muffin222
Enlightened
- Mar 31, 2020
- 1,188
I think it's hard when you're still on the fence to some degree, consciously or unconsciously. I also believe that the longer and more deeply one contemplates suicide, the more mental barriers and doubts are erected, which creates further difficulty in actually going through with the act.
That being said, every 40 seconds someone in the world kills him/herself, so I suppose in practice it cannot be that difficult if so many people do it every single day. I imagine the process of pondering the decision, carefully weighing up the pros and cons, and finally reaching a final conclusion to die is the hardest part. I know many of us get stuck at that stage and linger there in limbo for weeks, months, years, or even decades, myself included.
That being said, every 40 seconds someone in the world kills him/herself, so I suppose in practice it cannot be that difficult if so many people do it every single day. I imagine the process of pondering the decision, carefully weighing up the pros and cons, and finally reaching a final conclusion to die is the hardest part. I know many of us get stuck at that stage and linger there in limbo for weeks, months, years, or even decades, myself included.
watereyes
y en a plus, ... et bah y en a encore!
- Mar 27, 2020
- 773
sadworld
existence is a nightmare
- Aug 25, 2020
- 3,870
watereyes
y en a plus, ... et bah y en a encore!
- Mar 27, 2020
- 773
Yeah I was thinking of a worse one. Theres always worse.We're already rotting in hell
Sherri
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- Sep 28, 2020
- 13,801
Depends on your despair or drive to do it. The biggest enemy of ctb in my opinion is SI kicking in. If I had N though, I think I would do it soon.
Pookie
Somebody you used to know.
- Oct 18, 2020
- 1,051
It’s not a decision to be taken lightly, so yes, it is hard IMO.
I've tried once to do the stat dose, did everything but when it came to drinking it I couldn't get over that hurdle. Have to be sure next time, only have enough left for one more go and don't want to have to try ordering more, waiting for it to arrive, clear customs, etc is too anxiety inducing.
It's hard because there are two big enemies:
SI and FEAR.
Also, depending on the method, pain can be a bish!
SI and FEAR.
Also, depending on the method, pain can be a bish!
LONE WOLF.
PUNISHER.
- Nov 4, 2020
- 1,883
Totally Agree.We're already rotting in hell
Thanatonaut
My time is coming.
- May 17, 2019
- 264
Totally? You don't. You just hope you can ride over the top of that wave to CTB on the other side.
Wrennie
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- Dec 18, 2019
- 1,559
The human body is surprisingly durable, so it’s harder to kill oneself than you’d imagine. That’s my main barrier... being left permanently crippled/worse off than I started.
It is a very hard thing to overcome, I've not even been able to muster a serious attempt. I'm the kind of person who likes things to be easy so that's something I need to deal with and do what needs to be. As others have said SI can kick in too.
yetme
Arcanist
- Oct 20, 2019
- 486
It's totally surreal. Sometimes through out the day I feel like I'm ready to go with it, but then I need to start fasting which takes 6-8 hours and during that time SI kicks in and I'm back to square one.
KleinerWolf
Account Wipe.
- Apr 30, 2020
- 2,700
watereyes
y en a plus, ... et bah y en a encore!
- Mar 27, 2020
- 773
Idk, I cant tell for sure. I wish I could.I disagree.
you only live once.
Braindead = the end.
demuic
Life was a mistake
- Sep 12, 2020
- 1,382
It's going against thousands of years of evolutionary programming.
Yes Bloody SI is a bitch and fear of failure makes it worse ...
Yes it's hard too overcome. The fact we even consider suicide is cruel. An evil way of life. Were all mentally ill people desperate for the pain to end.