Help How do you convince yourself to keep living?

[Ktk]

how are y'all keep on living? And not choosing suicide?

I'm stuck rn in life. I feel like I'm breaking, but I'm still here cuz I have a feeling I'm too used to being suicidal that anything that isn't aligned with that feeling is wrong.

I've lost almost all methods of escapism, all I have left now is sleep.

I just want to hear all yalll thoughts, I want out

 

[Blue LIPS]

how are y'all keep on living? And not choosing suicide?

I'm stuck rn in life. I feel like I'm breaking, but I'm still here cuz I have a feeling I'm too used to being suicidal that anything that isn't aligned with that feeling is wrong.

I've lost almost all methods of escapism, all I have left now is sleep.

I just want to hear all yalll thoughts, I want out

Do you have anyone or anything in your life? I kinda feel like two people at times that fight each other and I wonder if one of these days, or years, the one that usually wins, loses

 

[unluckysadness]

I think the main reason is SI. For me, I need to clean my apartment which is very messy. I have tons of objects I need to sell. I don't like the idea to leave with a messy home. But I don't think I'll have the energy to clean everything. I must lie to my mother who thinks I just want to clean. Lying to people around me before CTB is not something I like. But what can I do : saying the truth and ending in psych ward ?...

 

[-Link-]

It's a combination of accepting my life circumstances instead of exhausting myself through fighting, and having enough external mental, emotional, financial, and logistical support to keep me from spiralling too far down.

I also believe medical assistance in dying will be available to me (Canada) if/when the times comes that I need it. Just believing that I'll have the option is something that helps me, if paradoxically, turn away from the prospect of suicide.

I use coping mechanisms to get through the moment. I try to find and appreciate the little pleasures. And I know I have supportive family who loves me and who would be devastated if they lost me.

All of this allows me to keep death at a distance.

Is this right, or am I just stagnate? I don't know, but this is where I am right now.

I have a feeling I'm too used to being suicidal that anything that isn't aligned with that feeling is wrong.

It's easy to get stuck like this. We can get comfortable with it. It becomes familiar. Routine. Normal. Whatever you call it, there comes a point where the idea of change feels uncomfortable ("wrong", even).

One thing you could start with is the very fact you're asking the question. You feel "too used to it", but you're also alluding to wanting out of it -- that there's an underlying desire for change. With this in mind, you could use this against your suicidal inclinations by reminding yourself, "This is only the suicidality manipulating me. This isn't what the 'real me' wants. The 'real me' wants to focus on living."

 

[derekWest]

I make a promise to myself to try some sports during 6 month in order to get more muscular.
I think I can feel me better like this...
Maybe it is naive ?

I go to swimming everyday and make pumps and push-up also.

 

[mirror_mercury]

i super chat vtubers for that hit of dopamine

 

[tooBadTooLate]

The antispychotics prescribed to me seem to help me keep living a lot, honestly.

 

[EmptyBottle]

I found the current course quite enjoyable, so that helped me remove CTB from my wishlist