couple months reprieve but it always came back

 

[nayomi]

13 years

 

[canidiealreadyy]

Basically title.
For me it's as long as I remember being alive. I never liked living.

i think it started when i was 11 and has gotten worse every year since. im so tired of it and wish i could just go in my sleep or something.

 

[hughmun9]

Since I was 11-12

 

[FuneralCry]

I've always wished to cease existing as well, all I want is to be free from this torturous, futile existence that I just always saw as a mistake that only ever causes all this dreadful unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and to suffer in this existence is the most dreadful, futile abomination to me.

All I want is to erase this existence so it's like I never suffered at all, only the peace of non-existence could ever be positive for me, all I want is to be gone, this existence of torturous suffering should just never be imposed. All that existence ever does is just torture existing beings all for the sake of it and to me existence will just always be the problem no matter what, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for the true peace of non-existence.

 

[lpdsvm]

I honestly don't remember when. Maybe when I saw a reel when I was 22 where they say a few crushed cherry pits can kill you. I tried that nothing happened. Just got too anxious and drank too much water out of the made up fear of dying lol.

 

[hihi2027]

Since i was 12

 

[Forever Sleep]

36 years- from the age of 10. It's varied in intensity- to be fair. Alrhough, it's never entirely gone away. It feels unbelievable sometimes. A whole lifetime pretty much.

 

[Macedonian1987]

It's been 23 years. I'd like to rest comfortably now.

Wow, that's exactly how long I have been suicidal. Ever since the end of 2003, when I was just 16 years old.

 

[Tomorrow Is Today]

Since late October last year, so about 9 months.

 

[Defenestration]

2004

 

[YourLocalEdgelord]

Actively with a researched method? Almost 2

Semi-Actively? 11 years

Passively? 20 years. I remember having thoughts as a kid about a random shooter entering the building and aiming at me first. Though I had no idea what it meant at the time.

 

[valar_morghulis21]

Basically title.
For me it's as long as I remember being alive. I never liked living.

Mine started out as existential curiosity. But I've been isolated and depressed since I was small (around 3-4) so I guess it accumulated for pretty much my whole life till this point.

 

[thousandislandstare]

I've had suicidal thoughts for over 25 years now, but the intensity of the feeling seems to fluctuate and depend on circumstances

 

[Defenestration]

J'ai des pensées suicidaires depuis plus de 25 ans, mais l'intensité de ce sentiment semble fluctuer et dépendre des circonstances.

But for me since 2023 lot of

 

[Spite]

14 years and ongoing. Literally half of my entire life.

 

[satoporu]

since 2003

 

[Makethemsuffer]

Damn, I actually don't remember. Since I was 10 I think?

 

[surface]

Since I was 11 and I've had good times in my life after that, had a lot of distraction, met a few people but never stopped feeling suicidal.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

at least since 9 years old, i don't remember much before that

 

[sotomie]

10 years on and off.

 

[hurts2b]

Too long