How do you see yourself in 10 years if you don't CTB

[natthebrat]

Probably still depressed, (nearly) unemployed, and still living with my aging parents. And probably forcibly detransitioned, thus making me even more depressed, bc I'd still be stuck in my/their red state. And slowly counting down the days til they die and I end up homeless. Knowing it's very unlikely I'd ever be able to support myself financially, I think my best realistic chance for a comfortable life would be to become a housewife for my current gf. However, I don't think she really wants that.

 

[Ashu]

Wishing I hadn't been suicidal all my life.

 

[kane9191kosugi]

This topic actually scares me more than the fear of CTB or dying lol.

 

[Unattainable666]

Dead

 

[hermestrimegistus]

If I'm actually alive in 10 years my liver will probably be failing

 

[Leavesfromthevine]

Obviously I wouldn't want to live another 10 years and would much rather ctb.

To answer your question though I hope I would at least get a better paying job so living is easier financially speaking. I would have to improve mentally somehow to make it another 10 years so that's a hypothetical. Probably still lonely though as my trust issues won't let me get a romantic partner.
Hopefully I would either have bought my own house are would be buying one soon.

I don't have any actual plans for the future or even the next 6 months. I'm just taking it day by day while trying to plan my end. The future seems pointless to me since I don't really have any life goals other than exist as comfortably as possible.

 

[WeDontKnowTheFuture]

No idea, but probably in a really shitty condition, enslaved, lonely, full of regrets, doing things in a mechanic way while my mind is running on torture.

 

[ChangeWaiter]

homeless or in jail

Same

 

[Kit1]

There is a possibility I might survive - if I do and those flashbacks, nightmares etc are under control (trying hard to deal with them), I might be okay. Just trying my best to deal with the trauma and only time will tell.., But not sure if I will survive or not as that is not necessarily under my control.

 

[melancholia_melodia]

I don't like to think about getting older because I know it will be hell for me. I was already miserable in my childhood and adolescence, but with adulthood comes a huge amount of responsibility and a whole load of burdens to take care of. Ten years from now, I'll probably be even lonelier, sadder, and more stressed than I am now. I would rather die.

 

[enough of this]

I can't even imaging being alive in 10 years. I'm already 74, and dealing with the same depression I've had all my life.
I don't see the point of continuing, and my body knows that.