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crowstepz

crowstepz

New Member
Sep 20, 2023
3
drunk and high rn and can't stop thinking about my plans for in a few months time. ive never really used this forum, but i think that is out of a fear of connection on my part, and i want to try to broaden my horizons before i die.

how do you want to be perceived after your death?

for me, i hate to admit it, but i want people to never remember me at all. i don't know about everyone else, but i personally have been reminded constantly since i was very young how much ive made people's lives worse. i want freedom from that in my death.
 
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GodzillasBiggestFan

GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
523
i want to be remembered as kind, i want to be remembered as someone who loved doing theatre, and i want people to understand that i died because i was struggling too much and not because i was selfish or bad or over dramatic and that my feelings were genuine.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,584
I could care less.
 
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delinquentsandwich

delinquentsandwich

professional dissociator
Jan 23, 2026
194
to be remembered as me

specifically from a year ago
a girl who loved piano and music
caring, considerate and loving
someone who cared deeply for her friends

that won't happen- but that's what I want haha
 
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Luchs

Luchs

kristallene Bergluft ĂĽber verfallener Gruft
Aug 20, 2019
565
I want to be remembered as the at best worthless, at worst detrimental to everyone, piece of shit weirdo that I am. I hope as few people as possible will show up to my funeral and that people spit on my grave.
 
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PeaceSeeker83

Specialist
Jul 23, 2026
339
To be honest I just want the limited people I know to move on after a month or so.
 
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dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
1,223
If people happen to have a thought about me after I am gone, I hope it has to do with my kindness. But if no one ever thinks about me, that's OK too. I will be dead and won't know or care.
 
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hangtime1000

hangtime1000

Member
Aug 7, 2026
49
I am just happy to be dead since I am tired of life
 
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decadance

decadance

Member
Feb 18, 2026
44
i hope ill be remembered as someone who loved the people closest to her more than anything. i hope people will remember everything i loved and was passionate about, and will think of me when they see something they think i'd like

i know my family will remember me forever. i hope my friends will still remember me even after decades pass too
 
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TwistedNightmares

TwistedNightmares

My life is torture
Nov 1, 2025
406
I'd rather people forget about me and just move on with their life.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,579
after Death I won't ever exist again so nothing will matter to me then because there won't be a me for all time

did anything matter to any of us in the year 1869 or 1600? no because none of us existed then.

perceived as? Who even thinks about some one else. does anybody know who we really are?

do I or anyone knows who they themselves really are?

there are billions of memories experiences information in the neural connections of a single brain. you can only think about 4 concepts at one time . we can pay attention to only a very few things 4 at most at one time which 4 concepts can u bring up about yourself in one particular second? do these define who or what u r ? r these abstract language created concepts what others perveive u as? no. memory only lasts 30 seconds: try to remember a 10 digit phone number. u cant the weak human brain can't even remember 10 digit phone number after 30 seconds

someone says a name like Steve jobs. were u thinking about him? only when u read that. what wre u conscious of before? Who can say who Steve jobs was. ? nobody has been thinking about some model of what they think he was. and if u bring it up its an incorrect low resolution constructed model as it is for ourself imo

even Steve jobs is forgotten

in a trillion years there won't be a trace of the horrible excruciating pain causing abomination DNA based life ever existed.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
49,785
All I wish is for this terrible, cruel and torturous existence to be all gone and forgotten like I never suffered at all, to suffer in this existence really is a mistake and all I want is to erase this existence so that there is no more pain and no more suffering and to exist will always mean to suffer with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

I'll just always see it as an abomination to suffer in this torturous, futile existence and I'd only be so relieved to never suffer again, for me only the true peace of non-existence could ever be positive and desirable.
 
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everythingturnsgrey

everythingturnsgrey

Member
Aug 21, 2026
7
I want to be remembered as the silly playful optimistic somewhat-naive happy girl i once was. I don't want my mom especially to feel guilty at all, nor my friends. I do admit that i want my boyfriend who left me to feel really bad about my death, remorseful and like sorta guilty in a way. Shaken to his core. And this is dumb but i would also like for anyone who dislikes me to have to hear about me killing myself and have them be jealous(?) in a way, like it's the most immature metal/goth subculture thing ever to say lol but like yeah biiiitch you suck and are lame and I'm immortalized as a forever young tragic mentally tortured brutal suicide angel #aesthetic #2metal4u #suckit lmaoo
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,423
I want to be remembered as someone who touched a lot of lives, made a difference in lives of everyone whom i crossed paths with. Someone who used to smile while crying deep inside but always had the intention to make others smile. I wish to leave the world slightly better than how I received it.
 
