How do you want to spend your time before ctb

[Gloomislost]

Like, it doesn't have to be a day before it or even a week. It could be months, years, etc. Would you live life to the fullest, prepare your life incase it doesn't work (Like scholarships and stuff), isolate yourself? What would you do?

I don't exactly know what to do or what I am doing.

 

[cuminmybongwatr]

its nearly impossible to "live to the fullest" imo. if youre TRYING to, youre doing it wrong. love as much as you can, do as much as you can, dont worry what the fuck other people think because it literally does not fucking matter. be you, be kind, be happy for your final time. we all deserve it. life is miserable and others treat each other like shit. be kind to yourself and everyone you can. be the light the world needs, be the light that YOU need. let yourself live before you die. rest easy if you choose to ctb love.

 

[lemonbunny]

life is miserable and others treat each other like shit. be kind to yourself and everyone you can. be the light the world needs, be the light that YOU need.

i really do want to be the light and love others, but because of the way i have been treated in the past i self-isolate and prevent myself from making that kind of selfless connection. sucks :(

to answer the original question i would just get my things in order. feel like my mom is the type to snoop around my stuff so maybe i'd burn my journal or confiscate my laptop, idk. eat lots of ramen hehe, donate or give my things away.

 

[cuminmybongwatr]

i really do want to be the light and love others, but because of the way i have been treated in the past i self-isolate and prevent myself from making that kind of selfless connection. sucks :(

to answer the original question i would just get my things in order. feel like my mom is the type to snoop around my stuff so maybe i'd burn my journal or confiscate my laptop, idk. eat lots of ramen hehe, donate or give my things away.

i fully understand that, i was that way for a long time, just be kind and take care of yourself please. you deserve kindness in your last days.

 

[g0negirl]

I would like to spend a lot of time with my husband... just curled up together. Maybe another road trip with him? Although I can barely keep myself awake in the car anymore. I'd like to see a few more places too but I doubt that could ever happen for a million reasons.

 

[EternalPain]

I think I'd just spend the last few days or hours making use of what I was too scared of wasting. Spend my money on what I want without having to worry about later, listen to music until late at night without having to stress about any responsibilities anymore, go out and admire the stars and maybe think about what message I want to leave behind for those who will go on living. Just doing things as I want, knowing that I won't find regret, tiredness and anger at the end, but eternal peace.

 

[Gloomislost]

its nearly impossible to "live to the fullest" imo. if youre TRYING to, youre doing it wrong. love as much as you can, do as much as you can, dont worry what the fuck other people think because it literally does not fucking matter. be you, be kind, be happy for your final time. we all deserve it. life is miserable and others treat each other like shit. be kind to yourself and everyone you can. be the light the world needs, be the light that YOU need. let yourself live before you die. rest easy if you choose to ctb love.

This honestly made me feel more calm. I try my best to just love everyone for who they are.

I would like to spend a lot of time with my husband... just curled up together. Maybe another road trip with him? Although I can barely keep myself awake in the car anymore. I'd like to see a few more places too but I doubt that could ever happen for a million reasons.

I personally hope you do get to see more places, or even just travel somewhere nice.

 

[ddn.ctb]

Like, it doesn't have to be a day before it or even a week. It could be months, years, etc. Would you live life to the fullest, prepare your life incase it doesn't work (Like scholarships and stuff), isolate yourself? What would you do?

I don't exactly know what to do or what I am doing.

I'm not sure how much time I have because it comes in waves and that wave will just carry me to CTB

So I just try to enjoy my life when I'm not thinking about it.

 

[TransilvanianHunger]

I've had the fortune of meeting a couple of absolutely fantastic people who've helped me navigate some of my darkest days. I want to be able to do the same for others. That feels like a worthwhile use of my time on this planet.

 

[unloveablegay]

I guess I don't really see the point in enjoying my last moments. My perspective is that the goal is to have everything end and if I know it'll all be over soon, I'll just try to make sure as much of my affairs and shit are in order so I don't inconvenience too many people. What's the point of wasting resources to make myself try to feel happy for a few days or hours? I personally will just focus on settling shit as quickly as possible so everything can end and then there will be nothing to worry about anymore.

 

[cuminmybongwatr]

This honestly made me feel more calm. I try my best to just love everyone for who they are.

im so so glad !! try and take it easy for the rest of your time.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

If I had the means to spend my time the way I wanted I'd not be suicidal. But as this isn't the case I'm gonna spend most of my time here on SaSu.

 

[_Minsk]

I dont care much anymore I think, when my time comes I might have some tasty pizza or something

 

[thebookofdisquiet.]

I have 10 days left but I killed my identity here a long time ago so I don't have a bucket list, there's nothing more I want to experience, no favorite food to eat, no favorite place to go, no favorite person to talk to. Just killing time with puzzles and house cleaning.

 

[TheMetalhead]

Am doing it right now, spending my money on whatever I want, getting tattoos I'd normally never get, getting a percing, just got a new book, will meet my friends in October ^^

 

[FuneralCry]

By sleeping, it's the closest thing to not existing after all and is the preferable way to pass time. Being conscious and aware just leads to suffering, it's not desirable experiencing anything at all.

 

[Borderline]

Before I kill myself, I would eat some Ben & Jerry's ice cream one last time.

 

[chris1979]

Before catching the bus, I would want to spend time in a peaceful place. Alone. Like in nature. Because I want to feel more sure about my decision and really feel more at peace.