Venting I do not recommend recreational ketamine to suicidal people

[KillingPain267]

It's a fun experience, but does nothing to my suicidal ideation, nor depression or social anxiety. In fact, I could see how tripping on it could embolden an attempt. It does feel a bit like a near death experience which makes it interesting. But afterwards, you'll just want more as an escape, like with any drug, but knowing that you have to limit yourself to avoid addiction just makes you more depressed. 0/10 recommended for depression, anxiety and suicidal ideation. But under medical supervision, I don't know.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I did ketamine twice a few years ago. Bought it off the clearnet, that shit's kind of easy to find online in my country. I had a local drug lab test it and they confirmed it was pure ketamine, no fent or funny business going on.

The first time was a small dose just to make sure I didn't have an adverse reaction, that the effects wouldn't freak me out, etc. A couple of days later, I felt okay just giving it so I took most of the ket that was left and I k-holed. I felt true, complete love for the first and only time in my life. The whole Universe was just wrapping around me and flooding me with love. It was maybe the best thing I've ever felt. The funny thing is I'm aromantic, I've never loved anyone before and those feelings were so alien. It doesn't change that I'm aromantic; I realize the experience was nothing more than a drug affecting the chemicals in my brain.

I still have some leftover ket from that whole thing but haven't felt like using it. I'm like that with a lot of drugs; I'm curious about the experience but they don't suck me in. In the last decade, I've done shrooms once [ended up mildly allergic, so there won't be a second time]; LSD a few times; 2CB once; MDMA once [that was a fuck-up on my part, I knew it could react badly with my meds and I had a bad fucking time].

 

[KillingPain267]

I did ketamine twice a few years ago. Bought it off the clearnet, that shit's kind of easy to find online in my country. I had a local drug lab test it and they confirmed it was pure ketamine, no fent or funny business going on.

The first time was a small dose just to make sure I didn't have an adverse reaction, that the effects wouldn't freak me out, etc. A couple of days later, I felt okay just giving it so I took most of the ket that was left and I k-holed. I felt true, complete love for the first and only time in my life. The whole Universe was just wrapping around me and flooding me with love. It was maybe the best thing I've ever felt. The funny thing is I'm aromantic, I've never loved anyone before and those feelings were so alien. It doesn't change that I'm aromantic; I realize the experience was nothing more than a drug affecting the chemicals in my brain.

I still have some leftover ket from that whole thing but haven't felt like using it. I'm like that with a lot of drugs; I'm curious about the experience but they don't suck me in. In the last decade, I've done shrooms once [ended up mildly allergic, so there won't be a second time]; LSD a few times; 2CB once; MDMA once [that was a fuck-up on my part, I knew it could react badly with my meds and I had a bad fucking time].

I'm glad you had a good (loving) experience with ket. I'm also glad you don't seem to have an addictive personality like me. I have my drug uses under control... currently, but it's so easy to get sucked in. Despite ketamine not making me feel like you did, I STILL crave it afterwards. In fact, when I k hole or get close to it I regret taking it, lol. But then afterwards I want it again. To me it feels like actual anesthesia, like I'm drifting away, interesting but not life changing. But even when my body freezes I still know what it is and that it's artificial (similar to how you mentioned it didn't change your aromantic personality/orientation???). That's in fact why I don't really believe in ketamine treatment, because I can't see how it would do actual long-term or permanent changes to conditions and states of mind.

 

[Emerita]

I have used K while feeling suicidal, and I still am suicidal. I agree with the statement that recreational use is unlikely to have a healing effect. Even with psychedelics, while the experience can be profound and beneficial for some, it most likely won't solve your mental health. It can also lead to negative experiences that may worsen one's condition. Using these types of drugs is not recommended recreationally especially when you are in a very vulnerable state, as it can increase the risk of addiction. Although psychedelics and ketamine are not physically addictive, they can still result in abuse or a bad trip.

As an addict I think sometimes people don't consider the comedown of drugs when they try them for fun, which can be very risky. While K does have a pretty tame comedown it still can have a negative after effect especially for those who are more likely to abuse substances. And thats coming from someone who abuses substances daily. I would also assume that recreational use is a much higher dose than what would medically be used, so if you must use it I would suggest taking less then you think you should take. That being said I don't think drug use is a smart idea and it most definitely can cause harm.

 

[Cauliflour]

I try to avoid drugs like the plague because of all these PSAs I've seen about the physical side effects and I feel like I still have too much time left to be fucking up my body right now. Ketamine stuck in my mind because it does some screwey to your kidneys (according to some anti-drug PSA at my college) and I have too much dignity to have to wear adult nappies, y'know? Also the drug trade is terrible for the people who actually transport that stuff around and gangs and it's all messy so I just stay away from all that shit because at least then I don't have fucked up physical health, debt and blood of manipulated teenagers on my hands.