My plan to fuck over the living, as a child, before CTB'ing was to deprive my parents of an opportunity to punish me. Basically, after getting a bad grade (which my parents hated with a violent passion) or breaking something in the home, I'd CTB. So, let's say my parents picked up my report card with a bad grade at school, got a call from a teacher that I didn't do my homework, or found out I broke a vase or the TV. They'd immediately get excited about punishing me. But instead of seeing my scared, timid face, they find my cold, lifeless body.
As for today... Back in spring of 2020, I planned to mail an angry letter to my state's politicians, who created mass lockdowns and social isolation, which drove me to want to CTB. (That's the origin of my username.) Since my state is liberal, its lockdowns were one of the worst in America. I'm pretty sure my state's Democrats wouldn't care about me CTB'ing. But I also planned on mailing copies to the news media, both liberal and conservative, to ruin my state politicians' careers.