Warum
Member
- Feb 11, 2026
- 99
Hello Sasu,
I wanted to share some details about my ctb. I originally wanted March to be my final month; I however decided to impulsively schedule dates for various final piercings and tattoos. I already have a few. Figured I might as well finish my avatar till then. End of May is my new month.
I will ingest 30g ( I only weight 55kg so I wanna make sure it is lethal) of SN with water in a remote location. I will be flying outside of the country for that. I will not disclose how the SN will be transported. My phone will be left at home. Anything that involves monthly cost will be canceled. My bank account will stay untouched, a note with my code will be in my drawer. No letter, nothing.
The upcoming last 2 months will not be lived differenty than now. I tried a lot to get better. It just feels so difficult. Everyone I open up to seens to try to take advantage of me. Use me for their own gratification. Messeges of people stop once I set boundaries. I'm reduced to a damsel in distress, a victim. My personality or who I am does not matter. My situation is impossible to handle for the very few people I have in my life. I do not blame them.
Every night is plagued with nightmares. I can not forget the hands on me, the defilement brought upon me. I was not a human, I was not. I was it.
I wanted to share some details about my ctb. I originally wanted March to be my final month; I however decided to impulsively schedule dates for various final piercings and tattoos. I already have a few. Figured I might as well finish my avatar till then. End of May is my new month.
I will ingest 30g ( I only weight 55kg so I wanna make sure it is lethal) of SN with water in a remote location. I will be flying outside of the country for that. I will not disclose how the SN will be transported. My phone will be left at home. Anything that involves monthly cost will be canceled. My bank account will stay untouched, a note with my code will be in my drawer. No letter, nothing.
The upcoming last 2 months will not be lived differenty than now. I tried a lot to get better. It just feels so difficult. Everyone I open up to seens to try to take advantage of me. Use me for their own gratification. Messeges of people stop once I set boundaries. I'm reduced to a damsel in distress, a victim. My personality or who I am does not matter. My situation is impossible to handle for the very few people I have in my life. I do not blame them.
Every night is plagued with nightmares. I can not forget the hands on me, the defilement brought upon me. I was not a human, I was not. I was it.
