Discussion How Does SaSu help you?

[Exact Change]

Speaking for myself of course...

1. This site has provided me the confirmation that "I am not alone". And for those who do not suffer like the rest of us on this site, you just would not understand.
2. We are all able to support each other in a safe place without judgment or guilt.
3. It provides me the knowledge I need to leave peacefully, and with less pain, if/when I completely decide to leave.
4. SaSu has far less toxicity and triggers than mainstream social media. I would rather be here with you, than on Twitter, FB,
IG or wherever. Thank you all.
5. SaSu provides me with a place to escape. It is a refuge. It is a place where I can find comfort, a place I come to find like-minded, a place where I can feel understood.

Sometimes the world seems to be working against you. Here is a place that seems to be holding your hand.
Thank you

 

[flightless bird]

Pretty much the same.

 

[jodes2]

It's enjoyable spending time on. I can chat, play games, help people, maybe recover somewhat, and of course learn more for my possible eventual CTB.

 

[Life_and_Death]

just a place to vent to a void. this place is just as triggering as any other human filled space

 

[Darkover]

gives me something todo otherwise i would be bored still am bored most of the time anyway except when on drugs mostly weed

 

[SamTam33]

I love how I can ramble on about wanting to die, all the reasons, methods I'm exploring.

Maybe people read it, maybe they don't. But either way, I'm allowed to get it out.

No one is shocked. Absolutely no one questions why. That's the best part. I don't have to justify anything if I don't want to.

I kick myself everyday for not discovering it sooner. I didn't know how to search for it. Without that article referencing the exact name, I still wouldn't have found it.

Online searches for "suicide discussion" or "talk about suicide " yields nothing but a bunch of hotline shit and articles about prevention.

My life would've been so much better right now if I had found this place a year ago.

It would've given me something to look forward to when I got off work. I would've been able to order SN and maybe even N with no restrictions.

But, alas, it's too late.

I'm still glad I found it when I did. When so many of the posters express fears and hesitancy associated with certain methods, it actually strengthens my resolve.

I never expected that 'byproduct' of SS, but I welcome it.

 

[FuneralCry]

It doesn't. They should just let people have N so this site wouldn't need to exist, which would certainly be ideal. The truth is that a peaceful suicide would solve all of life's problems and it's what I wish for. Also this place isn't always free from pro lifers and toxic positivity. Nowhere really is in this world.

 

[makethepainstop]

I love the freedom to speak unpopular truths, without fear of being FORCEABLY committed to a mental hospital! I can discuss things with others who are in pain as I am. When someone asks ,"How would you like to die?" I can answer truthfully. And I am sorry to say that outside of work, you folks take the place of friends. I love each and every one of you.

 

[Anon1337]

What you said. The pro life crusaders think removing this site will help. All it will do is take away a community where we feel safe.

 

[BipolarExpress]

Yes, it's helped a lot over the past few weeks I've been here (though I've lurked for months). It's a place where I can vent about being suicidal and having plans without risking being sent off to the psych ward. I can talk to some of my friends about my suicidal ideations, but I still don't want them knowing that I have explicit plans to go. It's freeing to say, "I don't want to live anymore. Are there ways I can get the hell out of here?" Knowing I'm free to leave anytime makes life a bit more bearable. Just a bit.

 

[Unending]

I kick myself everyday for not discovering it sooner. I didn't know how to search for it. Without that article referencing the exact name, I still wouldn't have found it.

I discovered and began lurking here some time in the more recent portion of this year. Before I knew of SaSu I would often lay in bed with my laptop and just google random phrases or questions considering suicide, sh, and hating life while listening to music. Obviously these google results generally aren't very interesting but I began to look farther past the first page and ended up finding one-off results that I didn't expect. Would literally do this for sometime between an hour and the whole night for multiple nights a week. I remember reading an article that detailed this website without mentioning the name and from that moment on, I directed my "Suicide googling" towards finding this mysterious website. It honestly didn't take too super long. The rest is history, well... fairly recent history, but you get the point.

But yes, I definitely find this forum to be very therapeutic for me not in the sense that it is going to cure all my symptoms and pain or thoughts of suicide, but that it consists of like-minded people in a world where VERY few can truly relate, not only to the suffering, but to the very serious right for it to not be mandatory suffering. This place also seems to be very helpful at calming me down when I have gone from a 1 to an 11 over some trivial thing such as walking out of my room and deciding that my roommate abhors me because they didn't say hi or something like that and then spiraling alone because I know how rediculous it would seem if I voiced my insecurities. When you are the type of person who can not even exist within your own home without being triggered with frequency and intensity due to paranoia, anxiety, trauma, depression, etc, then you know that you need a place where venting won't make things worse.

 

[hopelessdreams]

it's ironically the most positive place on the internet for me.

 

[ShanaRei]

I've only been here shortly but I feel like I'm among like minded people. Also FB and other social media absolutely suck. This is a nice place that reminds me of when I was younger, when people used forums instead of social media. I'd like to go at some point, probably soon, and this is a good resource.

 

[Jason Steele]

I like how you're able to freely discuss such a taboo subject without the possibility of being warded here.

 

[dreambound]

i am like a fish out of water in the toxic reality of the outside world, & am becoming less tolerant of
the sheer noise of civilisation .
SaSu has a calming effect that i much appreciate.

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

I can write here what I can't say to anyone else, it helps.

 

[NoHorizon]

I've only just joined, but the last few months I've been able to get a sort of vicarious comfort from reading people saying the things that I feel but cannot say to friends or family because it will freak them out too much. It's surprised me how therapeutic it feels.

 

[Amccorm2]

SaSu has become a stable place to be able to connect with others who are feeling or are in a similar mindset to me. Something that "normal" society could never provide.

 

[Silent.Tears]

Thank you for this thread, I loved reading your experience.
Tbh it feels like words aren't enough to express my internal suffering to normal people, in its full intensity and extent.
Here, I feel like much more is conveyed within a few words because everyone is going through similar situation if not the same. I feel understood, and cozy here.
IRL I really have to keep my mouth shut, can't express my feelings unfiltered, because I get instant criticism.

P.s. sorry if I butchered grammar in this reply, I'm pretty sure I did.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Used to be, I'd be able to vent how I feel and how I am ready to CTB without people trying to force feed me platitudes and unsolicited advice.

However, as of late I have been getting unsolicited advice.....

 

[BGooG]

I find it a comfort. I don't think I'll actually kill myself (I'm hoping for a more passive death), but it's the first place I've ever said what I feel to the outside world. Even having someone give me a thumbs up feels like I'm finally being heard. I've never experienced that before.

 

[that_guy2611]

I come here mostly out of habit. There's too much emphasis on emotional support and not as much on sources and methods, you can't even find the latest pph here. Most of the replies can be summed up as 'yeah,same'. I think if this site existed on the 'darknet' and not so beholden to US nanny state laws this place could have been pretty useful to me at least (I fucking miss 8chan's suicide page). I don't mean to disrespect the people who pay and run this place.