emperorpenguinlover
New Member
- Sep 9, 2023
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Hi. I'm not really sure what to say exactly, but I need help. Of course I know there are tons of methods on here, and I have looked through a ton of them.
I know death, basically no matter what, is going to be painful. The possible pain from it is the only thing stopping me from doing it. And of course failing the attempt.
I have been thinking of doing it by train. I think I could get somewhere that is like a subway and you know it kinda goes down, since there's a platform, so if I find one that comes in fast I could do that. But I don't want to traumatize any other people.
I could go to train tracks too but worry I'll just be like mangled but alive lol.
I have a decent amount of money to buy things for methods, but I am a very isolated autistic person with basically zero knowledge of how to get certain things or even find out where in order to attempt.
For jumping, I can drive to a city near me, but how does that work? Do I just go in any building and try to access the roof? How exactly do I do that? What do I say if someone is asking what I'm doing? And how tall should the building be?
I saw a Reddit post about someone's dad who died from an OD and alcohol. They didn't say what pills were used, but they were asking if he died painfully. All of the comments were saying he most likely died with no pain. I want that. But again, I have absolutely not a single clue where to get anything I can actually OD on. And is there a specific type of alcohol to use? I don't drink so I have no clue if different types make a difference.
I know this is a stupid post lol i basically am asking a billion questions that have probably been answered a billion times before. I am sorry.
I feel it in my soul that i WILL kill myself. The thought makes me happy and even excited. I just have no idea how to actually do it…
I know death, basically no matter what, is going to be painful. The possible pain from it is the only thing stopping me from doing it. And of course failing the attempt.
I have been thinking of doing it by train. I think I could get somewhere that is like a subway and you know it kinda goes down, since there's a platform, so if I find one that comes in fast I could do that. But I don't want to traumatize any other people.
I could go to train tracks too but worry I'll just be like mangled but alive lol.
I have a decent amount of money to buy things for methods, but I am a very isolated autistic person with basically zero knowledge of how to get certain things or even find out where in order to attempt.
For jumping, I can drive to a city near me, but how does that work? Do I just go in any building and try to access the roof? How exactly do I do that? What do I say if someone is asking what I'm doing? And how tall should the building be?
I saw a Reddit post about someone's dad who died from an OD and alcohol. They didn't say what pills were used, but they were asking if he died painfully. All of the comments were saying he most likely died with no pain. I want that. But again, I have absolutely not a single clue where to get anything I can actually OD on. And is there a specific type of alcohol to use? I don't drink so I have no clue if different types make a difference.
I know this is a stupid post lol i basically am asking a billion questions that have probably been answered a billion times before. I am sorry.
I feel it in my soul that i WILL kill myself. The thought makes me happy and even excited. I just have no idea how to actually do it…
