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raven_rabbid

raven_rabbid

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Mar 5, 2023
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i've kinda been drinking and taking shots of some of the hardest liquor i can handle. even then, the aftertaste is nasty and my stomach urges me to throw it back up. for the unfortunate SN survivors — is this what's it's like? does your body urge you to throw it up right away? is it different with antiemetics? can you stomach it better? please let me know. i want to ctb as soon as i can … but I'm so scared of SI and my stupid body doing its bodily thing …
 
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aufrechtm7

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Feb 14, 2026
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Antiemetics helps to reduce vomiting but it can still happen, aside from that just taking another cup of it is the recommendation.

If you're vomiting from hard liquor, expect much worse aftertaste and vomiting, how many shots are you taking to trigger that though?
 
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raven_rabbid

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Antiemetics helps to reduce vomiting but it can still happen, aside from that just taking another cup of it is the recommendation.

If you're vomiting from hard liquor, expect much worse aftertaste and vomiting, how many shots are you taking to trigger that though?
it took me about 5 shots to get to the point of vomiting from hard liquor. i am wondering how much worse (perhaps by %, e.g. if it is 60% worse) taking SN is. i want to keep it down as best as i can, but i was wondering if AEe are enough to ensure that.
 
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aufrechtm7

♡ strxwberrymilk
Feb 14, 2026
351
it took me about 5 shots to get to the point of vomiting from hard liquor. i am wondering how much worse (perhaps by %, e.g. if it is 60% worse) taking SN is. i want to keep it down as best as i can, but i was wondering if AEe are enough to ensure that.
I don't think anyone on this forum would be able to quantify how much worse it is, but there's a bunch of things that can increase the chances of vomiting with only 5 shots.

People have taken AEs and still thrown up, it's less likely to happen on an empty stomach which is part of the reason for the fast.
 
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egyptian_baddie

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Feb 6, 2026
123
with alcohol , u get the urge to throw up but you can control yourself. SN feels like you have had so much alcohol that you end up throwing up profusely without any control over yourself
 
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Yogih212

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Feb 3, 2026
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It's strange, it's really personal too, some people vomit a lot, some do not vomit much, but I think if you take 25 grams, you'll vomit regardless that's why you need the AE's to make sure some passes to the small intestines. Some people passed away with just a few grams of it. The reason people take 25 grams is to pass out ASAP and make the process less uncomfortable.
 
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VegasLyra

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Jan 16, 2021
87
Yeah apart from not even being able to get SN, this is another reason I'm not considering the method. Regular wine makes me gag and I can barely get it down, I don't even wanna know what it's like with SN
 
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Oct 5, 2025
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If you follow the protocol chances of vomiting reduce. You can't really do anything else except that and hope it goes well. I'm also going with SN while knowing I can't tolerate even two beers without gagging
 
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Suizident

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Aug 7, 2025
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i've kinda been drinking and taking shots of some of the hardest liquor i can handle. even then, the aftertaste is nasty and my stomach urges me to throw it back up. for the unfortunate SN survivors — is this what's it's like? does your body urge you to throw it up right away? is it different with antiemetics? can you stomach it better? please let me know. i want to ctb as soon as i can … but I'm so scared of SI and my stupid body doing its bodily thing …

You've already given yourself the answer:

1. Take antidepressants
2. Cut out alcohol

Haven't you read the guidelines on SN in the resources section?

A bold hypothesis:

Maybe suicide isn't for you after all, and you're trying (unconsciously) to prevent it by botching the attempt.
 
Anarcholoser

Anarcholoser

patron saint of denial
Jan 8, 2021
37
I'm curious to know if anyone has put it down an NG (feeding) tube and had success preventing the vomiting. An NG tube can be self-placed with mild discomfort, and would solve the problem of the foul taste while also having the SN reach the stomach faster.
 
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Johnny99

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Apr 2, 2025
52
I'm curious to know if anyone has put it down an NG (feeding) tube and had success preventing the vomiting. An NG tube can be self-placed with mild discomfort, and would solve the problem of the foul taste while also having the SN reach the stomach faster.
Or put SN inside immediate release capsules.
 
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Suizident

Member
Aug 7, 2025
86
Wouldn't a tube like that make you want to throw up? Have you tried it, or why do you think it's so easy to insert a tube like that?
Or put SN inside immediate release capsules.

