How do you go from "I want" to "I'm doing it"?

[September5th]

Just out of curiosity, how do you go from "I want" to "I'm doing it"? I'm at that point in which there's nothing keeping me going and, still, here I am, kilometers from actually doing it. It's just too surreal of an idea for me right now. It's comforting to think about it, though. Is there anything more beautiful than being able to not exist in your own terms?
I'm already dead inside, anyway. My triggers have already happened. I just need to do it. Life sucks

 

[Seeking_Peace]

Just out of curiosity, how do you go from "I want" to "I'm doing it"? I'm at that point in which there's nothing keeping me going and, still, here I am, kilometers from actually doing it. It's just too surreal of an idea for me right now. It's comforting to think about it, though. Is there anything more beautiful than being able to not exist in your own terms?
I'm already dead inside, anyway. My triggers have already happened. I just need to do it. Life sucks

When death no longer scares you and the suffering is greater than the momentary physical pain. I've noticed in other cultures death is celebrated and not feared compared to my culture in the U.S.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I'm not sure there is anything, per say, that you can do to force yourself to that point. It really just needs to happen organically. Like the "last straw" kind of thing. Hope needs to die and hope leaves when she is damn good and ready, not when you think she should be ready just because you are. Hope is your inherent survival mechanism. You don't control her. She may be a part of you, but she is a separate entity within you, if that makes any sense at all. When she's had enough, she will die first.

 

[depressedmaniac]

SI can be extremly powerful. some ppl can never do it. I think you just gonna have to wait and see. I dont think there is any secret to it.

 

[empty sighs]

For me it happens at moments at random times I get confused and disoriented over who is me and when I am. It is not always good as you would think because sometimes you're afraid you're going to kill yourself though you want to live. Other times you want to die but you can't kill yourself. Block everything you feel if you want to die I suppose would be my recommendation. If you truly want to die and understand the repercussions that you won't be you at all etc... Understand the reality of what death is. Then there is no point in living really, ask yourself what you're afraid of. I think you will either find a reason to keep living (whatever it is keeping you here) either finding a way to work toward that or not I guess. If not you could start meticulously planning your attempt for if you ever get the urge; it makes me feel better sometimes. Though I obviously recommend you try every other option first. I feel it should be a given already, but it never hurts to state the obvious that the world will be worse off without you in it.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Seems like something that is Beyond our control… Six months ago I was in a fog of despair and barely sleeping an hour a night… If I had a bottle of N I might have drank it… But I have adapted To this much crappier circumstances … And now it's much harder… Almost seems inconceivable to end my life… But all I'm doing is lying on the couch all day avoiding every conceivable responsibility… All those people pushing shopping carts with all their belongings through the streets are still alive… many hopeless … SI is pernicious

 

[outrider567]

When death no longer scares you and the suffering is greater than the momentary physical pain. I've noticed in other cultures death is celebrated and not feared compared to my culture in the U.S.

There's nothing to celebrate about death

Just out of curiosity, how do you go from "I want" to "I'm doing it"? I'm at that point in which there's nothing keeping me going and, still, here I am, kilometers from actually doing it. It's just too surreal of an idea for me right now. It's comforting to think about it, though. Is there anything more beautiful than being able to not exist in your own terms?
I'm already dead inside, anyway. My triggers have already happened. I just need to do it. Life sucks

When your fear of death diminishes---My longtime fear of death immediately diminished right after my girlfriend's death, and my desire to end my life has only gotten stronger since then, these past 4 months(last week was the worst week yet for me)----When she was here, I was a happy person, but now I am absolutely and hopelessly miserable and sad

 

[September5th]

I see. Perhaps what is keeping me alive is the fear of the unknown. Nothingness... Something that's out of our reach in terms of imagination.
Once I'm able to get past that, peace will finally be a reality. I'm living my last year, I believe :)

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel like you cannot force these feelings, only you know when it is the right time to leave. The thought of not existing is also so comforting to me as well, I just wish that it was easier to get there. It feels so pointless, me being alive. In comparison to death, life seems so temporary and meaningless. I do look forward to leaving all the suffering behind. I hope that you find what you are looking for. I wish you the best.

 

[Hercules]

I think it depends on the person and their circumstances. It is one thing to wish you were dead and daydream about it, and another thing to actually aquire the means and get the nerve to actually go through with it.

I think that for most people, something would have to happen in order to push them over the edge and make them reach their breaking point. They would have to reach a point where they fear living another day more than death, and have no hope left that it could get better.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I see. Perhaps what is keeping me alive is the fear of the unknown. Nothingness... Something that's out of our reach in terms of imagination.
Once I'm able to get past that, peace will finally be a reality. I'm living my last year, I believe :)

For me its the act of doing it, and laziness.

 

[September5th]

The only thing I know is that I would definitely die rather than having to live another fucked up year in this miserable planet. Every second here is painful. I can only suffer. There's nothing good at all in being alive. I just wish we weren't told that death is a bad thing from childhood. That way, it would be easier to go.

 

[narudo]

I think it would be once you get to a place of pure desperation where there is zero hope of ever getting out of it and no way things will ever get better.

 

[Graham]

Just out of curiosity, how do you go from "I want" to "I'm doing it"? I'm at that point in which there's nothing keeping me going and, still, here I am, kilometers from actually doing it. It's just too surreal of an idea for me right now. It's comforting to think about it, though. Is there anything more beautiful than being able to not exist in your own terms?
I'm already dead inside, anyway. My triggers have already happened. I just need to do it. Life sucks

For me it was work (on top of family deaths illness old age)

Done over so many times via work

Still not finished

Just came back from the cliff yesterday

Not going to be fun times in the near future

 

[derletzteweg]

I was ready and did it but failed and had to spent some time in the psychiatry after I got out I immediately started to plan again but after the third unsuccessful attempt I don't have the courage to complete it anymore. I don't know how to get myself in this determined mode I was in before.