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abeing1357

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Jan 22, 2026
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I've bought SN a few months ago but my parents found out and took it away from me. Now I don't know how to buy SN without my family knowing. If I can't deliver SN to my house, where else can I deliver it? Please help me.
 
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YourLocalEdgelord

YourLocalEdgelord

"You take my life, I fail to die"
Feb 3, 2026
228
I know of:

-lockers (DHL and Amazon have them, for example)
-post office
-package receiving service

I've never used any of them, so I don't know the details. I think it also depends on who will deliver your package?

Handing out an alternative address is pretty common. It's handy when you know you won't be home anytime soon.
 
Throwawaysoul

Throwawaysoul

Warlock
May 14, 2018
709
Well if you're an adult, It's illegal for them to tamper with your mail.
 
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abeing1357

Member
Jan 22, 2026
9
I don't think the UPS Store allows shipping risky chemicals like SN. I'm not sure about the other post offices though.

As for my age, I'm an adult but I live with my parents. I don't know how to be less suspicious to them. If I buy something, they want to know it's not dangerous.
 
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YourLocalEdgelord

YourLocalEdgelord

"You take my life, I fail to die"
Feb 3, 2026
228
I'd ask people on here/use the search function to check if anyone on here has had their SN delivered to an alternative address. I'd assume secrecy of correspondence applies, but it's good to remain cautious.
 
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abeing1357

Member
Jan 22, 2026
9
I wish there is a way to get SN without my family knowing.
 
ilovecats1

ilovecats1

Student
Apr 15, 2026
107
how old are you?
 
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DeathSweetDeath

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Nov 12, 2025
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This sounds like one of those things to wait out.
 
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abeing1357

Member
Jan 22, 2026
9
I don't know how to rent another house. Embarrassingly, I don't have a job, and I can't drive a car well. I'm a complete loser :(
 
fadedghost

fadedghost

Found SaSu after reading BBC & watching YouTube
Dec 10, 2025
888
I don't know how to rent another house. Embarrassingly, I don't have a job, and I can't drive a car well. I'm a complete loser :(
it may be, if you are 18-19, you are suicidal because the world is difficult right now with getting a job and finding a way to exist, everything is so expensive and the world is changing so fast. it could be in a few years your life is much better or different. i hope things improve for you and you try to get better, i'm pro-choice, but get nervous when people really young, possibly, consider ending it before even trying to get better. for some people it does, i realize this seems hypocritical, so sorry about that
 
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abeing1357

Member
Jan 22, 2026
9
Sorry, I don't see my life getting better. I wish I was dead.
 
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abeing1357

Member
Jan 22, 2026
9
Is there a locker that I can send SN to instead of my house? I don't want my family to find out.
 
Die.A.Ria

Die.A.Ria

My medical condition ruined everything
Jul 17, 2026
251
Post office or P.O. Box?
 
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hdead

Mage
Jun 2, 2026
541
Is there a locker that I can send SN to instead of my house? I don't want my family to find out.
Usually there are options, when you track your order, to get them delivered to parcel lockers. Depends on the service and the sender, though.
 
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myattempt

Member
Dec 27, 2025
93
I don't know how to rent another house. Embarrassingly, I don't have a job, and I can't drive a car well. I'm a complete loser :(
Just look into other options other than sn
it may be, if you are 18-19, you are suicidal because the world is difficult right now with getting a job and finding a way to exist, everything is so expensive and the world is changing so fast. it could be in a few years your life is much better or different. i hope things improve for you and you try to get better, i'm pro-choice, but get nervous when people really young, possibly, consider ending it before even trying to get better. for some people it does, i realize this seems hypocritical, so sorry about that
A lot of 18,19 year olds can tell the difference between circumstantial reasoning and permanent issues- I turned 19 this month and have now been suicidal for entire decade and have attempted multiple times since 13

Usually there are options, when you track your order, to get them delivered to parcel lockers. Depends on the service and the sender, though.
Yep but there's no point in doing this because you're going to actually have to buy the an to see if these options are even available and this definitely is not worth it if they're in the uk (based on my own personal experiences)
 
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VVL

VVL

Member
Jul 13, 2024
21
I don't know how to rent another house. Embarrassingly, I don't have a job, and I can't drive a car well. I'm a complete loser :(
I agree with @DeathSweetDeath, you'll just have to wait out or find other method. I was in ur exact same situation not too long ago, just turned 19 yo, no job, no degree, living with my parents and depressed af. Failed at ctb numerous times so decided to hold on my N/SN plan. Years later I'm finally living on my own and got more than enough money and freedom to get N/SN.
It's funny, I had to actually start living my life to be able to end it.
And who knows? perhaps you'll change your mind in the meantime. I almost did...
 
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