The how-to guide in the resources section advises against this because it takes longer. But honestly, I actually like the idea as a way to suppress the urge to vomit.

However, the whole process might take longer because the capsules have to dissolve slowly first.

Or, in the worst-case scenario: could it be that the dead doesn't even kick in at all, because the slow dissolution of the capsules causes the SN to enter the bloodstream more slowly, resulting in a flatter peak of SN in the blood than without the capsules? (flatter curve)

Perhaps one of the users knowledgeable in biology, pharmacy, and medicine will find this thread and be able to provide some reliable information on the matter.
 
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Anarcholoser

patron saint of denial
Jan 8, 2021
37
Wouldn't a tube like that make you want to throw up? Have you tried it, or why do you think it's so easy to insert a tube like that?


The how-to guide in the resources section advises against this because it takes longer. But honestly, I actually like the idea as a way to suppress the urge to vomit.

However, the whole process might take longer because the capsules have to dissolve slowly first.

Or, in the worst-case scenario: could it be that the dead doesn't even kick in at all, because the slow dissolution of the capsules causes the SN to enter the bloodstream more slowly, resulting in a flatter peak of SN in the blood than without the capsules? (flatter curve)

Perhaps one of the users knowledgeable in biology, pharmacy, and medicine will find this thread and be able to provide some reliable information on the matter.

I have placed an NG tube on myself, yes. You will gag while placing it, and be a little sore afterwards, but if it's placed properly should not cause gagging or nausea afterwards. I'm assuming that if someone like me who has no formal medical training could figure out how to do it with a handful of youtube videos and online nursing instructional pamphlets, it cannot be that difficult for the average person. I think it's something that could potentially make SN a LOT EASIER. I wish PC hadn't disappeared, or else I'd be doing it myself right now, I have the NG tube kit on my nightstand.
 
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Chronical_Suicidal

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Dec 9, 2025
57
48 hours regimen can help - taking 1 pill of antiemetics per 8 hours in the 2 days prior consuming SN.
 
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BradGuy123

Specialist
Jul 6, 2025
309
If you follow the protocol chances of vomiting reduce. You can't really do anything else except that and hope it goes well. I'm also going with SN while knowing I can't tolerate even two beers without gagging
Oh gosh I hate the taste of beer too. And that liquid I had to drink for colonoscopy prep was the worst. I don't know if I'd be able to get SN down. I've read it tastes pretty nasty.
 
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doomerguy88

Student
Aug 13, 2025
135
Oh gosh I hate the taste of beer too. And that liquid I had to drink for colonoscopy prep was the worst. I don't know if I'd be able to get SN down. I've read it tastes pretty nasty.
I have heard different things. Some people said it tastes nasty and chemically. Others just say it tastes like really salty water.
 
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BradGuy123

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Jul 6, 2025
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I have heard different things. Some people said it tastes nasty and chemically. Others just say it tastes like really salty water.
Maybe it has something to do with genes. Some people think cilantro tastes like soap. I like the taste.
 
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Johnny99

Member
Apr 2, 2025
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Wouldn't a tube like that make you want to throw up? Have you tried it, or why do you think it's so easy to insert a tube like that?


The how-to guide in the resources section advises against this because it takes longer. But honestly, I actually like the idea as a way to suppress the urge to vomit.

However, the whole process might take longer because the capsules have to dissolve slowly first.

Or, in the worst-case scenario: could it be that the dead doesn't even kick in at all, because the slow dissolution of the capsules causes the SN to enter the bloodstream more slowly, resulting in a flatter peak of SN in the blood than without the capsules? (flatter curve)

Perhaps one of the users knowledgeable in biology, pharmacy, and medicine will find this thread and be able to provide some reliable information on the matter.
There are many different kinds of capsules, some dissolve fast, some dissolve only in the intestine bypassing stomach irritation altogether but possibly with an uncomfortable delay. Gemini told me this:


Rice paper was also mentioned as an option so it's like a small spring roll with the poison inside.
 
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Suizident

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Maybe it has something to do with genes. Some people think cilantro tastes like soap. I like the taste.
That could be the case. Or it might taste different depending on the composition of the tap water used.
 

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