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imissmycatsomuch

imissmycatsomuch

Member
Aug 11, 2026
21
I hope people will feel relief that I'm at peace. I think ideally I want to be looked at like a dog that was put to sleep, where people pity me and the suffering I endured for so long, and feel relieved that I'm free of pain.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
2,178
Unfortunately I'll be remembered as someone who was kind of crazy. Never could relax and be normal. It will make sense to some. I could have used that excess energy to be kind but that's not what will happen. I'd like to be forgotten as soon as possible.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Angelic
May 10, 2025
4,337
society is a vile abomination,
other people have treated me like a subhuman my entire life,
I despise that human scum,
they deserve no memory of me
 
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ceelobling

ceelobling

Student
Dec 29, 2025
132
Remember me as nothing, I don't care how people will perceive me. The only thing I care about is dying, I don't care about any of the life shit that goes on here. Maybe if I lived a full life it would be different, because then there would be actually be substance to perceive me as.
 
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jazzcat621

jazzcat621

Trial mod | My heart for the whole world
Jun 30, 2025
117
I just hope people from my community will be more gentle and understanding of those with mental health issues and take each other's feelings more seriously. I guess I want my death to be perceived as a "sign something needs to change"
 
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explosiveKai99

explosiveKai99

Member
Aug 8, 2026
96
Not at all, would be perfect and preferable.
Unfortunately I will be perceived as a failure, a drug addict, an alcoholic, a hobo, an idiot, a lazy bum, a dimwit and mentally ill.
 
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froggiejump

froggiejump

Hidden Lurker
Feb 5, 2023
11
A name engraved onto stone for passerby's to glance at and speculate the life I could've lived along with the dozen other graves.
 
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Dissolving Figment

Dissolving Figment

the examined life is miserable
Aug 21, 2026
53
I already don't care a lot about what people think of me, I'd care even less after I'm dead.
 
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hurts2b

hurts2b

unending failure
Jun 11, 2026
187
Oh man. I haven't really thought about it. I suppose I consider it not to be my business? It's so hard to imagine any kind of legacy for myself. I'm 20 years old. I'm not really much of a person. I feel very empty inside. Not identity-less. Just. Not all there.
 
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valar_morghulis21

All men must die.
Jul 17, 2026
255
I
drunk and high rn and can't stop thinking about my plans for in a few months time. ive never really used this forum, but i think that is out of a fear of connection on my part, and i want to try to broaden my horizons before i die.

how do you want to be perceived after your death?

for me, i hate to admit it, but i want people to never remember me at all. i don't know about everyone else, but i personally have been reminded constantly since i was very young how much ive made people's lives worse. i want freedom from that in my death.
It's complicated, and also futile, so I try not to think about it. People gonna see what they wanna see and it don't matter cause I'm already dead
 
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cowlover1252

cowlover1252

Student
Aug 21, 2026
105
I want everyone to be happy I'm gone then stop thinking about me and go on with their lives.
 
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Jamesun

Jamesun

No longer human.
Feb 23, 2022
154
I would like to be remembered as a good person, someone who helped everyone, and well, I think I would like to know that my death wasn't anyone's fault, and deep down I would like to be remembered not for that pain if not for the good times I had with them.
 
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DTWAFavor

DTWAFavor

He/they || May my death be a favor to all
Aug 27, 2026
22
Ive thought about this for years

It's one of two extremes, either i spill my guts and let everyone i know think the worst possible things of me so they're happy for my absence, maybe with a bit of spice: pretending i hated everyone..
Or i go out sentimentally with a note reminiscing on my life and how i "tried my best."
 
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pk@2001

pk@2001

Student
Apr 27, 2026
122
I don't want my family, friends to grieve for me way too long after all I am a lost cause who has been left wandering way beyond his time.
 
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ThisPartySucks

ThisPartySucks

ignore everything until the final collapse
Aug 22, 2026
69
id prefer they forget me and move on, but if theyre gonna think about me, i hope they focus on the good, and not my struggle.
 
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aloneagainnaturally

aloneagainnaturally

Member
Sep 15, 2020
8
I don't want to be remembered at all, because I know the only thing my bio family will do is laugh about it. I've endured enough in life. I guess the only thing I want is to not be mocked, and that only way that's going to happen is if nobody knows or finds out.
 
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