Discussion how do you cope when you cant kill yourself yet

[true-ending]

i dont have any stuff i can kill myself with, but maybe im just too pussy to do it. every day imso sad it feels like my chest is going toc ave in and most days i end up bursting into tears. nothing makes me happy... is there anything ican do to help distract me???? a lot of the time i play otome games and other sweet VNs because they make me feel less lonely but anything mentioning guys can freak me out sometimes because of the sexual harassment i faced ;o_o;

 

[Cristian]

> How do you cope when you can't kill yourself yet?

I'm not sure the best answer to this, but I'm glad you started a thread for it. I've seen a lot of mini-discussion about this, and I've been thinking that it would be good to have a larger discussion of it for all those here who are in dire straits but not ready to CTB yet.

 

[Namelesa]

I don't have stuff to effectively kill myself either, nor am I will able to anytime soon cus of that I can't go outside on my own nor buy anything cus of my parents trapping me as a way to prevent me from dying. I feel like the only good long term coping mechanism for me I can use is just to sleep more as then I skip more of life and have more of breather from it. I have have medication that makes me more sleepy which I use when things are especially painful.

btw cute Komaru and Toko pfp

 

[TAW122]

I just bide my time and wait until the right circumstances before I go forth. I don't have a set time, date, or location, it just depends on what the future holds for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just have no choice but to suffer as I'm so cruelly denied the option of painless, guaranteed death so I can be free from this dreadful, torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake, all I can hope for is the peace of non-existence, for me non-existence is just all that's positive. I suffer simply from being burdened with this deeply undesirable existence, to me existence truly is an abomination and it's one that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

 

[Dejected 55]

I don't cope. I just slowly melt into a puddle. I have a method I hope will work, but I will not know for sure until I try. If I try and succeed, I'm not quite ready yet to go. I don't know why. I just don't feel ready, even though there is no reason for me to still be here. But, if I try and fail... I don't know what I will do... especially if I wait until I'm almost out of options... and if I fail then... it would be a disaster for me.

 

[fuewybfunsfoiceoi]

for me, I'll be able to access ctb materials next year. And so in the meantime I like to imagine ctbing in various ways. It's a bit like imagining food when I'm hungry, with the promise of definite satiation in the future

 

[Hiro Uchiha]

Completely cut off everyone.

 

[ripxxxxcxxx]

Completely cut off everyone.

this is what ive done too. im lucky if i have a real conversation with someone on a given day nowadays.

ive just been going through the motions and ignoring all my responsibilities. im waiting on my ctb things and only find solace in that

 

[Hiro Uchiha]

this is what ive done too. im lucky if i have a real conversation with someone on a given day nowadays.

ive just been going through the motions and ignoring all my responsibilities. im waiting on my ctb things and only find solace in that

You took the words right out my mouth.
I hope we find solace whatever happens. Take care.

 

[ripxxxxcxxx]

You took the words right out my mouth.
I hope we find solace whatever happens. Take care.

truly me too. thank you and i hope you do as well

 

[zizzou]

Smoking, drinking, sh, mind numbing content like yt shorts but these are getting old. Not interested in drugs because I assume it will only make me feel better and who has the money for a drug addiiction nowadays. I need to punish myself for existing, not reward myself

 

[divinemistress36]

Doomscroll all day

 

[Hollowman]

Dissociate every waking moment.

 

[Rev346]

Weed, alcohol, and my dog. Going to work helps get me through most days but it hasn't been helping as much as it used to

 

[Nightfoot]

Stare at the wall, try to sleep, and come here. My anhedonia doesn't allow any other distractions to work.

 

[R-7]

I spend time with my friends whenever I can. I know not everybody has the best support group and even then my friends are oblivious to the idea of my desire to CTB but their company is one of the last things I have that makes life worth living.

 

[true-ending]

btw cute Komaru and Toko pfp

thank you...!!

 

[Forever Sleep]

Distraction non stop. Work with stuff on in the background- music, films, series, pod casts.

 

[Off_Switch]

Distraction non stop. Work with stuff on in the background- music, films, series, pod casts.

...aka living.

 

[Pale_Rider]

I just tell myself idk know what's on the other side so I might was well accept the torment here.

 

[kunikuzushi]

I listen to music nonstop, watch concert videos on youtube, tiktok, watch my favorite streamer when he's live, and of course come here. Basically just force myself to not think to the point of dissociation.

 

[softtodie]

I'm just trying to bide my time remembering it will be over soon hopefully and putting things in place for when I can go I spend my days online watching videos listening to music or spending time with my family